Intelligent, passionate, professional woman turned into an abomination’s little dumb, brainless cocksleeve. No one is at fault but her. She willingly let herself get hypnotized into being a brainless little slut in her free time by the monsters and creatures in the woods. Do not save her. Do not free her. If you see her gagging on multiple cocks that are stretching out her throat, let her be. If you see her whimpering and crying like a helpless princess while she gets bred nice and slow, let her be. If you see her trembling and crying underneath a hideous creature that’s been edging her for hours, let her be. If you see her tangled in a abomination’s many limbs as they make her jaw stay open so it can feed her it’s saliva all day long while her tiny cunt is slowly fisted, don’t help her, leave her stuck. If you see her being passed around a horde of monsters like a sacrificial lamb, trapped in an endless loop of divine mating rituals, leave her stuck there. If you see her clinging to a wild beast with all claws and sharp edges, leaving their marks and bites all over her while she’s helplessly stuffed with their cock, too big and wide for her to handle and now she’s stuck cockwarming said beast, let her stay stuck. If you see her in between five large, inexplainable ancient beasts that are all sitting in a circle chilling and chatting while her every hole is stuffed by their dicks and fingers for hours and days on end, let her stay stuck. This is what she agreed to. She can be a girl boss later, but for now, while she’s tied up, drooling with her mouth wide open for any intrusion, eyes rolled back, with her puffy cunt and sore ass being stretched out by huge brute cock for the foreseeable future…. Just send her her best wishes, and hope she gets to be a dumbed down slut anytime she desires <3
I need to see more people thirsting for Medusa rn. like a monster woman who you can’t meet the eyes of? stepping into her den blindfolded, gently pawing around to find her? being guided by her voice? hello??
Kingdom of Mista… maybe… maybe make reader with a naga king… with 2… times the fun :333333
FTM Green Anaconda Naga
Trans Naga, so he’s not had top surgery. A mix of masculine and feminine wording used for anatomy. Don't worry, he's still got two.
I was kinda visualizing that gay vampire from castlevania as his human half when I wrote this... Idk his name, but I know him...
How tf did this become so long. That was not the plan. Naga cloaca got me acting unwise. I almost did one of those mating balls snakes do but held myself back. maybe another time.
I like to think that the world Mista is set in, is very vast and full of possibilities and places to explore. So, it should be no surprise that there is a vast area covered in rainforest, filled with people and creatures that can’t be found anywhere else.
Your advisors, personal guard, literally everybody thinks it's a horrible idea when you decide to go explore this area. Your entire personal guard is brought along, alongside locals, other protection, etc. Etc.
It’s just over the top, you can’t even really leave the camp that has been set up, which is guarded at all times, on all angles. Well, most of it, as you sit and pout as your orchid mantis advisor tries to comfort you, you discover a small spot where the guards are less present.
It takes some planning on your half, and waiting for the right time. You are smart enough to put on some better clothes than your usual silks and royal fabrics, even packing some food, water, and tools. With everything set up, and people distracted, you slip on out.
And maybe the plan wasn’t well thought out, because it starts raining, you end up running from a jaguar centaur, getting your pack stolen by a frisky parrot harpy, and tumbling over roots and undergrowth, right into a lake, which just so happens to be the home of the biggest naga in the forest.
At any other time the naga might have simply coiled around you and eaten you, but it just so happens to be the right time of year, and the right type of weather. Somehow you hadn’t noticed the smaller nagas at the borders of the water, like they don’t dare get in.
Imagine your surprise as you’re grabbed and pulled to a small island in the middle of the lake. A muddy little island covered in moss, plants and a single tree, large enough for a massive heavy naga to rest inside.
You had honestly thought you must have drowned, because how else would it make sense. Or maybe you were hallucinating as you roll onto your side to throw up water and cough.
It's only after coughing up a lung that to feel it, that heavy feeling of being watched by a much larger predator, something that makes all the deep buried instincts inside your body go into overdrive.
Looking back out to the lake, you almost shriek at what looks like something out of a horror story, or well. It feels like that, as the very top of a head is peeking out, just enough for the bright eyes to stare you down.
The very size of his eyes and head makes it obvious, he’s massive, much bigger than the average human. It really doesn't help as he starts swimming closer and more of his body becomes visible.
Deep tanned skin, very long hair which drapes down, heavy from all the water, sharp features, bright eyes with slit pupils, large hands with claw-like nails and a split tongue that flicks out between his full lips.
Just his torso seems as large as you are, all big, strong and sturdy. It even takes you a moment to notice his breasts, they aren’t anything mind-blowing compared to his sheer size, but they’re there, and for a moment you wonder if you’ve been labeling him wrong in your head.
Only for his lower half to slide out of the water, as he slowly drags himself towards you. You've had trans partners before, but you’ve never seen anything like it. They're obviously t-dicks, but they rival the size of your own cock at its hardest, and theres two of them.
“you’re bold, I'll give you that” he hisses in a deep voice, a voice that makes shivers run down your spine from instinctual fear mixed with arousal, a moan almost tearing it’s way out of your throat as he runs a hand through his long wet locks, brushing them out of his face... cute, his ears of sharp like an elf...
“uh- I. I didn’t mean too? Bother you?” you finally choke out, your chest still burning from almost drowning, as well as the growing weight of... something in the air. Had you been anything other than human, then maybe you could smell the heavy curtain of pheromones in the air, but sadly, you were as human as they come.
“No. I don’t mind. You're the only one who answered my call” he sighs, sounding oh so put off by the fact that nobody wanted to... listen to him? Fuck him? Looking at him, you can’t understand why, because holy moly.
Glancing off towards the borders of the lake, you spot other nagas, smaller than him, not as thickly built and only about half his size, they look more like you in that regard. Except for the snake half, of course. They all look as turned on as you feel but apprehensive.
You almost choke on your tongue as the naga, whose name you still haven’t gotten, presses his torso down on you, burying your face between his breasts. Your mouth waters, your hands twitching at your sides from the urge to just... grab.
