Thank you! The bar is half-based on a place I used to go when I was younger, that just had the vibe. So, the outfit was based on what a woman could fairly easily get away with wearing in the 40s (Since FMA's dating is, uh, a very loose suggestion that is mostly about substituting alchemy for modern war machines. DO NOT SPOIL ME FOR ANYTHING ON THIS OR ANY OTHER SUBJECT PLEASE I AM ON EPISODE 19) while still skewing masculine. They even called that kind of pants "mannish trousers" ahaha. I think she half-panics any time she can't just wear her uniform and has like three choices.
Thank you! I basically got Hawkeye drunk so I could play with a bunch of cursed ideas I've had in my head on the subject of her mindset. Girl is out of her fucking mind. The ballerina/tin soldier is a story I read as a kid, I still remember the pink book with the gold detailing it was in. I LOVED that story, and i loved all it represented, and it works so well for me here. The idea of this indescribably bond that does not make sense, and that you KNOW does not make sense, is basically what I find so compelling. "You can't describe what it is, only what it isn't" was basically at the heart of my thought there.
And yeah, Hawkeye just, "Unfortunately, you don't have the horrific mental problems necessary to do this job"
Thanks I'm full of raw, unseemly arrogance and while a part of me is interested to see how much my take lines up with canon another part of me does not care ahahah. (WHich ironically--though I know you know this geeky--is the number one of me being GONE. If i'm like, "Canon can do whatever dumb shit it wants, irrelevant to me." it means I'm. stuck. Welcome to the dollhouse assholes.)
Oh yeah, I mean, it's the whole "Let me be your knight, your service dog, your sword hand and your shield, I am your war horse and I will bear any weight you ask of me, and if anything happens to you it will have to get through me first" which is very compelling and EXTREMELY fucked. I love it too! But I do often think that, sometimes we should be highlighting, for fun, fashion, and self-confidence, what an incredibly fucked line of thinking that is. It is not okay. It makes me want to sit her down and go, "Girl." (She would tune me out IMMEDIATELY)
Also I think part of the reason I ended up getting so hard into these two, among other things, is, you know I was telling you I liked Hawkeye because she was the strong silent type but a woman though? Similar. You see this insanely fucked dynamic with two men, or two women, or a woman and man with the man as knight, but you do not often see the reverse. So I like that. I like the strong wall being a woman, and I like them just being insane, broken, wildly codependent people, and someday! Something is going to happen and they are going to EXPLODE because it's so much of love and duty and frankly, taking liberty and advantage, and familiarity and falling into these patterns that work, but don't, and enabling each other's bullshit, and it's under SO MUCH PRESSURE. God do i want to be a fly on the wall.
THANK YOU THAT WAS THE INTENTION. I don't expect we'll ever get it, and, I don't actually think I want it, but I am very curious always and like to think about what Roy was like before. Who got killed in Ishbal and left the Roy we know in his place? Not to say there's nothing of him there but I think there is some kind of palpable loss, and so long as he keeps walking this insane, pointless military road, he is never going to be able to find any of the pieces he lost. He's just digging a fucking deeper hole.
One of the earliest ideas I had for this story was the opening with "Did you recommend me" Ross assuming the answer was yes, because they are both Hardworking Military Women, and drunk-ass hawkeye coming to reveal the answer was, no, I did not. You're welcome.
Maybe I'll let it fly! It wasn't tonally right to the end of this thing, it's much more cute about it all, so I don't regret scrapping it, but it could be its own thing.
