summary: y/n letâs peter know exactly how she feels about him. while peter is on a high he almost get consumed by negative thoughts.
A/N: hi my loves. finally, i uploaded the next chapter of this fic. this series has been my most supported by far and i just want to thank everyone for reaching out. you can all fight me for not uploading for almost 2 years. i wouldnât blame you. thank you if youâre still supporting me<3
âbabyâ. y/n and peter had spent the entire day in bed holding each other, loving each other, kissing each other⊠lots and lots of kissing. but could anyone blame them? they had experienced a rough month. they had unofficially âbroken upâ, if that was even an accurate description. neither of them were sure. what they did know is they never wanted to go through something like that again.
âangelâ. it was so nice to kiss peter again. his lips were so soft and she loved feeling them curl up at the sides when he was smiling. y/n missed how he held her, cradled her, as they shared the intimate moment. and right now, peter was holding her like a precious gem as he kissed her sweetly. his hands were on her cheeks, hips, thighs, in her hair⊠anywhereâŠeverywhere. he leaned in closer every time she was about to pull away, bringing her back in by placing his hand on the back of her head.
âpeterâ. he loves hearing her say his name. after a few weeks of not hearing her sweet voice, anything she said sounded like his favorite song. heâs getting hot, but he canât stop kissing her. he never wants to stop, even if his lungs are burning.
y/n starts giggling. âwaitâ, she smiles at peterâs eagerness. peter lets out a little noise in disapproval. her hand brushes his long (now messy) curls from his forehead. y/n takes a moment to admire him. peterâs cheeks were red, lips swollen, eyes hooded as he smiled at her. âsomeoneâs enjoying themselvesâ, y/n teases. peter hums deeply. âi missed you so muchâ, she whispers. her days home were dreadful, especially since her parents were still fighting every night. she missed his comfort, his silence, his peace in the time when her life was surrounded by chaos at the moment. peterâs cheeks turn a deeper shade of red. he reached up to grab her hand, placing soft kisses against the back of it. y/n sighs and rests her forehead again his. âthank you for forgiving meâ, she whispers sincerely.
peter closes his eyes and rubs his thumb against the back of her hand. of course he forgave her. he was going insane without her, it was only a matter of time before he would break down and show up at her door.
âyou mean so much to me, peachâ. peterâs heart flutters. thereâs his special name again. the first one she gave him. the one he cherished the most. peter sighs happily and rolls on top of her, kissing her deeply again and showing her just how much she means to him.
the pair were inseparable after that. sheâd come over every day after school. sometimes he would come over if her parents werenât home. most days out of the week they would spend the night with each other. 90% of their days were spent making out, the other portion full of watching movies together or having deep conversations. maybe itâs puppy love, but they had been more infatuated with each other than ever.
âdonât go. stay one more nightâ, peter pleads. y/n had a small family trip over spring break. nothing too far, but she wasnât going to be home for a few days. which meant peter would be âaloneâ for the first time in weeks. fortunately, he had already made plans to hang out with ned and mj.
âi canât, lovely. i still have to pack before i leaveâ. y/n was already standing in the hallway saying her goodbye while peter pushed her to stay one last time. âthe second iâm back iâll come see youâ, she promises. peter sticks his bottom lip out slightly. she coos at him and places her hand on his cheek. âokay, precious?â, she asks. y/n copies peterâs pouty lip. he frowns and buries his face in her neck, pulling her into a tight hug. she wouldnât be gone for long, but waiting for her to come back will feel like an eternity. âiâll be back before you know itâ. peter sighs, squeezing her tight one last time before pulling back to look down at her. she rests her chin on his chest, looking up at him. peter smoothes her hair back into her hairline.
âiâll miss youâ. y/n smiles, sheâll miss him too. y/n gazes at peter for a moment. she tries to memorize every feature of his perfect face. his long eyelashes, fading freckles, grown out hairâŠhow is he so beautiful? so perfect without trying. peter blushes under her gaze.
y/n stares at peter for a moment. there are so many things wrong in her life and recently things started looking up. her family vacation, their patched-up relationship⊠everything and everyone that was important to her was safe and healthy and happy. she couldnât have felt more secure. peter furrows his brows as if to ask what sheâs thinking about. he can see the gears turning in her head. âi love you, peterâ. there was no wavering in her voice as she said it. she was so sure of her feelings. it was almost as if it was a promise. peter smiled wide and cupped her cheeks as he kissed her. he could feel her lips curl as she smiled. peter felt like the happiest boy in the world. he felt like electricity was running through his body. he felt like everything was right in the world. and he poured all of these emotions in their kiss.
