Mar 17
I haaaaaaaaaate the part of depressionanxietyetc. where everything I do that isn't quantifiably Being A Good And Selfless Person, my brain is just screaming in the background about how I'm a horrible selfish person for doing it, but it's not! productive! all it does is make it really fucking hard for me to gauge if I'm *actually* being kind of shitty, or if I'm being a normal human being under stressful conditions! I don't want to spend my energy having to parse that out on hard mode, I have less energy than usual to spend! deeply rude.