“Yes. They think I will eat them, like the last ones” he sighs, his words hissing on his tongue as his body starts coiling, his snake half dragging out of the water and slowly curling around your legs.
“Eat-” you gag out, voice muffled against his wet skin, panic rising in your gut, alongside the shameful burn of arousal. His skin moist against your lips, tasting a little off-putting from the plant life in the lake, but feeling his breasts on either side of your head is addicting in a way your usual bed partners aren’t, being hard shelled and all that.
“No, no. Don’t worry, little one, I won’t eat you. You're much too pretty, much too soft” he almost seems to giggle, a large hand grabbing the back of your head and threading through your hair.
With what must have been a very weak pull from him, yet ends up too strong on someone as weak as you, wrenches your head back. “None of them even dare mate me, little human. Do you understand my suffering?” He coos, tongue flicking as he makes you look up at him.
“I am the biggest and strongest naga in this forest. Nobody dares fight me or deny my will, except for breeding me. They all fear me too much, because I ate those pathetic worms the first few times” he sighs so miserably, but you can’t really pay attention, as his strong grip buries you back into his chest.
It's like something out of a strange novel, your dick so hard from strange need and fear, your eyes crossing as he pulls your head to the right, as you’re met with his dark nipple. “Look upon me human. I am so sore, I am at my prime. Yet none dare.” He whines, like a succubus from your headiest dreams.
Your mouth closes instinctively around his nipple, though your jaw aches from opening it so far, but it serves its purpose. Hearing such a large and powerful naga whine is a boost to your ego, enough to make you dizzier than you already are.
It’s a lot of rolling around, of large wet hands and your own wrenching off your clothes, your shirt getting thrown into the lake with a splash, and a split tongue lapping at your face and lips.
But finally, you’re stripped down, and as you lay there, bare as the day you were born, your naga lover(?) pulls back, and squints. “Oh dear. I’ll crush you” he mumbles, mostly to himself, but it makes your cock throb, oozing against your belly.
“Like this, little human” he snickers, gracefully laying on his back, his cloaca split open and wet, his two t-dicks dark pink in color as shiny like syrup coated candy. Your mouth suddenly feels so empty.
It feels really awkward to climb on top of him, your thighs working hard to straddle his lower half. It's like straddling a log, a smooth scaled and horny log, with a very attractive human half giving you a challenging look.
Rubbing against his cloaca is wet and squishy. It's not overly warm, a bit colder than your own body temperature. Anybody else might have found it off-putting, but you go crazy getting mounted and filled with unfertilized eggs by your insectoid guard, so...
Humiliation brews in your gut, mixing rapidly with your want as you push inside, trembling like a leaf as your naga lover(?) coos and teases you. You feel hot from the embarrassment at the knowledge that all the other nagas must be watching. It makes you almost tempted to look.
“Come now, human. Fuck me.” he snickers, tone hissing as tongue flicking as he pushes himself up on his elbows, to watch as you struggle to thrust, without slipping right off his slick body.
Compared to other nagas you must not be much to write home about, as your cock slicks in and out of his wet gripping cloaca. But your naga seems to love it, letting out breathy moans and little lightheaded giggles.
It's so wet and loud, strings of slick hanging off your lower abdomen and his own body. His t-dicks are grinding against your stomach, making him jolt as the sensitive lengths are ground against.
“Harder. Fuck me. Really give it to me” he snarls, baring his fangs as you cling to him with your arms and legs, face pressed against his lower stomach, dripping sweat and trembling.
“C-can't. I can’t” you whimper, eyes teary and mouth hanging open. It's all so much, but not enough for your naga. With a mean hiss he moves, curling his tail, and flipping you. The earlier warning of being crushed flashes through your head, but is quickly scrubbed away as his cloaca slams back down on you, taking you even deeper.
“Sweet little human. Deep in my cunt, drooling and crying. So cute” he giggles, sounding almost high from finally getting the mating he’s craved. “Maybe I'll fuck you after. Stuff your ass with my dicks, and watch you squeal” he almost cackles, eyes wild, hair sticking to his forehead with sweat as he coils to slam down on you.
And maybe your hips are hurting, and your stomach, and your legs, but it’s nothing compared to the pleasure. “Please. Fill me. Breed me” he hisses as he presses down on you, rolling his hips in meal little circles as he forces you to look him in the eyes.
And really, who were you to deny him, when he asked so nicely. His expression as you spill inside him is downright lewd, his eyes glazing over as his digs his fangs into his lip, needy little huffs leaving his nose as he presses down on you harder, his cloaca squeezing and milking all you can offer.
His cloaca pulses and gushes, getting your lower body even wetter with all his fluids, as his t-dicks throb and pulse against your torso. He seems to taken with his completion that he almost doesn’t notice you nodding off.
But thankfully, your naga is aware enough to catch your head as you flop back. Even as he trembles through his orgasm, your Naga rolls onto his back, pulling you on top of him, making you straddle him again, still buried inside his slit.
A large hand rests against your back, keeping you there so you don’t slide right off him from all the slick.
Your head is hurting from how hard you came, and your body, but that might also have been the massive heavy naga crushing down on you.
Everything feels blurry as your naga slowly pulls you out of his slit, both of you trembling and gasping at the filthy wet noises of it all. But it feels nice to be cuddled against him, cradled under his chin as his large hands pet and massage your body, his voice a blur, but you get a feeling he's praising and complimenting you, thanking you for breeding him.
Your tongue feels thick and useless, your brain a syrupy mess, but somehow you remember being literal royalty, and that your people must be going crazy looking for you.
Somehow you slur out your thoughts, and your naga, being so satisfied from a good fuck, coos at how cute you are, and collect you in his arms.
He keeps you out of the water as he slithers back down into the lake, making his way towards the edges of the water. Your dick gives a weak throb at the sight of the smaller nagas who had seen it all. Some are as spent as you, and others are still stroking themselves, using both their hands to pleasure both their shafts. And... yup... they’re all bigger than you.
One way or another, your naga finds his way back to your camp. Maybe he used that wild tongue of his to find the way, but he succeeds. There is much yelling, but your brain still feels like mush so none of it makes sense.