y/n giggled and walked towards the door. âiâll see you soon, honeyâ. she had to leave. it wasnât fair. he didnât want her to go.
itâs just a week, peter. you can go a week without seeing her. right?
peterâs cheeks hurt from smiling. heâs so happy he doesnât know what to do with himself. he hasnât felt this happy since their new yearâs kiss. their first kiss. life is good.
peter, ned and mj were having dinner at nedâs place tonight, with the plan of watching a movie after they ate. ned offered since he had the largest dvd collection of out the bunch. his grandmother had made a large pan of meatloaf and potatoes for the boys, and a vegetarian option for mj. the group enjoyed their meal in silence, using their hands to do the talking for them. ned and mj had enrolled in a sign language course this semester and was doing their best to communicate better with their quiet friend. peter appreciated the effort. he wasnât sure when would be the next time he spoke.
âso, any plans for the future?â, ned asks. peter tilts his head at the question. heâs not sure how to answer that. âi mean, what are you gonna do when you go off to college?â, ned asks hesitantly. peter furrows his brows. he had never thought about that. it was still so far away.
in a little over a year he would be graduating, working towards his career inâŠheâs not too sure yet. he had never had a normal life, so he didnât really have time to think about his future. grieving multiple deaths at such a young age gave peter a âshort-sightedâ view of the world.
peter knew he wanted to help people, but he didnât like the idea of going to med-school. he was always the top of his class when it came to science and math, and he always thought it would be cool to work closely with law enforcement. maybe he could be peter parker, fbi agent.
peter shrugs. âwhat about you and y/n?â. why was ned asking so many questions?
âwhat about us?â, he signs slowly. peter doesnât like where this conversation is headed. he just got his girl back, he didnât want her to be ripped away from him again.
did y/n say something to ned?
âwell, college is a long time from now, but itâs not that far away. what are you guys gonna do? will you stay together?â. ned was pressing a little too hard. itâs nice that he cared for his friend, but it gave peter doubts that he never had before.
mj glares at ned. it was obvious that his words are affecting peter. âwhat he means to say is that we care about you. and we want to make sure youâre okayâ. her voice calms peter down a bit, but not enough. âand as much as i hate to admit it, even i wouldnât want to see you two break upâ. peter doesnât respond, just stares at his half eaten meatloaf as doubt consumes him. peter had never thought about what would happen if they decided to go to different schools. he hopes they would stay together.
what if she doesnât want to?
suddenly, peter isnât in the mood to eat anymore. as much as he loves meatloaf, he didnât think his stomach was strong enough to continue eating. he had lost his appetite.
thankfully, ned had dropped the topic and spoke to mj about⊠peter doesnât know, actually. he had tuned them out and if the pair were trying to get his attention he wouldnât be able to tell. he couldnât hear anything, anymore. he felt anxious and sad and empty all at the same time. it was a terrible feeling. he knows he wonât be able to shake it for a while.
peter isnât sure how, but he ends up sitting in front of the tv in nedâs room. the screen is white and makes a quiet static noise. the only other sounds that can be heard from the room are mj and nedâs soft snores. âdid the movie finish already?â peter doesnât even remember how he got to the room. his wet curls are dampening the top of his pajama shirt. peter looks down and tugs on the fabric, almost like he is seeing it for the first time. âwhen did i shower?â, peter thinks. this happens sometimes. he feels so low that his body functions on autopilot just so he can keep surviving. there are always such huge gaps in his memory at times like this. he hates when this happens.
peter checks the time on the cable box- 3:03am. heâs been out of it for a while. even though he had been on autopilot for the last few hours, he still feels exhausted. peter unlocks his phone, and for whatever reason he did he canât remember anymore because he is staring fondly at his home screen. itâs a picture of his love, his pretty girl. he sighs. this week was dragging on, and peter was sick of it. he wanted her home already. just then, a text pops up. itâs from her.
âsleep well, baby. iâll be home soon <3â.
the message brings a smile to his face. of course she knows exactly what to say to make him feel better. she always knows what to say. itâs almost like she can sense that heâs going absolutely insane without her. it had only been a few days since she left for vacation, but peter wanted her back more than ever. peter sighs, letting his tense shoulders drop. he finally is able to relax, letting his body sink into the large air mattress.
there was so much on his mind. so much he wanted to talk about. he decided against telling her about what happened at dinner. he had so much to tell her, ask her. but all that could wait. it would be best to have this conversation in person. peter definitely couldnât handle another intense talk tonight. right now he just needed some sleep.
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