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“Depression is Mental”

In eighth grade, I was diagnosed with depression. I did not know what that term meant and why did the doctors put this title on me. When the doctors told my mom the news, she automatically said, "Ella no tiene depresión. Eso es mental." Let me translate it, she said, "She does not have depression. It is all mental." I saw my father's face, and all he could do was to cry.

My diagnostics came about was when I started cutting myself on my legs and my arms. Any place I felt that wouldn't show, I cut it. My best friend at the time, Justine, would tell me that was not normal and to get help. Justine, thank you for the advice! I took her advice and showed my school counselor what I was doing to myself. We sat and talked about my whole life, and he was shocked. He asked this question, "Why a person that seems so happy can hide all these pain?" It was a tricky question, and I could not answer it. He, later that day, snitched on me and called my parents. Such a rat... When the principal sat me down with my parents, the counselor, and the school priest, she felt that I needed to be rushed to the hospital and get some help. Both of my parents cried because they did not know what I was going through and never experienced this kind of behavior.

When I got checked in the hospital, the nurse took everything from me. My iPod charger, my shoelaces, basically anything that causes harm to me. My mother and I looked at each other, not saying a word, and I saw it in her face that she was disappointed. I was interviewed by four therapists, and they each said that I had depression. They provided my mom with a list of the best therapist in Philadelphia and told us they we are free to go. "Free to go?" I questioned myself. My mom let me go for therapy for a month and believed that I was lying about my mental illness, so she decided to take me out.

In high school, I was experiencing new things and emotions that I did not know who can guide me to where I needed to be. Since I wasn't in therapy anymore, I depended on friends to guide me. At a point, we were all going through the same thing, and it got hard to depend on my friends. I seek help from my school counselor, Ms. Bassett, in which for over 5 years is still helping me. Ms. Bassett helped me understand my illness and helped with that and my anxiety.

Now, the question is: How do you manage your depression? There is not a right answer to this question. When I was told my condition, I went to therapy and my school counselor to talk about my issues. When my mom removed me from therapy, she told me that I should be able to talk to her, and she'll be there for me. Let's be honest, you cannot tell your mother everything because they'll end up upset. So, I decided to talk to my school counselor and, recently, a therapist. Also, depression caused me to sleep more and not do any activities. I ended up buying myself a play station with headsets so I can be able to socialize and not be in bed. Also, I convinced my love, Andrea, to drag me out and force me to do homework and study. I would go to Philadelphia every weekend, so I can be able to do something productive, such as work and go out with my cousin. I advise everybody to SEEK help. I understand it is hard to talk to someone or do something about this, but it's actually helpful. YOU DESERVE HAPPINESS! I ended up closing up and crying myself to sleep every day. YOU DO NOT DESERVE TO WASTE TIME. I try to do things to keep me busy because when I'm not busy, I end up overthinking and hurting myself. So, get help and work on yourself.

Please if any questions, advice, or topics you want me to discuss, hit the ask button or go to my social.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

xoxo

Shantel J

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Be a Jeff

So, in the last three days, I’ve worked two doubles at Firehouse. I’m glad to say it’s not as bad as I though it was going to be. My feet hurt a hella lot but, I really like interacting with my co-workers and the customers. Plus, I get paid lol. It’s super rewarding earning your own money and I really enjoy working there.

However, with the good stuff there is some bad stuff....

The bad stuff? Rude customers and when I mop the whole lobby, am on the way to put up the bucket and dump out the mop water, only to have the dirty water spill all over my nice clean floor. Did I mention that was that last thing I had to do and then I could have went home? Lol I’m such a klutz and had to stay there an extra 30 minutes. but on the bright side, hey they’re hours! lol.

But this post isn’t really going to be about negative stuff (like me spilling the mop water or rude customers) It’s going to be about the little things that make my day like Jeff.

