#mystruggles

[hurlumerlu]

stuck in this goddamn fic because i can't decide if the character should be bestowed an unsatisfying orgasm or none at all, i love my struggle

[matildaisautisticandproud]

April 12th - 30 Days of Autism Acceptance

April 12: Talk about social skills and communication. What kind of things do you find hard?

I have quite a bit of issues with communication. My biggest struggle has to be with feeling confident enough to actually be myself and talk to people, both online and in real life. People say talking to people on the Internet is easier. I have to beg to differ. It’s not exactly easier, but it is different. I struggle with talking to people online immensely.

Secondly, I always seem to be misunderstanding people and saying the wrong things in response. The worst thing ever is when you say something and everyone just either stares in confusion or ignores you.

Thirdly, I got into what’s referred to as shutdowns, which means that I go nonverbal and have little to no desire to speak aloud. People don’t seem to understand that talking to me during such a state makes me force myself to talk in fear of being rude. When I push myself, I only make things worse, meaning that I might have a meltdown or “explode” further down the line.

That’s all I can think of right now.

[shaunashands-blog]

Emotions

Ever feel like you are living a pointless life?

Cause you have a job and your working hard for a living making money paying bills.

You are not married you don’t have anybody in your life but your family.

You only have like three people that will text you. But they are on and off Facebook for other reasons. So basically all day you have nobody to talk to while you are at work. The only people you talk to are the people you work with.

By the end of the day you come home and clean house then go set on the porch and cry all afternoon cause you have nothing better to do with you life. But set there and cry and be disappointed in your self.

That’s my life! Everyday I have nothing to do but go to work and come home.

I feel like I have nobody I’m so lonely that I feel like this is not enough for me. I am constantly feeling like a worthless pice of crap.

I got to work for 8 hours a day and I clean at a college.

I come home and clean the house.

If is nice outside I will set outside and enjoy the nice weather. Sometimes setting outside helps me think. So, things that happened in the past when I was going to school. All of these thoughts and memories flush through my brain. So all of the pain comes back and hits me directly in the face. So, I start sobbing in pain cause I can’t stop thinking about how I work my ass off and feel like I don’t do anything and I don’t feel like i am good enough. I work my self to the point I feel super exhausted and when I get home I don’t wanna do anything. But I do I dragging my ass home and I clean it would make me so happy if I were to get more appreciated and more help when I need help.

Better yet I wanna get out on my own

Live my life the way I want too

But honestly I wanna give up on my dreams

Because life is not fear and you can’t always get what you want

But when I set outside and think and cry I think about all of that stuff.

I know I am stronger then that I can by pass it all cause I’ve done all of it in the past.

But it feels like fighting all this is getting more and more difficult.

It’s like my life is swinging out of control and I don’t know how to hold on much longer.

I don’t need a rope made out of string. I need a rope made out of metal.

The stronger I am the better!

[mezzmerizd]

it's a crime how i always have the motivation & ideas to do my creative stuff when i'm physically,,, half dead and need a nap... blorbs please wait with doing your gay roleplay in my brain until i can actually sit up long enough to write it all down </3

[polar-prude]

FUCKK IM NOT STUDYING ANYTHING THIS IS STRESSING ME OUT SO MUCH

okay deep breaths

let's do damage control

[polar-prude]

i kinda wince when I see twitter users here whom im not particularly fond of .

like... no. if the same joke was made by another person I would howl. cuz ik they chill. but not you.

[ziarising]

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[thecpdiary]

My struggles today

I’m not exactly sure why I’m struggling with the enormity of my experiences now, but perhaps it’s got something to do with my book being published in two weeks time.

I am irritated by the fact that my experiences were allowed to happen and that’s what I’m struggling to get past today. I know that without my life I could never have written the book, but those factors seem worlds apart. As the publishing date fast approaches I am grateful to have the opportunity to tell my story, in a non-judgmental or aggressive way.

I mustn’t forget my website because that is the catalyst and the start of my Cerebral Palsy journey. I couldn’t have forged ahead to write about my life, or my experiences, without my website. I am grateful for that.

My book, part memoir, part motivational guide, Cerebral Palsy: A Story is my open and honest journey from an angry, confused child, knowing something was wrong, but not knowing what, to the ‘real’ me – using my experiences and lessons to create inspiring messages about mental and physical health, positivity, resilience and change.

My book is due out on 2nd January, 2020 and can be pre-ordered by clicking the link https://amzn.to/34F5Qfn or the image of the book cover above.

I am grateful for the opportunity and to my publishers RedDoor Press for believing in my story, and for giving me this opportunity to publish my memoirs/self-help/mind/body/spirit for others to also benefit.

For more inspirational, life-changing blogs, please check out my site https://www.thecpdiary.com