A bunch of nonsense and feels under the cut. Imagine a 16 year old girls diary entry, that's what you're gonna get. Oh, and some cleaning stuff.
Today has been emotionally exhausting. It felt like everything that could go wrong, did. Even if that wasn't the case, that's what it felt like. My mom and I got into a pretty intense argument. The more I grow up, the more we butt heads. Our past has been less than stellar, but we've always connected to each other. I know she loves me more than anyone, which is maybe a bad thing to say considering I have a younger sister, but that's how it is. We've always been more like friends than mother-daughter, which has caused more than enough issues.
Now that I'm actually becoming an adult, our fights are... real. About important, adult, real problems. I butt my head in when it comes to how my mom deals with my sister, she butts her head into my relationship. It went too far today, we both said things that in normal circumstances we would never.
Surprisingly enough, that fight motivated me to clean up. Anger fuels me more than almost anything. I cleaned up the living room, because it was kind of getting to a bad place. I threw all of the dirty socks/etc lying around into the hamper, hung up coats and clean laundry that were residing on the couch, swept the floor, cleared off the table, and found a permanent place for our brand new printer. It took maybe 30-40 minutes to do everything.
Speaking of the brand new printer, Drew bought that so I could print out my registration forms for the online classes. Everything is filled out, I just need a date of leaving letter from my old school. That should be picked up on Monday. I'm excited to be moving forward, but at the same time I'm anxious and worried. I dealt with school in a horrible self destructive way. I don't want to repeat my mistakes.
I'll be doing mostly math/science courses until I'm caught up. When I went to an alternative school, they let me skip math/science and instead work on AP History/English up until grade 11. So, I have 9 credits in total. Grade 9 math, here I come. This mess is going to be difficult to clean up.
I'm honest to god, shit at math. One of my friends linked me to a math review website -> https://www.khanacademy.org . I thought, cool, I'll review grade 8 math so by the time I get my grade 9 course, I'll be caught up. Yea, no. I'm in the fourth grade at the moment, apparently. Learning multiplication and fractions and all that jazz. It makes me feel quite stupid, honestly. But, at least I'm taking the necessary steps to get my degree.
Hopefully sometime this week the mold issue in the basement will be dealt with. If it's not done by next week, I'll take matters into my own hands, somehow. It's time to move out of the living room.