It all blends together, but somehow you end up getting checked over by your medical team, your naga lover is kept somewhere secure, and your orchid mantis advisor is fretting over you.
Really, nothing you say makes sense, but they can all guess what happened. Especially when your naga lover calls them “fellow human enthusiasts”.
When it's all sorted out, your naga lover decides not to return to the kingdom with you, but he’ll take his role as ‘king’ of this jungles naga population seriously, and work with you. As long as you come back next time, he’s ready to breed.
Your men truly respect you, because no other man would let their dick take them places yours takes you...
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snake, beach with umbrella, shooting star
You were simply lying at the beach. People usually do that during the day, but you enjoy the quiet and the star-flecked sea. That warm and calm night, you saw a shooting star. It was so long and beautiful and falling gently from the sky. And then it disappeared right above the black horizon.
Mere minutes later, a remarkable starlit creature crawled out from the sea. Her scales were like pure silver and her eyes as big as owls'. At first, you thought she was a mermaid. But once her long tail slid into your swimsuit, and her forked tongue licked your neck, you realized your mistake.
This star goddess wanted you for some reason. She wanted to have you, to use your body for her pleasure, her meaty pussy throbbing and oozing above your mouth. You had no choice but to obey anyway you could, pinned by her heavy and strong body against the sand. The sky snake played with you, rode you, and grinded against you until you crumbled and melted under her passion - until the morning came, and your star sweetheart disappeared with the sunrise.
a/n: thank you for your ask! i also have a mlm beach naga story if you're interested!
Content warning: discussions of rape/sexual coercion, sexual coercion described with minimal detail, descriptions of a cult.
You have been sentenced to death. You are going to be fed to the beast in the pit. Unless, of course, the beast does not eat the ones given to it.
Sweat beaded on the back of your neck as you took another trembling step forward. A knife sat against the small of your back. The threat wasn’t that they would kill you- they didn’t have to. A quick slice to the small of your back would have your legs useless. They could leave you to die, limp and pathetic, at the claws of the creature in the pen. The only reason they hadn’t done it at all was that it was a lot less work to have you walk than to drag your limp body in.
The pen loomed in front of you. It wasn’t much of a pen, to be honest. It was more of a pit, with barbed wire fence surrounding it. People didn’t approach it- in fact, there isn’t anyone within a hundred feet. Just you and the soldier nudging you ever closer.
As soon as you were past the gate, the soldier slammed it shut and stepped back, almost a scramble. There was no reason for him to be near you anymore. There was only a tiny strip of land surrounding the dropoff of the pit, and you couldn’t climb back out over the fence thanks to the barbed wire. You probably couldn’t even if there wasn’t barbed wire. You’d never been athletic.
You hunched down on the little area you had, knees tucked close to your chest to avoid the drop. No limbs dangling. The image of letting an arm or leg hang over the opening and something grabbing you, like a monster under the bed, rose in your mind.
You sat on the edge of the pit all throughout the scorching afternoon, dripping sweat into a small puddle in the dirt below you. The sun set and the chill of night against your sweaty skin made you shiver. The thing in the pit hadn’t moved. Was it nocturnal? You’d never seen a feeding before. Maybe you should have. Maybe that would have discouraged you from-
The thing in the pit moved. You heard it shifting before you saw it, the great shadow twisting and slinking until a tendril of it was lifting out of the pit and stretching slowly toward you. You scrambled back until the barbed wire dug into your skin, uncaring of exactly how rusty it was. Of course it didn’t matter. You were going to die, right now, and a little tetanus hardly compared to exactly how this thing was going to rip you to shreds.
Its head dropped into your line of sight, close enough that you could make out some features despite the lack of light. You stared. You had been expecting a mouth- they called it a feeding, after all. Not strange at all to imagine you were about to be eaten. And there was a mouth. It was just attached to a human face. Which was attached to a human head. Which was attached to a human torso. Which was not attached to human hips, but to the body of an enormous snake. Like, a huge snake. Like, at-least-40-feet-long snake.
It yawned. Fangs, long and thin, just where canines would be in a human mouth, glinted in the faint moonlight. Then it slumped downward, flopping to rest its torso on the edge of the pit right next to you.
It blinked at you. The light was dim enough that you couldn’t see the color of its eyes, but the white gleaming in the moonlight told you it was staring right at you. “Hello there.”
You stared back. He didn’t seem like he was going to eat you. He didn’t seem big enough to eat you. You’d been expecting an enormous snake mouth, something appropriate for the enormous thing, something that could swallow you whole. But this was… well, the person-part of the snake was bigger thana typical human, but not by that much. Its mouth was far too small to eat you effectively. Then again, you were smaller than a cow, and you ate those, so perhaps the creature was simply going to drag you into its pit and eat you little by little. You hoped it killed you quickly, at least- getting slowly eaten seemed like the worst possible way to die.
“You aren’t much of a talker, are you,” the serpent groused. His mass of coils shifted slowly, undulating in the pit beneath. You couldn’t make out the individual coils with the distance and the darkness- it just looked like a shifting, twisting mass. The serpent moved closer, practically hovering in front of you, using his muscular trunk as support. “Ain’t much to look at, are ya?” He spoke in a drawling, lazy tone. “Can’t imagine ya did anything impressive to get stuck in here. Are they finally chucking the dissidents down here instead of shoving them into the reeducation work prison?”
“Thievery.” You forced the word up through your dry throat and mouth. The serpent fixed his gaze back on you. “I- I took something that wasn’t mine to take.”
“Huh.” He slumped back to the ground next to you, propping his chin up on his fist. “Why?”
You ground your teeth. “He… took something from me, first. So, I wanted to take something from him. But I got caught.”
The serpent nodded. “A little thief, then? I suppose they would throw you in here for that.”
You eyed him as he stretched. The question was stupid, but you couldn’t help yourself from asking it. “Aren’t you going to eat me?”
He was mid-yawn when you asked, and blinked one eye open to look at you. “Am I supposed to?”
You paused. Everyone called it a ‘feeding’ when people were put in the pit. People who went for feedings were never seen again. What else was happening expect for them being eaten? “I think so.”
