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[lovemisangel]

Soliloquy

I am just so mad at myself. I feel miserable. I am unhappy. The thing is I just want to wake from these nightmare of choices that I did. Where do you find happiness? I guess I just let go of what was because I listened to so many things and left it all for chance. Am I the only one who feels this way? I feel like I've put the rest of my life in doom. How do you escape from a nightmare when you can't even wake up? When will I be able to choose what I want and that same choice be accepted by everyone? But yeah, life isn't like that and so are people around you. Everyone is just plain selfish and stuffed up with pride.

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When you laugh, and then you hear your own laughter... oh you're so fckn good at pretending.

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distant affairs. - lovemisangel

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Midnight Rambling

i'd like to hold you close, to let you feel the insane rush that only heaven knows. i promise honesty of heart and mind because love respects and it is kind. you and i have so many ways, to show more love everyday.

[lovemisangel]

In Time

That was new, but expected though.

But at least I'm no longer stuck in a limbo trying to figure out why this and why that. The answer was clear.

My two cents: I wish I knew this and accepted the fact that it is okay not to be appreciated. Not asked. Not understood. Not missed. It is alright to have nothing.

There will be no other time now. 

By the end of all ends, and at the beginning of new beginnings this girl would have had forgotten.

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Escape

Where do broken hearts go?

This line is famously known as a part of Whitney Houston's hit, and most recently, it has taken over the social scene as a tagline of the movie "That Thing Called Tadhana".

Escaping is not running away. Well to some, it could be. But I guess escaping is just wanting to forget about some realities even for a little time, say a few hours.

Twenty-somethings like me have crisis written all over our foreheads.  Deep or petulant problems arise at this stage in one's life. We are all brokenhearted, I'm not pointing to romantic relationships, but I'm speaking about the entire complexity of how some things are. Take me as an example, I felt brokenhearted when my favorite skirt got ripped right in the middle. I also feel the same downheartedness when I worry of where my life is heading, or when I realize I've missed a lot of chances in life.

So again, where do broken hearts go? Mace in the movie went to Sagada, in my case, I am in Abu Dhabi. I'm here for a new chapter. I'm here because I was given this chance and I'm crossing my fingers. 

Books are my escape. They are just comforting and welcoming, I can't be any happier when I chanced upon this bookstore, it's just like being in National Bookstore in the Philippines! If only words could describe the elated feeling I had when I entered the bookstore. I had some documents certified for work and after doing so, I lost myself in the bookstore.

I've been here for more than a month, I could settle down and grow old here. My aunt, sweet and thoughtful as she is, decided to squeeze in some frappe and cheesecake time despite her busy schedule so that we can have a mini celebration for the good news we had this week.

Yes clothes, makeup, and shoes are a high for me, but books, they are on a higher level.

So this is it, for today. I'm at Marina Mall, lost. Ha-ha just kidding!

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It's this letter to Rosie from Alex. I lived by this letter a year ago and it made me see things. You go through life and you meet that one person to whom everything feels right. You don't pretend to be someone else because you know you're accepted and loved. But you move along, because you're afraid to try. A lot of people come to your life and you spend so much time and effort on them just to let your heart feel contented. But the truth is, the heart gets heavier every single day. Sometimes you don't realize it because you "feel happy". Then the truth will hit you again, and you're nothing but trapped. Finally saw the movie Love, Rosie. Oh the feels. Damn that movie adaptation was good. Thank you Cecilia Ahern.