Just because he is my father by blood doesn't mean that's who I see him as. He has wronged me too many times for me to see him as that. I won't slander his name just because of the things he has done to me. He did okay with my brothers, but with me is where he messed up. You can't abandon someone while saying 'your my precious baby girl' and having that only apply when it's convenient to you. That's not parenting no matter how much you call it that. The same text night after night, word for word isn't enough effort to rebuild a relationship or regain the trust that you have torn down, built partly back up then smothered it.
The wall’s I have up won’t crumble as easy as they haven in the past.