“Perhaps,” he said, “I’m not hungry today.” He slumped back toward the pit, slinking down and vanishing in the mass of his own coils.
You stared. And shivered. Your sweat was still drying on your skin in the chilly night air and the hot terror was fading. The creature had emerged from the pit, you’d had a pleasant (if you stretched the definition of the word) chat, and then it had left.
That was… not what was supposed to happen. You’d seen people be taken away to the pit- you’d never seen them actually go in, of course, the pit was nearly three hours away from the town by walking, and you’d never had reason to go in a car until today. Yesterday. Was it past midnight? They never came back. Did the creature ever eat anyone? It must, or they wouldn’t have bothered with the pit at all. They could just shoot people. Or stab them, if wasted bullets were a concern. Why go through the whole rigamarole of taking people out here and then leaving them alive for the creature if it didn’t eat them?
But if it did eat them, why hadn’t it eaten you?
It got late for a while, and then it was so late that it looped around to being early. The sun started to stretch thin tendrils of light over the horizon. Your stomach growled. You had to pee. Your legs were cramping from being in the same position for so long. Were the guards going to come back? Did they come back for the prisoners, if only to see if there were any bones or limbs left? Or were you just trapped out here until you died of thirst or the creature decided it was hungry after all and ate you?
(It had better hurry the hell up, you decided. If it waited until you died of natural causes, t would probably have a tough, unpleasant meal. Your somewhat-delirious mind found that idea funny.)
It was less funny when a hand wrapped around your ankle and hauled you bodily toward the pit.
The entire thing was fast. One second you were registering the warm hand on your skin, and the next you were being dragged down a slope. You caught a glimpse of your captor’s face, too dark to make out expressions, before you were hauled under a mass of coils.
They weren’t cold to the touch, though they weren’t warm, either. You could feel the ridges of the scales, each one nearly the size of your palm. It was heavy, a weight that nearly knocked the breath out of you, though their constant shifting helped lessen that impact. It wasn’t crushing, though, and you could feel the hard-packed dirt under your back. Strange. You would have thought they’d be coiling around you to crush you. Even just being underneath them, you could tell they were powerful enough to do it. You could feel the power of the muscles just from minute movements alone.
“Stop panicking!” The voice came a lot closer to your ear than you’d expected and you struck out. Maybe he’d been expecting it, because your first hit a wall of scaly flesh.’ “I ain’t gonna hurt ya, if you don’t try to hurt me again.”
You stopped moving. The serpent huffed out a breath, and you felt the edges of it against your… temple, on your right side. He was partially concealed by one of his own coils, but he was there. “Sorry for the delay, sweetcheeks. Woulda taken you down here right away, but we’ve had some problems recently. Delays. You’ll find out soon, anyway.”
You didn’t understand, but bemoaning that lack of understanding seemed like the worst possible move at the moment. Instead, you flipped onto your stomach and started army crawling back toward the wall of the pit. The coils were heavy, but not crushing, at least not at the moment. You were going to crawl and get out of the pit, and what you were going to do then could be decided after you got out.
“Woah.” The hand was on your back now, having gotten a fistful of your shirt. Well, it was more of a dress-tunic than a shirt, one of the ones that was both oversized and stretched, and made more out of patches than material. They could have made you go into the pit naked, but you suspected that this made a convenient excuse to get rid of something no one really wanted. You thrashed against the grip and, sure enough, the tunic ripped with ease. Before you could continue your mad crawl, the hand managed to lock around your calf. “Woah, woah! Where do ya think you’re going?”
You try to continue forward at the pace of a determined slug. The hand on your leg is doing a good job of hindering that, though. “Quit freaking out! Sorry I scared ya, but I said before, I ain’t gonna hurt ya, so stop it!”
In fairness, he wasn’t hurting you at that moment. He could have, certainly- his coils could have crushed you by weight alone, if he’d dropped them on you, but he just lay them across your path, effectively blocking your way unless you wanted to crawl over him. The hand around your calf remained firm, a grip tight enough to almost bruise, but not vicious. More like he was just desperate to keep you from squirming away.
Surrounded by coils of snake and held fast by the grip on your leg, you finally went still. You were flat on your stomach, so the dust, of course, immediately went up your nose and you snorted out an awkward sneeze. The serpent’s human part moved forward, almost hovering over you, suspended by its muscular trunk. He folded his arms over his chest, no longer holding onto you. “Didn’t mean to scare ya that bad. S’pose I should’ve been more forthcoming, but ya don’t get much fun out here, y’know?” He shrugged. “Sorry. Kinda a fighter, aren’t ya, though? Most people just curl into a ball and scream.”
You stared at him. He was silhouetted by moonlight, so you could make out his long, somewhat tangled black hair and his dark brown skin. There were a few patches of scales on his belly, creeping up from where his snake body ended. “I thought,” you said, after a moment of thought, “that you were going to eat me.”
He shrugged. “I’m not.”
That had become pretty clear. Unless this was a game, though you couldn’t see the point of it, if it was. “Then what are you going to do?”
He grinned, at that. His canines were still too long and sharp, more like a snake’s than a human’s- though still not totally like either. “Look.”
He turned his body to point at a spot beyond the shifting weight of his coils. In the wall of the pit, there was… a hole.
It wasn’t a big hole. Large enough for a person to fit through, provided they were crawling and not standing up straight. It sloped a little, down into the ground. The idea of it made you shudder. Perhaps the serpent didn’t pick up on that, because he said, “You’re going to go in there.”
“I’m not,” you insisted. The serpent considered you for a moment, not quite irritated, but certainly not pleased.
“Ya are,” he said. “Unless you’re plannin’ on staying here and dyin’ when they come back and find ya completely uneaten.”
You glared. “Fine.” The serpent nodded, clearly believing you meant ‘fine, I’ll go in there.’ His expression changed to plain annoyance when you, through lack of motion, convinced him that you meant ‘fine, I’ll stay here and die.”
