so heres the long and short of it:
back in 2016, 16 yr old me was a nightmare. I was a pretty popular tumblr blog. had a lot of friends, mutuals, and followers, roughly like 5,000. but I was a dumbass racist bitch who hid behind my self-dxd autism (which I found out I dont even have) whenever someone called me out on my bullshit. I called a wlwoc who told me to shut the fuck up about racial issues that didn’t affect me a TERF for not knowing my pronouns. then I told everyone to report her for harrassment. that was probably the ugliest thing ive ever done, and tbh? im probably gonna regret it till the day I die.
the only reason im not gonna personally try to make amends with that person is she made triggered jokes @ me & other ppl when we talked abt our trauma and accused me of sexually assaulting my ex gf when the opposite is what actually happened. my ex raped me, but nobody took my pain seriously bc a lot of ugly radfems lie abt trans women raping them. I literally got told that bc shes a wlwoc and a trans woman, shes physically incapable of sexually assaulting a white AFAB person like me. this pushed me deeper into my racism and transmisogyny until I got a wake up call when one of my trans friends of color told me they would ditch me if I didnt stop having a victim complex.
I narrowly avoided becoming a radfem, and had to cut ties with a lot of ex friends who ended up being super popular TERF blogs. 3 years later, im back on tumblr to spread positivity instead of being a bitch and call out ppl who act like I did when I was a stuck up snobby racist brat. I fully acknowledge my white privilege, understand that being jewish has no impact on my race whatsoever bc judaism is a religion and not a race, and understand now that aces are not and never will be inherently lgbt.
tl;dr: im sorry to everyone whos been hurt by my shitty behavior and im gonna try hard to do better this time.