So let’s jump back to Tuesday night and I’m working the night shift. It’s been kind of slow. It’s a average day. I’m doing my thing and ringing up this older man (hmmm we’ll say mid forties or early fifties)... “Will that be on white or wheat bread? Twelve or eight inches? Is the lettuce, tomato, mayo, mustard, onion on that okay?” When I’m finishing my spill and giving the man his change he looks at my name tag and goes “Autumn? That’s a beautiful name.” I say with a smile “thank you”. He goes on and says “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I tell him an accountant. He says “ I bet you’re great with numbers” and I’m like “yes sir, haha that’s what I’m studying at school currently”. He sweetly replies “ I know you’re going to be very successful at that.” I’m super surprised because although I’ve met some pretty nice customers in the last hmmm 3 or 4 weeks that I’ve worked there I had never met one that nice!

I told him thank you so much and have a great day. He went and sat down to wait for his food and I grabbed some napkins to go fill the napkin dispensers. Just from his comment my day was instantly brightened. As I filled the dispensers I thought about how nice and kind that was of him. 

A few minutes later, his name was called because his to go order was ready. As he was leaving I said “ Have a great day, sir! “ with a smile. He smiled back and said “Thank you! You have a great day too and God bless. I know you’ll be super successful in your career”. I was taken aback again at his kindness but just said with a smile “Thank you so much!”

He may not have known it put his small gesture/comment/ act of kindness completely made my day. I went through the rest of my shift super happy and in a wonderful mood. When I got home a recount of our conversation was one of the first things I told my mom!

You may be reading this and thinking “why did I just waste my time reading this, what even the point of this?” But, I just wanted this to be a daily reminder to be kind. You never know what an impact something that is super simple and effortless to you can have on someone else. You never know when someone could use encouragement or just kind words. This is a reminder that in a world that has is fair share of hate and people that don’t won’t to be bothered by others, if you can, you should strive to be a Jeff (that was his name lol). Just be kind and encouraging to people whenever you can because you don’t know how uplifting it can be:)

Have a fabulous day!

xoxo Gossip Girl jk Autumn    

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“New Year, New Me?”

This was written on January 4,2016:

That is probably one of the most OVERUSED phrases around this time of year. Happy 2016 everyone! I pray that yours has been wonderful so far and you will be prosperous throughout it! New years always acts as a ---- point where people make attainable and not so attainable obtainable goals and try to reach them. I am no exception to this tradition and have made a list almost every year since middle school.  I have my 2016 resolutions sitting on the notes section of my iPad and I have no clue when the lat time I looked at it was. lol. Do I reach my goals ever year? NOPE! But I feel different about this year(don't we all? At least that’s the message I've gotten scrolling through my Facebook feed) just waiting to be looked at again.  SO, during this post I'm going to shake things up a bit. I'm going to list all of my resolutions on here, why I want to reach them and how I plan about doing it. This is just really for me to refer to and remember my resolutions and why I set them. Hopefully you can make it through this probably very lengthy post. Maybe your like me and like seeing what people resolutions are or you just have nothing else to do and are reading my post. lol. Either way lets dive in babe.

2016 New Year Resolutions

Be genuinely happy for people

Okay, this resolution may sound a bit weird and bad but who cares. I know everyone has a little green monster in them and mine shows it's self more than I would like it to. Take for example, I applied for the honors program at my school and didn't get in.(It's all good. I didn't cry lol) The first thing I thought was I wonder of the girl who applied too got in. An then an awful though came..."I hope she didn't" I feel this way when I don't get certain things I really wanted and other people do. This year I want to work to be genuinely happy for people even if they do get an opportunity over me or do better than me at something.

Have a closer relationship with God

If you don't know already I'm a christian.:) When I was younger my Nana would always drag me to church with her and this lasted until last summer. I haven't found a church at college and it's beginning to bother me. I mean I joined a freshman group that meets on Monday nights and has a short service. But I don't feel like I'm spending as much time and I'm not as close to God as I want to be. I want to find a church in the city my school is in and start doing bible study and reading and interacting with his word.

Take Smart Risks

Over the year I've kind of gotten the image of a "goodie two shoos". I've always been the nice girl and school that makes good grades and that's not a bad thing but as I look on instagram,facebook,twitter,snapchat,etc. I don't feel like I’m taking advantage of all of the opportunities that come my way. I feel like I should try to do more fun stuff and step out of my comfort zone. I should go to parties and hang out with friends more. But SMART is a key word here. I don't want to get wild and crazy and end up in jail for possession of drugs or something like that. I just want to let loose.