“You’re claustrophobic,” he reasoned. You glared. It was true, but you didn’t like it. The idea of close earth, pressing in on you- unbearable. The idea of having nowhere to run, nowhere to go or flee to, no open space within which to seek safety-
“Alright, alright! Don’t- don’t do that, just- Damn, this makes it much harder than I thought it was gonna be.” The serpent patted awkwardly at your shoulder. You squirmed away from his touch and he held his hands up. Your breathing, which had spun wildly out of control for a moment, dropped back to a steady (or at least steadier) rhythm. “Look. The only way out of here is through the tunnel. It’s only twenty feet of tunnel, and once you’re through that, it’s not so tight.”
“I can’t get through the twenty feet,” you ground out. Even three feet, less than your body length, would be close to intolerable. As long as your head and arms were trapped, there was panic.
The serpent heaved a sigh. “Erg… You’re gonna have to.”
“I can’t.” Clearly, he was slow. Otherwise, he would be getting that it was physically impossible for you to do so. You could not, unless under immediate threat of death, force yourself through it. And maybe not even that.
The serpent rubbed his face. “Sonova- If you get caught, I’m gonna be fucked too, y’know?” His coils shifted, lifting and writhing. Above you, through the gaps in his coils, you could see the sky lightening. It was going to be day soon. That seemed to be agitating him. “Okay. You’re not gonna like this, but we’re doing it anyway.”
You stiffened. “We’re not going to-”
The serpent seized you by hooking an arm under your armpits and hauled. You were half lifted off the ground and pulled toward the hole in the wall. Panic seized you and you started to kick your legs. The serpent wholly ignored you. For a moment, you wondered about how he was going to manage to pull you through- there wasn’t enough space for both of you to fit going through at the same time.
It was a question that was quickly answered. As you got within a foot of the hole, he dropped you and plunged in himself.
Within seconds, his human part was gone, leaving only his snake portion, It flowed in and in and in, an endless-seeming mass of scaled flesh moving into the tunnel. It was almost hypnotic. So hypnotic, in fact, that you didn’t register it when the last foot or so of his tail wrapped around your legs and hauled you into the tunnel after him.
It happened fast- one second you were just registering the fact that you were moving, the next you were in the tunnel with the walls pressing close in on you. The press of the walls, combined with the warm squeeze of the serpent’s tail around you was- was- your brain scrambled, sheer terror blotting out every thought you could have summoned up.
And then the walls lessened. Not a lot, but their squeeze was reduced. The tail wrapped around you, so tight you couldn’t move your arms or legs, was still bad, but the walls weren’t so tight. Lifting your head didn’t whack it on the ceiling anymore, and you couldn’t feel your shoulders rubbing against the walls. You felt the movement of air on your legs first, and then you were pulled into a bright, open room.
The made your eyes tear up. You squeezed them shut against it. The tail around your body relaxed, drawing away. The sheer relief was incredible, so much that you couldn’t bring yourself to move. You lay there, gasping and shivering on the floor, eyes squeezed shut. Your brain was so utterly scrambled that you didn’t even question why there were bright lights underground for a few minutes.
People talking, though, that got your attention.
“I’m gonna need to be back out there in a couple minutes, just in case they come lookin’,” the serpent was saying.
“Of course. Though you really couldn’t have thought of a better solution? Or explained more?” The second voice was female, probably older by the sound of it. Kind of weary, too. You blinked your eyes open. The serpent was coiled as tight as he was able, and was bending to speak to an older woman, brown hair shot through with gray, in something like a lab coat.
“You were the ones delayin’ everything.”
“Well, you could have told her in the meantime. You didn’t have to wait for us to be ready.”
The serpent grimaced. “Sure, if I wasn’t so busy prepping the tunnel. It’s not easy to dig that shit back out every time you guys want to-”
“Who are you?” Your voice wasn’t a yell, but it wasn’t quiet. The conversation stopped. Both of them looked at you.
The woman straightened out her lab coat. It was a bit stained and yellowed in some places, and there was a button missing. “My name is Elise Markov. This-” She gestured to the massive serpent-person beside her. “-Is Hana. I apologize for… well, for him.” He clucked his tongue. “Hush. You should be kinder to our new arrivals.”
“Perhaps.” Hana flexed his tail. “It’s not like I get much practice with people, trapped up there without-”
“Speaking of,” Elise said, cutting him off. He fell silent, sulky. “You should go back up. You were saying they might be back soon.”
Hana grimaced but he obediently slipped toward the tunnel. After a few moments, his tail was vanishing into the tunnel. Elise watched him go, then headed over to you. “Come along. I will explain on the way.”
Getting up gave you a chance to look a little more around the room. It wasn’t terribly big, maybe about the size of a single room in a house, and lit entirely by floodlights. Another tunnel, this one much larger than the one you had entered through, allowed you to exit the room. You could stand up in it, and almost extend your arms before hitting the wall while inside, it, so the terror was only a minor scream in the back of your mind.
As you walked, Elise explained. “We have been out here since the, well, apocalypse, for lack of a better term, recruiting as we can. Sometimes we take in runaways, sometimes strays, sometimes people like you- people who have been set to death by the various collectives and compounds that now litter the world. You will stay here now, and work with us. There will be a task you can do, I assure you, be it caring for the assets or cooking food or cleaning.”
You trotted along after her. “I don’t underst-”
“I’m aware. You will.” Elise’s tone was clipped. “For now, just know that you are safe and you will remain safe for the foreseeable future. We have an organization, relative protection, and, the basic necessities of life.”
Well. Good enough for you. It was significantly better to have a place that didn’t want to kill you. At least, not immediately.
The tunnel went on for what must have been at least a few miles. Your legs ached and you felt dizzy. It had been some time since you’d had proper food. You swayed, exhausted, even as Elise kept up her ruthless pace. Eventually, the tunnel opened up into a tall, illuminated room. You hurried toward it, ready for your journey to end, and-
There were people. Many of them wore lab coats, like Elise, though they were all about as dirty as Elise’s as well. But there were also many… things. Creatures. Beasts you couldn’t understand. One of them, a creature with the torso of a human, but the lower body of a massive, pale spider approached. “Ah, Thierry. If you could-”
You were taken to a room and told it was yours. It was a tiny room, big enough for a bed and a hanging rack of clothes. But it was at least nicer than the communal bunks you’d had previously. You didn’t feel comfortable sleeping with other people.
