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Umbrella vs. Rain: The Driving Forces of Saezuru (3)

Note: my analysis relies heavily on visual elements

III. Aiai gasa (相合傘) - Under the shield of love

"相合傘 - Aiai-gasa" is a combination of the word "相合 - Aiai" - doing something together, and the word "傘 - gasa" - umbrella. Literally, it refers to the act of two people sharing an umbrella. However, as the word "Ai" is homophonic with "愛 - Ai" - love, "Aiai-gasa" connotes a derivative meaning: Love Umbrella. In "Saezuru", empathy and love are the umbrella that shields characters from the rain (or I believe so).

Yashiro vs. Mother & Child

The five panels on this page vividly embody the adage "A picture is worth a thousand words." Following Yashiro's forceful removal of Doumeki from the car, a profoundly expressive and iconic scene unfolds. The stark contrast presented is striking: Yashiro isolated in the car versus the Mother & Child duo outside, together under the rain. While Yashiro remains sheltered within the car, impervious from the rain, Mother & Child rely solely on an umbrella for protection. Yet side by side, the prowess of their bond shines through against the glooming backdrop. Their love acts as an impenetrable shield, leaving them unscathed. In stark contrast, Yashiro, who has just pushed away the person he loves and loves him back for mutual protection, finds himself alone. Despite the physical safety of the car, the rain metaphorically pierces through him in the darkness. It’s not the umbrella itself, it’s love that defends people against the rain. Yashiro has never had love before, but as soon as he has, he’s got no other choice than to let it go. That look in his eyes gives a mix of tragic resignation to his fate, the paradoxical coexistence of envy over and disdain for love, and the determination to give up love.

Fortunately, Doumeki refuses to give up on Yashiro, despite his cruel words. He quickly returns, bringing along an umbrella and water for medicine. His determination to stand by Yashiro's side and shield him is palpable. As soon as he enters, the car is brightened up and the rain retreats back to be outside of the car.

In this scene, Doumeki's arrival with the umbrella not only shields Yashiro from the rain's darkness but also symbolizes his loving presence guarding Yashiro off from his turmoil.

Although Yashiro may not yet be brave enough to acknowledge or confront his feelings, his expression subtly transforms from a frown in the first panel to something softer in the last. This instant change reveals the other side of Yashiro genuinely doesn't protest Doumeki's return, hinting at a hidden vulnerability beneath his tough exterior."

2. Moratorium

This cover is the scenery illustration of an extra where Yashiro has Doumeki run an errand to buy him an umbrella. For Yoneda sensei never half-asses anything, I'd like to take an approach regarding the characters' setting and the story's developments on this painting.

This marks the beginning of Yashiro and Doumeki's journey towards each other, as Doumeki endeavors to stand by Yashiro's side. Amidst the pouring rain, their bare heads stand out starkly in a sea of umbrellas, emphasizing the pain they both endure. In the bustling crowd, Yashiro remains motionless, a solitary figure amidst the chaos. The red light he is leaning against represents his childhood trauma and the yakuza world. Literally and metaphorically, Yashiro can't go even if he wants to. Yashiro's relaxed posture against the crimson glow signifies his reluctant acceptance of his date, a tragic resignation to his circumstances.

On the other side, Doumeki opts not to shield himself with the umbrella he carries and dashes to Yashiro with big strides. This bold act underscores Doumeki's unwavering commitment to protecting Yashiro, even at the cost of his own comfort and well-being. He willingly discards himself. That's why it doesn't end well.

3. Not yet Aiai gasa (相合傘)

When Doumeki returns, Yashiro's intuition clicks when he sees only one umbrella with him, but screws the idea of Aiai gasa right away by forsaking Doumeki drenched in the rain.

The 7th and 8th panel summarizes Saezuru until the end of the Hirata's arc - Yashiro pushes him away through assault, while Doumeki endures it all to remain by Yashiro's side. Aiai saga is meant to be two people under the umbrella, not one. Ironically, despite their deep affection and fierce desire to protect each other, their relationship falters due to a lack of mutual commitment to being together. Another significant contributing factor is their profoundly low self-esteem: Yashiro, feeling undeserving, violently pushes Doumeki away to protect him, while Doumeki, undervaluing his worth, tolerates mistreatment and violence for Yashiro's sake. In this sense, they both push Doumeki away, unable to bridge their emotional barriers.