Go to the gym more often

This is probably on everybody's list. lol. I want to tone up a bit and get that  sexy bikini body.;) I want to make it to the gym 2-3(hopefully 3) times a week. Since there's a gym on campus I feel like it will be easier than in high school to make it to the gym I feel like the struggle here will be actually getting off of my lazy butt and onto the North-South bus to the gym.

Meditate More

I've always wanted to meditate because it seems so freakin’ cool. My girl Miranda Kerr meditates and I hear her and so many other people talking about how relaxing and life changing it can be. I downloaded this meditation app called Breathe. I want to use that every morning before I start my day.

Drink More Water

Water is like the biggest beauty secret EVER (is it even a secret) The benefits are countless and although I do drink a good amount of water I want to drink MORREE. Like the eight 8-ounces a day that science says you're suppose to drink. I've heard of an app that lets you keep track of that and I had an app that reminds you to drink it but I deleted because I never used it lol. I think I should get it back though and in no time I'll be fab all because of my water.

Eat more fruit

Fruit is super healthy and super delish but, for some reason I don't eat it that much at school (That might be because I'm rushing to the dining hall every morning because i sleep to the last possible;e minute lol. But I'm going to start eating more of it!

Become a morning person

Reaching this goal would improve my life so much. Lawd. I'm so envious of the people who can start their day at 6 or 7 oclock in the morning and take advantage of the day. I feel like I could be so much more productive if I woke up earlier and went to sleep earlier. My problem is I just love sleep so much uhhh. I've always been a night owl but I know burning the midnight oil until 2 or 3 in the morning isn't good so I'm trying to change that. So I want to staart waking up at 7 and if I get CRAZY good//into this maybe even 6:45 or 6:30 but lets not get ahead of ourselves...

Don't Procrastinate

I believe this goal has been on my new year resolution list since I could member. If there was an award for procrastination I would probably win it every year. I'll be the first to admit at time I can be pretty lazy. My bed is comfortable and soft so why should I leave it? I've always been a procrastinate. I procrastinate on my school work( It seems to work for me though because that's when I produce some of my best work but, it's SUPER stressful and I don't need anymore stress in my life), responding to my friends, and just doing everyday things. This year that is going to STOP. I'm speaking it to existence and God is going to help me achieve it. Maybe I can do a strike system or something and discipline myself every time I procrastinate? Hmmm. We shall see. I will definitely keep you guys updated.

Blog More

Okay so I made this blog last year because it was one of my new year resolutions.lol. I had this idea of being one of those bloggers in the movie that I quirky, smart, and just awesome. I was going to have a interactive blog with witty posts and I would have conversations with all these intersting people. Let me tell you, that is NOT what happened. I made all of what? 10-15 posts(If that) and I think only one person visited my blog lol. I also got a bit bored. If you didn't know, life is not like the movies. However, I have hope that this year at least 2 people will see my blog lol. That's why I moved to tumblr. I've had blogs on this site before and I feel like it's alot easier to meet people and get noticed. Also, I feel like if people actuallu interacted with me on my blog i owuldn't get as bored. So if your reading this please talk to me!!! Lol. I'm begging.

Get More Followers and Interact with Them

I feel like I kind of touched on this in the point above but I think having people to interact with will make blogging so much more fun and interesting. To do that I need followers lol. So don't make me beg again. Please talk to me and follow me and join this crazy college journey I'm on. I promise I won't bite you unless you like it.

Be more confident.

I feel like having more confidence in myself will help me so much in life. I won't think I'm not smart enough, too dark, or not pretty enough. I'll know God made a beautiful smart creation and that's what I am. It's not like I have no confidence at all. I know I'm smart and I see my self as beautiful I just want to not shy away from talking to people or feel uncomfortable going to parties and meeting new people. "What's wrong with being confident? Oh wa oh"

Love the skin I'm In

I have stretch marks and scars from childhood. Sometimes I way a little bit more than I wold like and I need to learn to be totally okay with that. I want to learn to love me flaws and all.

Look at Inspirational Quotes Everyday

Words are powerful. if I have enough of the right one and I'm seeing them constantly because they're hung up somewhere in my room I feel like it will give me the extra push I need when I'm feeling down or not too confident.