After a full day of resting, and a fairly simple meal of vegetables and a biscuit, you were given the beginnings of orientation. It was fairly extensive, starting at the exact moment the world fell apart, about ten years ago.
The end of the world was something you remembered, though not in any great detail. It hadn’t been an abrupt thing, like it always was in dystopian fiction. It had just been, over the course of a few years, a gradual downturn of things getting worse until you were in a barrack with a couple dozen other people and you realized you had no hope of anything ever getting better. The world had just seemed to get more and more frightened of everything going on, more desperate and sad and clawing until everything had been torn to shreds.
Apparently, that hadn’t quite been an accident.
The details were vague- you weren’t sure if that was because the details were unknown, or if the people in charge just didn’t want you to know them. But the government (or several governments- again, the details were unclear) had been running experiments on fear. Fear was, after all, one of the most effective motivators ad weapons ever known. Enough fear could kill, could make a person commit atrocities. And so, it needed to be studied, understood, and potentially weaponized.
After years of research, they had managed to create… something. Tapped into some collective unconscious, some extra-physical resource, and created, from humans, creatures that embodied the fears of the world.
The outpouring of fear from their initial creation spread the world over. It wasn’t strong, but it lingered, like background radiation in the minds of everyone on the planet. And that fear drove everyone to the brink of madness and destruction. Even after the initial burst of it settled, everyone had already settled into their new lives and routines too thoroughly to go back.
This particular organization had been created by a small group of the scientists who’d escaped the panic-induced deaths of everyone who’d worked on the initial project. They’d managed to gather a small group of the fear-creatures, who worked with them, as much as they could.
You even got to meet a few of them. All of them seemed to embody a specific type of fear, usually a phobia. Thierry, the spider-person you’d met initially was the embodiment of arachnophobia. There was a person who seemed to be entirely made of water that represented thassolophobia, though you saw her pretty infrequently. Her proper body took up a massive swimming pool that had needed to be dug out special. The only time you saw her was when she sent out a segment of her body that was roughly person sized and shaped, something that was apparently difficult and uncomfortable to do. Another person, a hulking figure of dirt with a hole in their middle that seemed to constantly draw your eyes and body, represented claustrophobia. You didn’t go near him often.
Of course, your Hana was representative of a fear of snakes. Never a fear you’d had, but you could see how he would be horrific for someone who was afraid of scaly ropes.
He was apparently a recruiter, of some description. His capture by your old compound was an accident, but given that he was regularly fed a stream of dissenters, he could smuggle people they determined to be relatively safe out of the pit. Apparently your thievery was determined to be a non-harmful pastime that earned you a free ticket out.
You were told all this by the person you were supposed to be shadowing, a middle-aged woman who had been in this little group since just after its founding. You followed her around while she showed you how to do a variety of tasks. Mostly cleaning or fetching things for other people. A day after you’d arrived, she handed you a massive tray of raw meat and gestured for your to follow her.
“This will likely be one of your tasks on a daily basis,” she said. “Along with general cleaning. I assume you’re willing to complete janitorial tasks.”
Her tone said ‘you don’t think you’re too good for this, right?’ with an undertone of ‘because if you do, we’re going to have problems.’ “I’m fine with it,” you said. You legitimately didn’t have a problem with it. It wasn’t any different from the shit you’d been doing at the compound.
You walked through a familiar hall that opened into a familiar, cavernous room. You had to switch the floodlights on. Obviously you didn’t have the power to run them all the time.
“Mind warning me before you do that?” Hana groused, half covering his face with his hand. “Oh, it’s you!”
You nodded. “It’s… good to see you again?”
“Sure. Glad you’re doin’ all right,” Hana said. “Ya gonna give me the food or what?”
Your supervisor left at that moment, telling you to bring the tray back to the kitchens when you were done, since she needed to take care of something. Everyone seemed busy all the time. Probably took a lot of work to run the place. You’d probably be busy too, once you were more settled in.
Hana didn’t really chew his food. He just swallowed big chunks at once, like- well, like a snake. It was impressive, but also kind of gross to watch. “Guess you’ve decided to stay,” he said between huge mouthfuls.
“What other options do I have?” you asked back, complete rhetorical.
He decided to answer it anyway, though. “Out there.” He gestured vaguely toward the ceiling with an expansive motion. “Y’know. Anywhere out there.”
“I’d die,” you said. Society might have collapsed when you were a teen, but the past ten years or so, you’d been hopping from little settlement to little settlement. You didn’t have the skills or the tools to survive on your own in the wilderness.
“You might live,” he said. “It’s a lot of scrubland, but I ‘member people saying there’s root vegetables and stuff growin’ out there. You could eat those.”
“Not without cooking them. I can’t actually identify any of them, either. I’d probably eat something toxic by accident. Or get caught by marauders. Or the wild dog packs.” A lot of people had dogs before the apocalypse. A lot of those dogs didn’t have people anymore by the time things settled. And, well, dogs are descended from wolves. In times of necessity, a lot of them just remembered what they used to be. Packs of larger dogs could be a real issue, especially because no one was giving out rabies vaccines anymore.
“Maybe,” Hana allowed. “Maybe not.” He swallowed another chunk of meat. “Maybe ya could befriend a dog and get it to bring ya meat. They can hunt, right? And they’re stupid loyal?”
You laughed a little. “Have you never met a dog before?”
“Nah. Where would I have seen one, huh?” Hana paused, tapping a finger on his chin. There’s a thin line of meat-juice running along it. “Hm. Though I guess I could have seen one and not realized it, ‘cause I don’t really know what they look like.”
“You’ve never even seen a dog?” you asked. “Not even before you were changed into-” You skittered to a stop, not quite managing to pause the words before they’re almost all out. Oops. You didn’t mean to do that. It was probably a rather touchy subject for him.
