Sooo I possibly get my results for my ultrasound tomorrow... That means that I find out if the new lump that has grown is either a thyroid problem or another neurofibroma or a cancer. Like, I know that if it was BAD bad, then I would probably be contacted much faster but...If it's a rare cancer (which the cancers associated with NF normally are) then it would take many groups of people to find some kind of diagnosis. And many people mean A LOT OF TIME. If it is cancer, then I know it will probably be MPNST or some kind of soft tissue cancer, but still...those cancers are horrible, and from what I've seen, the chemo is worse. In a way, though...If it IS cancer, then at least I would have an answer. I would have an answer and I could get it cured. Idk. Being sixteen (in six days!!) means that you're incredibly insecure as fuck. Having a plexiforma on your neck/face is also bad. And possibly having cancer??? AHAHAH That mixed in with GAD, insomnia, some sort of depression/dissociation disorder, and being a queer trans person? Even better! the world fuckin hates me sometimes.