Talk to My Family More

College means not as much time spent with my family as I had in high school. I don't talk to my mom, aunts, cousin, or Nana as often as I would like. I would like to talk to my mom on the phone at least 2 or 3 times a week, talk to my Nana one or two, and text my aunts and cousin a few times a week.

Get Negative People Out of My Life

I'm definitely a people pleaser. It makes me happy when people like me and some times I'm a bit of a push over. That can be a bad thing when I meet people who don’t appreciate/try to walk over me/ are mean to me. I need to lose the attitude that everyone has to like me because if they don't I'll be just fine. When I try to appease the wrong/mean people I just end up getting my feelings hurt so I need to speak my mind and get them out of my life.

Prepare my clothes and backpack the night before

This is just a simple task that would make my life a little bit easier. This takes up a good amount of time in my morning routine and I believe things would go much smoother if I did it the night before.

Work Harder, Get all A's

I don't always put my full effort into my work because I'm lazy....I got one B last semester and this semester I'm bringin home all A's! This semester I'm going for all a's baby

Speak Mind

This might come from not having enough confidence in myself. I don't speak up in class at times when I have questions in fear that my peers may think they're dumb or stupid. I usually just wait after class and ask. I also don't speak my mind in debates because I'm not confident in what I know. I think I'm not wise or articulate enough to participate. But I need to have confidence enough in myself to not care about other people's opinions and know that I'm just as smart as others

Read at least one book a month, read 2 or 3 books a month by end of the year.

Smart people read. Books are one of the greatest things ever created. They open the door to adventure and possibilities and can expand your vocabulary like no other. I've always wanted to become an avid reader but I've been lazy. I'm changing that this year no laziness!

Stop being lazy

This needs no explanation

Be more open

This year I want to work on/become open to new and different things that are out of my comfort zone.

Get Good at Small Talk

Technology is both a blessing and a curse, specifically social media. It has indeed taken away the necessity of face to face communication. I think this may be one of the reason I suck at small talk. I and others can hide behind our devices instead of talking to people. Pinterest here I come. Hopefully you have some tips for this. This is most likely a practice makes perfect kind of thing.

Make More Friends

My social skills just seem to talk. My shyness and lack of confidence definitely play a part in this. I'm not always willing to make the effort/put myself out there to make new friends. I mean I have friends at college but I want more. Some I can make long term friendships with and ones that like to do fun stuff and go to the mall. lol. God please help me with this one.

Don't think everyone is racist

Okay, you probably read that and really think I'm crazy now. Hahah. Well let me explain and paint the picture a little bit clearer. So, I've lived in the deep south my whole life. And let me tell you racism is defiantly real. Does it happen everyday in my life? No thank God but it has happened before and it doesn't feel too good. It might be a combination of mine, my friends, and my families experiences and a little bit of influence from the media. But sometimes I find myself thinking that some of the older white people I meet may be racist/ not like me because I'm black. I know that not every old white person is racist because I've met TONS of wonderful ones but it's always an idea int he back of my mind. However, this idea will be gone after this year.

Do a daily devotional/bible study

This goal is a part of getting closer to God. I'm not the perfect christian and have not read much of the bible. I want to be able to understand God's word better.

Lol I was on a role explaining all of those but then I got sleepy lol here are the rest of my resolutions.

Be more grateful and show it

Be more considerate

Don't be too nice/pushover

Know what I want, stop saying "sure"

Answer emails faster

experiment with new hairstyles and makeup looks

Don't judge, just pray

Know you don't have to share all of the Jesus/God Facebook post

Take a picture everyday

post on Snapchat/Socail media

Turn my read receipts on, make an effort to talk to friends

Write a good thing everyday

Don't say yes to things you want to say no to

Improve memory

Become a better speller

Community center

Leadership roles

Floss more

Brush teeth more

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Washington D.C. and more

This was written February 6 2015:

SO! This week I got an AMAZING opportunity to go to Washington D.C. all expenses (minus souvenirs) payed! I am an intern for a alcohol and drug awareness group at my school and the Community Anti-Drug Coalition of America (CADCA) was having a meeting from Feb 2 to Feb 6 (we only stayed until the 4th though) and our supervisor allowed the 3 seniors at work to go!

