#monsterkin stuff

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Moodboard for my shadow/smoke monster kintype:

All I know now is that he was never malicious. He is the youngest of my kins, thus the closest to me in terms of life cycles. Idk if he was as recent as my last life cycle, but he is from a more recent one.

He always tried to conform to a humanoid shape but never grasped it. He was very neurotic. Bouncing between being anxious to calm to angry. He had a bear companion. He had an obsession with teeth and veins.

He lived in the forest and whenever he would encounter humans, it was more of "did I see something at the corner of my eye?" And never in full sight. He gave people that feeling of them being watched when he was merely observing.

I wish I had a name for him but I don't.

[monstar-threat]

I always find it hard to connect to other darkkin folks because with my strongest kintype, the monster, he wasn't really what you call a "monster". He was rarely able to hold a humanoid form, but he was merely a quick shadow you might see or a looming prescence. He never was hurtful. He was always full of jittery feelings. Never malice. His companion kept him at bay mostly, but he never really hurt anyone. He was always curious about humans and any attempt to communicate would result in fear. It was never his fault.

Meanwhile, most of the monsterkin I meet are ravenous creatures who always tryna kill. Not necessarily bad but my kintype is a kindred spirit. Be gentle.

Idk.

[monstar-threat]

Tonight is rather tough. I feel a shifting in my body. Not one that is tangible. All I want to do is release. All I want is someone to connect with me. All I want is my companion back. Wherever he may be, or however he may be. I need my bear again.

[monstar-threat]

Human bodies are fucking masterpieces. I can't help but wish I could ever had held that form. I feel like the human body would be better if it wasn't a human inside. Human bodies should just be costumes because it's hard being human now.