In the 9th panel, Yashiro blames Doumeki for his tardiness. While Doumeki is indeed late, it's evident that it's not his fault. His arrival into Yashiro's world comes after Yashiro has endured immense suffering alone for a long time, leading to a coping mechanism that rejects Doumeki's presence. However, Doumeki's entry into Yashiro's life marks the end of the Moratorium. Yashiro can now begin to move forward, although the process is slow and painful, signifying a gradual progression towards healing.

By all accounts, in their complicated case, love love alone is not sufficient. Acceptance, self-appreciation, and the mutual wish to be together are essential components for Aiai gasa to work for them.

4. Aiai gasa (相合傘) - Under the shield of love

I'll be positive saying that Yoneda sensei has hinted at their happy ending in this poster for the Rain event, or at the very least, a phase where they accompany each other out of love.

This is Doumeki and Yashiro post-time-skip. The image of them under the umbrella signifies a mutual desire to be together at last. Doumeki holding the umbrella for Yashiro, who is already slightly damp from rain droplets, symbolizes Doumeki's belated but meaningful presence in Yashiro's tumultuous life. This time, Yashiro allows Doumeki to take care of him, indicating a shift in their dynamic. Doumeki's actions also suggest a growth in his self-esteem, from nothing to something.

Their interaction speaks volumes. Despite Yashiro's sulky expression and bombastic side eyes, Doumeki meets his gaze directly. This subtle interaction hints at their ongoing communication and mutual efforts to understand each other better.

Under the shield of love - Aiai gasa, they are navigating their complexities. Under the shield of love, anything is possible, I believe. The mutual understanding, if they successfully arrive, would not only empower them but also serve as a shield, safeguarding and freeing them from their birdcage.

Read the previous parts here:

Part 1:

Umbrella vs. Rain: The Driving Forces of Saezuru (1)

There have been definitely many discussions and analyses on this, but I feel the impulse to articulate it myself so that the sweet fruit of

Part 2:

Umbrella vs. Rain: The Driving Forces of Saezuru (2)

Note: my analysis relies mainly on visual elements II. Empathy - the first step away from the rain Empathy is the solace that shelters th

[megamifantasia]

[laughroditee]

First day of school. 🏫 I can finally take daytime naps again!

Just kidding, I have to actually do work. So I probably won't be around here as often (so I say) until October, which is my project deadline.

So I'm putting myself on a fanfic writing (and reading of most things) moratorium until I publish my actual real-life work. 2024 has been stupid and I can't believe it's almost over, but I'm going to use my procrastination superpower and binge work until this thing is done, because now the end is in sight. 💪 Haha don't do what I do...

I will answer asks and DMs and maybe a few rare things, but I've been very distracted and need to focus now like a big girl. (Haha are you sure I don't have ADHD, doc? Really??)

Okay bye.

🖤🤡🖤

[quirkymarshmallows93]

[etherealkiller]

Ambulatory oratory

Auditory

Word speak

4 stories

For horror core freaks

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Is for me

So let's see

Backwards dancing

Moon romancing

Less pants please

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Can't share this rap

Might give the hoes clap

Hands slapping

Tongue flapping

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Never sophomoric

Always rhetor ic

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Before there's 44 more of these

Eyes will need readers

Salt discharge

Sight bleeders

Eye lipses

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Blemish less ly

Until I rest thee

Wrist weak

Heart dreary

Come near me?

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Halloween time

Not scary

Try 365

Trapped in my mind

No room to find

This chop flow

Need mop and glow

Slow mo squirt

Throat hurts

Eyes close

Time slows

Vomiting throws

Like a shit quarter back

You can have your halfback

Football raps

Gimme dap now

Exhausted how?

No sleepy my team

Only gang I need

3 me

On repeat

No replete

Delete and retreat

Almost over

Take a seat

Welcome to the beginning

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[marpind]

Perder tu amistad se sintió como "Mil tormentas"

No puedo odiarte...Porque...

Tú amistad fue "Mi suerte" en una "Causa perdida"

En mi mente deseaba un "Di que no te vas"

Porque una amistad "no se va"...

Y hoy digo que "Ahora que no puedo hablar"

Pensé en "Cuánto me duele"

Pero recorde que "No hay más que hablar"...

[fortheloveofwonderland]

Not me completely unprovoked creating new moodboards for my own fics 🤷🏼‍♀️ maybe more to come, maybe not. Who knows?

Be My Adventure

Fake You Out

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