We left on Sunday, February 1st at around 7:00 a.m. My mom dropped me off at the airport and left when we went through security and she couldn't go any further. (I got a PSA or something like that so I got to skip some parts of the security check! YAY! This was my first time riding on a plane so I was a little nervous. We flew with United and our plane was pretty small but my boss and another chaperon said it was the best flight they ever had. I got a window seat and it was beautiful being so high up! Quick Tip: Bring gum because your ears will pop!When we landed we took a shuttle to our Hotel. We stayed at the Gaylord COnvention Center and it was BEAUTIFUL! There was a Ferris Wheel outside and inside there were several little stores. We had two rooms. One for our advisers and one for us. We got dressed and headed out to get some lunch ( it was around 1:00 p.m.)

We found this nice place called Elevation Burger. The food was wonderful, the people who worked there? Not so much. There was defiantly no southern hospitality there. Lol. After leavin

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IT’S SATURDAY IN ATHENS!

This was written on October 17, 2015:

Well, as you can see by the title I’m writing this on Saturday. And Saturday means college football. If you don’t know, football is pretty much a religion in the south. IT’S A BIG FREAKIN’ ORDEAL. SOOOO many alum’s and fans come to Athens on Saturday to root for those mean machine’s in RED and BLACK. We have chants, traditions, and it’s just the BEST!

This week was homecoming week and boy was it fun!

Monday we had bulldawg bash. They had free food (pizza, cotton candy, fried oreos, funnel cakes, and cupcakes), caricatures, and free swag(who doesn’t like free stuff?)!

Tuesday was lip sync. That pretty much a bunch of UGA organizations (RHA, Arch Society, Panhallenic Council, ect. ) lip syncing to different songs. It was super funny and entertaining and they also had more FREE FOOD (chick-fil-a and smoothie king)! Sadly, I missed the free food because I had a meeting.:(

Wednesday they had Manhatten Mahyem and it was awesome! It was a game night and I love games. What made it even more awesome was the fact that they were raffling off FREE STUFF. They had everything from face tattoos and gift cards to Apple TVs and Keurigs ( I wanted it SOOOO bad). I won 2 gift cards from the raffle and another during a limbo contest.

Thursday was a Brad Paisley Concert but country isn’t really my thing so I stayed in and watched scandal instead(It was a really good episode). Scandal tangent: After a big thing happens/a big reveal occurs on scandal I always think ooo what are they going to do now. But Shonda Rhimes  knows what she’s doing and always ups the ante.

Yesterday(Friday) there was a parade and a carnival! I had never been in a parade before but I got the chance to represent RHA (Residence Hall Association) since i’m on the council and boy was it an experience. So I got there and we had to rush to decorate the car we were using in the parade. We were making it a taxi and just wrapped yellow butcher paper around the car. lol. we were driving to where we had to meet for the parade and the paper started flying up! lol. Then a police pulled up behind us and grabbed the paper that flew in the road and told us to take the paper off of the license place. By the time we reached our destination, most of the paper was off so J.D. just ripped it all off and we started over. And it was a significantly better. The parade was awesome but I never knew how stressful it was to be a person in a parade. I had to worry about keeping up with the float and hitting kids with candy! AHHH. After the parade I went to the carnival where they were giving away more free food(my fav, funnel cakes, sandwiches, fried oreos, and fried pickles ). I got on all three of the rides and it was super fun!

Now today we have a football game against Missouri. Hopefully we win because I can’t take anymore losing. But GOOOOO DAWGS!

Stay Fab xoxo

A

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Updates

This was written October 17, 2015:

I’m currently sitting in my dorm (ooo when did you get a dorm? You’ll find out soon) on my bed wasting time until the football game starts. Then I decided oooo I’m not doing anything anyway why don’t I blog? SO LETS DO SOME UPDATES:

I”m in college now!

Yep, I’m a freshman at UGA and it’s been pretty awesome. I had to make some adjustments and you’ll probably hear about it in later posts.

Lol well that’s really the only update I can think of… If I come up with something else later I’ll add it. I really want to start posting at least once (or twice) a week so hopefully you’ll see that happening.

Well have a fab day!

xoxoA