He shrugged, still eating. “Nah. Don’t remember a thing before I got all scaly.” He gestures to his waist. A majority of his body is still stretching up through the tunnel and out into the pit, but there’s enough there to see his dark scales. “Probably good, though, huh? Can’t imagine turnin’ into this was a fun time for me.”
“You don’t remember what it was like to be human at all?” you asked. He fixed you with an irritated look.
“I just said I didn’t. Open your ears. I remember some stuff, clearly. Like, I woke up knowin’ English and what the sky and grass was an’ all that.”
“But not dogs,” you mused. He gave you a wry, somewhat irritated expression.
“No. Not dogs.”
Hm. That was interesting. You mulled that over while he finished his meal. Once he was done, you gathered up the dishes. “See ya around,” he said, waving.
As if turned out, you did see him after that quite often. Your initial tasks seemed to be focused on delivering food to the ‘phobic assets.’ Not all of them were still human enough to eat, but the ones who had fused with animals definitely needed to. Thierry was your favorite. He was typically quite polite, and you’d never had any issue with spiders before, so his spider half was a source of fascination rather than disgust.
Hana was always waiting for you when you brought food to him, and he always stuck around to chat for as long as you wanted. Maybe he was lonely, or maybe he was just bored. But he always listened attentively, and given that everyone else was rushing around all the time, speaking to him was nearly the highlight of your day.
“I mean, it’s nicer being here than it was being there, obviously. I just wish people weren’t so…” You waved a hand. “I don’t know. Rushed? At least I felt like I was a part of a community over there. We all had meals together and we talked and worked together. Here, it’s just different. I don’t think I’ve had a conversation with anyone except a couple people for more than two minutes.”
“Everyone’s trying to save the world. Makes ‘em busy. Plus, you’re kinda an outsider. It’ll take a while to get you on their radar. Or into their precious schedules.” Hana shrugged, gulping down his meal with reckless abandon. “Who’s the second?”
“Huh?” He had a habit of jumping topics like that. It was hard to keep up.
“Ya said there were two people ya could have conversations longer than two minutes. One’s me. Who’s the other?”
“Oh. Thierry.” To your surprise, Hana’s face contorted into a sulky expression.
“Thierry? Really? That pompous spider prick?” He shifted and you could hear distant thumping, like he was slapping the end of his tail against the ground.
“What’s wrong with Thierry?” you asked, creeping back a little. He didn’t seem overly pissed, but it was probably best to get out of the way. Just in case.
“He’s stuck up. Thinks he’s so good ‘cause he’s the embodiment of some massive fear and he’s the one who works the closest with all the scientists.” Hana rolled his eyes so aggressively you were surprised he didn’t strain something.
“He’s nice to me,” you said. Hana grumbled incoherently, tail thumping. One of his hands dug furrows in the dirt. You watched his fingers as they made the scraping motions over and over. Something in your brain itched, drawing up the image of those strong fingers seizing you and squeezing until it hurt as you kicked against it-
The room was large. But the walls felt too much like they were pressing in on you.
The tray was empty and you hurried forward to grab it before jolting back to the door. Hana looked up from his sulking, alarm and maybe concern crossing his face. “Wh- Ya doin’ okay?”
“Yes.” The word came out steady, but mechanical in its steadiness. It almost hissed past your lips. Hana started to lift himself up, pulling more of his massive serpent’s tail in through the hole in order to support himself. You scrambled back from his rapidly more imposing form.
“Woah, easy there. I didn’t mean to startle ya.” He held his hands up, but that made him look even more imposing. “Uh. Maybe you should sit down? Ya don’t look so-”
You turned and fled down the hallway that led back to the relative safety of the entrance room. Hana yelled after you to wait, but his voice was distorted and echoing down the tunnel and you didn’t bother to listen. You just fled.
Perhaps your room was the safest place to go, but you couldn’t bring yourself to spend time there, given its small size. It was fine normally, but you couldn’t manage it while already keyed up. Fortunately, the lab techs could use someone to help them wipe down their equipment, so you stayed in there. There were too many people bustling around for your liking, but it was, on the whole, a good distraction.
For the next couple of days, you didn’t see Hana. It wasn’t terribly hard to pawn your task off onto someone else, as long as you agreed to pick up whatever they were working on. You learned a lot of simple tasks- cleaning, a lot about cleaning, as well as how to operate their computer system, and even a few mechanical skills from repairing things. That had been completely disallowed in the compound you’d spent you life in- at least, for someone as low-ranking as you.
Hana sent you messages a couple of times. Some of the people who did your job of delivering meals came back and told you he’d asked them to tell you that he wanted to talk. You ignored it. There was a part of you that felt bad about it. Then you remembered him getting all pissy about you talking to Thierry and those bad feelings went right back out the window. What had been his problem about all that anyway?
The answer had come to you midway through washing out a series of trays in the cafeteria- he was jealous.
That thought gave you pause. You hadn’t even really been thinking about it, just kind of turning things over idly in your mind. But it made sense, didn’t it? He’d gotten sulky right after finding out that you were spending time with someone else, and that matched up with jealousy. He’d gotten annoyed about Thierry, specifically. Was he just pissed that he wasn’t the oh-so-special fear monster that you were picking to spend all of your time with?
Or maybe he was upset because you visited him at mealtimes, when you had to, and you could see Thierry whenever you wanted. People didn’t visit him very often, did they? Even Thierry, who lived in the main compound, seemed surprised to get visitors. Maybe he was jealous because he was lonely.
That idea didn’t make you feel very good. Not that it was an excuse for him getting all annoyed, but… it was understandable. And maybe you’d overreacted a little bit. You had your own reasons for that, of course. But looking back on it, you probably could have handled the whole thing better.
You grimaced, placing all the dishes into their rack and sliding it onto a shelf above your head. Fine. You would go back to him. Apologize. It would be swallowing your pride, but… You remembered him calling after you. His reaching out. The idea of you ignoring him out of some petty hurt feelings? It made you feel awful.
The next day, you went to gather his food from the kitchen and found no tray waiting for you. After a bit of looking around, to make sure you hadn’t missed something, you approached the kitchen head. “Hey. When are we feeding Hana?”
