// And before I get any ballsy mofo bull-rushing my inbox about me joining the crybaby bandwagon, hear me out first - I still need to put my two cents in the donation box.
I support Riot’s desire to want to change things ‘for the better’. I also understand that they are experimenting and learning as they go, because let’s be realistic - there is no class where you are taught ‘How to retcon a fictional world and make it believable and organic’. The people at Riot are hard-working, passionate people and they do what they can. It’s why I still respect them, after all this time, and continue to support them - but that doesn’t mean I like it.
I also understand, sympathize and support the discomfort and general displeasure muns and muses belonging to the Targon region - after all, these new changes bring so much light to some matters ... and at least triple the darkness left in the wake of these revelations. Suddenly, the characters they thought they knew, and lovingly tended to aren’t ‘canonically’ who they thought they were. They are different - almost strangers.You would be upset too, if a member of your family suddenly and drastically changed from who they were (and not necessarily for the better).
You would figure that this change shouldn’t affect me, so by all means I could just let it die, but ... I need to mention that behind all the groundwork of my blog, the still work-in-progress framework that keeps promising to be updated, I already had the general mindset and plot-path prepared for the Bastion. In fact, I had planned all the future 5-6 major events I had planned for the AU I have here, and the present Targon changes kinda threw a wrench in one of them.
No biggie, right? I could just change it ...
And change the next one that comes, which could be Ionia. Or the Void. Or I will be put in the stance of retconning everything I had written for Demacia and/or Noxus because maybe the two will enter the spotlight again - and you can bet there will be some sort of edgy plot twist somewhere. Inb4 Garen and Kat get married and become the K&Q of the newly-unified Demaxus, fukken kill me now
That’s what frustrates me. And it really kills my motivation to work on something that (in my mind) has such great potential, to the point where it’s completely underwhelming for someone as simply as me to undertake.
I did know it wouldn’t be easy, though. I did imagine that I wouldn’t be able to live up to expectations - and with IRL situations meddling in-between, it makes me wish I had the foresight not to start it. Do I regret it, though?
... Nah. I do regret letting people down, though. That will always be my biggest regret.
At the moment I am incredibly frustrated (because of the radical changes I need to take in) and exhausted (because college) and in no state of mind to write anything properly. I’ll try to stay updated and update in turn ...
But to be honest, I don’t know where I’m going anymore. Well, I do - but I can’t bring myself to see the point anymore ... because we can obviously see how change can divide the community. And I don’t want to be one of the causes to create such a big gap between people.
