What does 'crush' mean?
JILY CHALLENGE | @sweeethinny vs @moonpuup
Winter trope: "we're lying on top of each other in a snow drift because of a sledding mishap and hey woah did you just kiss me?"
thanks @moonpuup for helping me with this fic, hope you all like it! AO3
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''Harry told me something today,'' James said, lying down beside Lily, who was sitting on the bed with her back against the headboard, a book open in her lap, braiding her hair as she always did before bed.
She closed the book, looking at it curiously. "What did he say?"
‘'That Ginny kissed his cheek, but he didn't understand why she did it . He said he doesn't know if they'll stay friends because friends don't kiss each other's cheeks, right? Dylan apparently said Ginny has a crush on him" James smiled, unable to hide the happiness he was feeling. He had to suppress a laugh when Harry told him that, his chest aching with love for his wonderful son "He was asking me what a "crush means"
"Oh God," Lily chuckled, placing the elastic at the end of her braid. ''What did you say?''
''I told him 'crush' is when you like a person as more than just a friend. But not the way I like you, and that there's no problem with her kissing him on the cheek . It's could have been a simple friendly gesture and that he needn't pay any heed to what Dylan says,'' James shrugged. "Our son is growing up, and now the word 'crush' is being added to his vocabulary… When did we get old?"
"Oh, we're not old." Lily placed the book on the table beside the bed, turning off her lamp and lying down next to James, watching him with a smile on her face. "Do you remember our first kiss?"
‘’How can I forget? I was so embarrassed I thought I was going to die.” He shook his head, the memory making him shiver with the shame of his past self. ‘’You didn't help either,’’
"I didn’t help?"
"You just stood there like you were dead!" James said, feeling almost offended that she didn't remember how she'd been standing when he'd advanced on her.
''We were thrown off the sledge and fell atop each other during that stupid sledging race Sirius paired us up for. I was too busy worrying we were going to hurt! Sorry if I didn't realize you wanted to kiss me" Lily chuckled, putting a hand to James' face and caressing his skin, her green eyes gleaming with amusement, lit by the lamp on his bedside. "But I've wanted to kiss you all day, I just didn't expect you to even do it."
"I was so embarrassed," James chuckled, hugging his wife around the waist and pulling her closer to him. Lily tucked one leg between his, as she always did in winter when she was cold. '’I even told Sirius that I couldn't face you ever again'’
"You ran away from me before I had a chance to understand what had happened and could kiss you decently and like I had been thinking of doing since the beginning of that year."
"Have you been dreaming of me all this time, Evans?" James arched his eyebrows, a smirk on his face.
You looked good and had grown up , James. Quidditch did wonders for your physique, your voice had changed. Lily shrugged. "I couldn't help but fall in love, honestly."
‘’All for my beauty then? Nothing about my personality?” She chuckled, giving him a peck.
‘’Your personality has always been something I liked. It pissed me off sometimes, yes, but I wasn't an easy person either. You were so kind and funny, and all the times I laughed until my stomach hurt and I ran out of breath it was all because of you.” One more peck. '’ you really matured that year. And I knew with certainty I really liked you,'’
'’And I'm glad I convinced you to come over to my house that day, because Merlin knows when I would have the courage to kiss you,'’
‘’You speak as if it were a challenge,’’
James shrugged. '’For me it was, you scared me, and I didn't want to screw it up again… I was afraid of losing your friendship,'’
''If you hadn't kissed me, I would have,'' Lily admitted, touching his nose to hers, smiling lovingly and making his heart melt through his ribs as if it were the first time she had looked at him like that: with love. ‘'It was everything I wanted that day, I couldn't stop thinking about it… I think it's cute that Harry told you about it, by the way'’
"I thought so too," James smiled, kissing the tip of her nose and then her forehead. ''I love you,''
"I love you too, James," Lily hugged him, laying her head on his chest. ‘’I'm glad you kissed me that day, even though I didn't respond as you expected, it was the best kiss of my life... second only to the kiss you gave me after asking me to marry you"
"Thank God, because if no other kiss could beat this one, I'd be disappointed with myself."
"It's just because it was the first…" She shrugged. "You know Potter… I don't believe in soul mates, you know that, but if there really is any truth to it, you're mine" Lily lifted her head to look at him, grinning from ear to ear. James bent down and kissed her, feeling just as in love as he had that day when they were sixteen and fell off the sled after a risky maneuver, James getting on top of her through the fluffy, icy snow, quickly ducking his head and kissing her after looking to her perfect face, her green eyes and deep red hair against the white snow.
"I don't even have any doubts about it, I always knew you were mine," he murmured against her lips. "I will love you until the end of time, Lily."















