#mtftmtf

[thesmallestpotatto]

I've said this before, but if anyone wants to talk about the journey of de/retransitioning or knows places were I can find people who share it would be much appreciated. Logically, I know other ftmtftm and mtftmtf people exist, but I've only ever heard us be talked about, not invited into the conversation and it feels really lonely.

[selenic-echoes]

Okay so sorry if this kills the fun, but I can't in good faith engage with this kink anymore, at least for myself. I do still like the idea of maybe doing some fakeboy force femming stuff with someone else, but at this point mtftm really gives me the ick, especially when it's about myself.

It's worth mentioning I have an identity disorder and, ya know, who knows if I still have some alter in my head that wants to be a boy, but if they exist they've been extremely quiet the past month, and this has been part of an overall decrease in interest in detrans going back to maybe early May.

Something interesting about the detransing I did over the summer is that none of it, nominally, was for the sake of detransitioning. Yeah, I stopped hrt for two months, but that was because I wanted to freeze sperm before getting bottom surgery. Yeah, I got a short haircut, but that was as an effort to rediscover my femininity by sort of starting over from scratch! Believe it or not, that seemingly worked.

The past couple weeks I have been putting more effort into being feminine than I had for a year before that, largely to compensate for my awful haircut. I've put time into planning out solutions for how I look, etc.

Part of this is that I've been touching grass again and I realized I really, really want people to perceive me as a girl. I think going off hrt might have affected how my face looks very subtly, but that may be moreso the haircut, and also I think it has been reversing in the month I've been back on.

In the end I'm also learning a lot about patience from this. I've always been someone who wants to do all my plans right now. This whole thing has forced me to think months ahead and not worry about the present moment. Which like, I know most people will tell you being in the moment is supposed to be the best way to live life, but for me I'm miserable if I'm stuck in right now. I like to plan ahead. This is helping with that.

I have another haircut scheduled now in about a month and a half with my actual hairdresser I've gone to most of my life and she's going to do her best to make it look not awful. There are a number of other things I'm trying to do to fix all of this.

This semester is just gonna have to kinda suck I guess, but I've learned an extremely valuable lesson about patience and appreciating what I have, so... good?

I'm just saying this experience probably made me a better person, and has made being a girl in the future more sustainable, so I guess it's not entirely a bad thing.

Moral of the story: exploring your identity is a good thing, and you might find yourself where you need to be in the end, but man can that journey to get there hurt a whole lot.

Be careful.

Last thing, I think I am going to post on this account more again to continue documenting my retransition, but I will probably also continue to engage in detrans kink, just not necessarily in the same way, so, you don't have to unfollow me if you're only following for detrans stuff.

[oopsallhornyfluid]

Not me getting forced to change my discord profile to have my pronouns as she/her and having someone use she for me when normally they would have used he/him in that situation. Him being polite and respectful was actually 4d chess misgendering kink for me and I couldn’t say anything about it.

[ninakaina]

Hi Emrys what are your non patho thoughts for the day

omg i have a lot actually. the first day of the tallships america conference was rlly interesting and i’ve been thinking about my career/future in general plus i get to go on monday and see the boat i work on get hauled out of the water which will be crazy i have no idea how they do that

[selenic-echoes]

WAIT WAIT WAIT I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING SO GOOD.

I CAN TAKE THIS FROM THE OTHER SIDE.

I'M A FAKEBOY. I NEED TO BE FEMINIZED.

MALE TO FEMALE TO MALE TO FEMALE.

DETRANS CAN STILL BE HOT FOR ME IT JUST HAS TO BE RETRANS!!!

THIS IS GONNA BE SO GOOD FOR MY DYSPHORIA!!!

DMS OPEN.

[selenic-echoes]

Well, I think it's time for a new pinned post!~

First of all, please send me asks and dms, I love that type of thing! I think it would be a lot of fun to have a bunch of anons! 🤗

Send me one and I'll put your emoji here:

This is like 25% Kink account and 75% Life updates and personal thoughts, but that 25% of kink is enough that you should not be here if you are a minor 🫤

I very strongly want to stay private, so I'm going to try to refrain from providing identifying information, but sometimes I can't help myself.

Anyway, I'm Echo, I'm a former detransitioner, but now I'm retransitioning into a girl! I am intersex, but was quite literally "assigned male at birth". I transitioned to be a girl many many years ago before beginning to have doubts and experimenting with being male in 2024 and 2025. I flipped back and forth for a while during that time and considered myself gender fluid to some extent, and even went off estrogen for 2 months during the summer and got my hair cut very short. Now I look mostly male (largely because of the haircut more than anything else) and I've decided I am more or less now a fakeboy that needs to be force femmed!!!

If that's complicated and confusing I'm sorry, but I'll make it simple: I need some people to make sure I become a real girl again! Someone as cute and girly as possible :P

I'm always interested in meeting other people interested in the same stuff as me, and I love mutual detrans!!!

I am poly and open to starting an online relationship!!!

My sexuality is confusing, but maybe I'm bi idk.

I sometimes age regress but it is not a kink it is just because of trauma. Also sometimes I will talk about school and homework and stuff but it's a community college and I am an adult.

Things I like: Baseball, Cartoons, Movies, Other Stuff~

Kinks I have:

Detrans (or I guess Retrans), Breeding, Toxic Relationships, Transformation, Corruption, Hypno, Gaslighting, Political Play, Brainwashing, Identity Changes, Exhibitionism, Gooning, Bright Colors... probably other stuff.

Things I'm very not into:

I dunno, scat probably. Anything illegal obviously. I've never really been a furry but I'm not averse to it.

Thank you for your attention to this matter!

[selenic-echoes]

Either way, itd be hot to be a pretty girl getting her cock milked right? It sounds hot

being a pretty girl sounds nice yeah, getting milked? idk i’m more of a dominant type regardless of my gender. I have been submissive in the past but in sort of a power bottom way. The main way I like being submissive, at least in a sense, is through being the object of someone’s desires. I used to be really into being a hot untouchable egirl findomme, but it made me feel submissive in a sense because people were pursuing me, and I liked teasing them for it. Kinda want to go back to that ig.

I mentioned I shaved my head in October… my hair is long enough at this point that if I put some makeup on I do look pretty, but it’s still not effortless. A lot of why I fell so hard into detrans kink the past half year or so is because when I looked in the mirror I felt like I saw a guy. That’s a little different now I guess but I would still like my hair to be longer.

[talosine]

Good news: the entity responsible for your genderbend isekai fully recognizes your gender identity.

Bad news: this means that instead of magically receiving a new body that matches your true self, you have to transition all over again.