#my tears

[oporayamm]

No one talk to me. Tears are pouring down my cheek after I watch the new Galahad MV. I can't focus on my finals now.

MY BABBYYYY

[dark-lord-of-awesomeness]

Stan probably wouldn't - because he just wouldn't he loves these guys and they love him so it wouldn't really happen

BUT

It's been a while since "Nikola" and Stan's not "all there" per se, but he's doing better at remembering, being a human. In fact, even though Ford mourns the loss, Stan has asked to "move in" and have his own space! Progress has never looked better!

Stan remembers.

he remembers the comments, not graduating, the bullying, the sleepless nights, the science fair, getting kicked out, and every single minute of every single day he was fighting to go back home. One more day, one more push, one more bullet, gash, wound, scar, drug, ploy, gamble, to try and pay his way back into his family.

to try and get enough money to eat, sleep, call ford, over and over and over again

and he is so so scared

he remembers how far he pushed, how far he went, what he did, what he was forced to, what he rationalized out and every single fucking thing in his life that made him hate who he was

and he wants to forget again

or

he doesn't want to be human again

not this human

he

just

wants

to

stop

and he can't. Ford, Carla, may, shifty, tate, and even Fiddleford won't let him rest - won't let him just sit and *exist* as himself - it's always "only Stan" or "be a human" or "you're so close to remembering and doing so great"

he hates it

he doesn't want to be Stanley - a failed human (a failed brother, son, man, uncle)

he wants to be Nikola - a good cat (smart, cute, cuddly, warm, obedient?, loyal, brave)

so he leaves

he leaves so he can be *himself* so he can

*exist* without the expectation to be more than he is

without the expectation to be *stanley*

it's dark. He had planned it carefully, smartly, stealthily, (cat-like)

a collar dropped in a storm drain after a storm (sure to wash away and leave a false trail for later when it's tracked)

and a hop on the truck that brings stock and groceries to the Duskerton's Store

and he's off to a bigger city - out of gravity falls and everything that includes.....Stanford's brother.

he's not...that

he's a cat. A good one. And a damned smart one too.

he'll figure it out

(....and maybe.....just maybe.... Shermie could use a cuddly friend to grow up with?)

(PS Ford and Co. POV not included - it hurt too much and GAH I made this too long sorry I love your “Nikola” and cat Stan and ghhgggggg babies)

AAAAAAAUUUUUUUUGGGGHHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

This is heart breaking. You've broken my heart. Stan's whole self is such a mess he's run away from home so he can stop being Stan and go back to being a cat with no expectation is!!

He's gonna be hunted horror movies style while Ford has a panic attack, and it's so sad :( not wanting to he stan but still being a part of the family through shermie has left me puddle of emotions.

Thank you for chucking this brick at me. I'm glad you liked "Nikola"

[pazurumare]

Pragmata

[lanschpaket]

I wanted to post these, cause I love these shots Vi having Vander back with hope he can be healed. And talking things out with her sister with the idea of staying in the underground utopia together I am in tears ;w;

[pocketseizure]

Soulmates

A farmgirl gives the man she loves her blessing to return to the princess chosen for him by fate.

( 760 words . also on AO3 )

You finally came back, fairy boy, and no one was more surprised than me. A lot of people pass through the ranch, and no one stays for long. I didn’t remember everyone who’s ridden away on one of our horses, but I remembered you. A girl never forgets her first love.

When you passed through our gate with Epona, my goodness. She had grown, and so had you. Epona was always a handsome horse, but you took my breath away. I didn’t expect someone like you to be so shy, or so quiet. When it mattered, though, your hands did the talking.

My dad never forgot you either. You know how he is, his head stuffed with cucco feathers, but he would talk about you sometimes. How much he appreciated what you did for us, up at the castle. He’d talk about how he’d love to have someone like you around the farm. He may not know much, he’d say, but he could see a man who was good with animals from a mile away.

That’s why he was so quick to offer you a job here. When you accepted, the only person happier than him was me. It was a dream come true. Does it embarrass you when I say that? Good. I like to see you blush. But I did daydream about you; you and all the adventures you had with Epona. It was silly fairytale nonsense, nothing like what you actually experienced. I still can’t imagine what you went through.

None of that mattered out on the ranch, of course. Just like my dad always said, you have a way with animals. When people ask about you, I’m happy to tell them that you can herd anything, from cows to goats to cuccos to cats. The animals respect you. It’s no mean talent, believe me, and I’ve always been a little jealous that it comes so naturally to you. It’s a shame that… Well, nevermind.

And you were just as respectful to me. That’s important. The people from Castle Town always looked down on me, a farmgirl milking cows and shoveling hay. But you never did. You were always so kind. So kind, and so supportive. It’s silly to think of it now, but I wanted to be a singer when I was little. I knew that dream would never come true, but you kept the fantasy sweet, you and your ocarina. I’ll always be grateful.

My dad has been dropping hints about wedding bells for months now. I’m sure he’s been pestering you as well. He keeps talking about grandchildren. Which is funny, because… Well, I just wanted to say that you don’t have to worry about that. I’ve been careful. I’ve worked around animals my entire life, after all. I wouldn’t make a silly mistake like that.

I guess I knew it couldn’t last. You were on your way to the castle before you stopped here. I didn’t expect you to stay so long, to be honest. I know you have someone you need to meet. I see it glowing sometimes at night, you know. That triangle on the back of your hand. I wonder if she wakes up in the night too and sees her own hand glowing. I wonder if she sees it and thinks of you. I’m sure she does. I’m sure she’s waiting for you.

And it’s happening again, isn’t it? The thing you left to stop. Some sort of war I can’t even begin to understand. You and the princess will fight together, won’t you? Just like you were always destined to do. Did you ever think that, if you and your magic triangle just stayed away from Hyrule, maybe none of this would have to happen?

No, no, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that. I’m just afraid of what will happen to the ranch, if there’s war. What will happen to the horses we provide for the soldiers. What will happen to Epona, and to you. I’m so afraid of losing you.

But you can’t fight fate, I know that. You can’t cut the strings that tie you to the princess. I don’t resent you, and I’m grateful for the time we spent together. No matter where you are, and no matter what battles you’re fighting, please know that there’s one girl who’s singing and daydreaming about the days we spent together with Epona, just eating apples and enjoying the sunshine.

You should go. Go with my blessing. Go now, before sunrise. Go on, and… And be sure to tell Epona I love her.    

[petrichal]

I CRIED LIKE A BABY THIS CHAPTER 😭😭😭😭😭💓💓💓 AAAAAAAA ROBINNNNNN

[dreamtydraw]

WHYYYY WHYYY DID SOMEONE REBLOGED AN OLD LAURIALET X SAGE POST NOW I'M CRYING MY ASS OUT BECAUSE I MISS MY SHIP 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

*punch the air and cry in agony*

They will never get an ending *sob*