He glanced back at you. “Thought you didn’t want to feed him anymore.”
A nervous prickle wound its way down your spine. “Uh. I’ve been wanting to try out some other jobs, but I am still interested in helping- look, did you give the food to someone else or not?”
He sighed. He was older, and clearly didn’t like you talking back to him and ruining his quiet kitchen. “No. He’s getting a later feeding. We’re inviting someone new in today.”
“What? Seriously?” You leaned over the serving window. “Who is it?”
He glared at you. “You’ll have to ask someone else for that information.”
You headed out, looking for… someone who knew what was going on, you guessed. Fortunately, you only needed to go down a couple halls before running into the very woman who had welcomed you to this place.
“Hello,” she said. “I’m glad to see you. You’ve been settling in well?”
Her voice had that tone to it, the tone of someone asking perfunctory questions out of politeness without really caring about the answers they were getting. “Yes, it’s fine,” you said, another response out of obligated politeness. “You’re going to see the new person?”
“Yes. You’re wanting to come with?” she asked, barely slowing in her step. You continued alongside her.
“Am I allowed to?”
She shrugged. “Certainly. They’ll be from your compound. It may help them to see a friendly face.”
There was a solid chance it would be a face you didn’t know, and even if you did know them, they may not have been friendly. But it got you closer to Hana, and maybe you could stay behind for a bit to talk to him. You tagged along after her, drawing closer to the entrance to the tunnel with every step.
The woman was quick and sure and it took a little time to emerge into the open room lit with floodlights. There was no one there. No one continued to be there for several minutes. You were about to sarcastically ask if you got the time wrong when a small avalanche of pebbles fell down the tunnel.
There was another small avalanche of pebbles, then another, then a scraping noise. Then a head and shoulders emerged into the room. It was a person, pale-skinned, with curly blonde hair. She was quite skinny and smeared with dirt, teeth gritted. As soon as she was partially freed from the tunnel, she struggled forward, fingers clawing at the ground. The woman stepped forward, pulling the newcomer out of the hole. A moment later, Hana slithered out, groaning and stretching.
“Cuttin’ it close there, aren’t y-” His eyes fell on you and a look of clear surprise flitted across his face. He blinked a couple times. You felt a bit sheepish under his gaze.
The newcomer coughed as she stood up. “Son of a bitch, that’s rough. You need to have a better greeting system for people arriving here, because getting grabbed by a massive snake is not it, seriously.” She stared around the room, taking it all in, and her gaze fell on you. Her face twisted. “You!”
It came back in a rush- she was a familiar face. Not a friendly one, though. One of the ones who’d seen- she knew you. She’d helped get you thrown into the pit. What had led her here, you didn’t know, but she was clearly pissed that you were in the same place.
“What are you doing here?” she said.
“Same thing you are,” you snapped. “Shouldn’t be surprised that you’re here, to be honest. How long until you tattled on the wrong person and got yourself thrown away?”
“Tattled?” Her face grew splotched with red. “That’s what you call it? Because I told people you murdered someone?”
There was the cold shock of silence for a few moments. “Murder?” Hana said. His voice was faintly shocked. “Ya said ya stole something.”
“It’s technically stealing. Stole someone’s life,” you said. “But it- it wasn’t like that, I didn’t just- I didn’t want to, really, but it happened and-”
“While we are willing to accept those who’ve been driven out of the compound for multiple reasons, we are much more hesitant when it involves murder,” the woman said. “That you haven’t disclosed it until now gives us much more reason for concern.” She stepped forward, ushering the newcomer behind her. There was a glint of metal and there was a gun pointed at you. You hadn’t even seen where she was carrying it. “If you’ll come with me-”
“Wait, wait,” Hana said. He slithered forward, pulling more of himself into the room to go almost between you and the woman. “No need for a gun, yeah? S’not necessary. Nothin’s happened, right? No one’s done anything here. And livin’ in that compound- there’s gotta be a good reason for the murder, yeah?”
“Reasons can be determined later. For now- containment. For safety.”
“Containment?” The word made your skin crawl like it was trying to get off your body. It brings to mind the containment you were kept in when you were initially convicted in the compound. It was barely a room. Not enough space to lie down. Barely enough to sit, with your legs tucked against your chest and your arms tight against your sides. Not enough room to move, not even to eat. Not that it mattered. You were kept there for nearly two full days. They didn’t bother to feed you.
“C’mon,” Hana was speaking, his voice wheedling. “Someone just shows up here and you’re gonna take her word? Y’think this one’s gonna kill someone? Really?” He jerked a thumb back at you, and you couldn’t even be offended. “S’not exactly a tough lookin’ piece of work.”
The woman hesitated, lowering the pistol a little. “It wouldn’t be permanent. Just for a couple days, while we review work details and determine if there should be an escort. It’s for safety.”
Hana rolled his eyes, a great, overexaggerated movement. “Sure. Fine. Look, if ya want to do containment, do it here.”
The woman’s gun lowered a little more, out of sheer confusion. “I beg your pardon?”
“Do the containment here.” Hana lifted his hands to gesture at the room around you. “Ya can shut the door that connects this place and the main facility, right? Do that and keep the little killer here.” He waved a hand toward you again.
“I’m not certain that’s a good idea,” the woman said.
“What d’ya think is gonna happen? Little killer can’t get through the door once it’s closed. Not without your permission.” He paused, likely for dramatic effect. “Unless ya think she’s gonna pull something on me.” And then he grinned, showing off his teeth, especially the ones that were too pointed to be a human.
The woman looked at you, then him. Then you, then him again. Then she sighed. “Fine. If you’re determined to keep an eye on her, then I’m not going to stop you.” She placed the gun back under her jacket in a holster you hadn’t noticed before, then grabbed the newcomer by the arm. They walked out together, the newcomer’s eyes locked on you until they vanished down the tunnel. A moment later, the door at the end of the hall shut and locked.
The tension vanished at once, and you sank to the ground. Your heart raced along in your chest, your breathing quick and trembling. You closed your eyes for a moment, trying to calm yourself. Hana didn’t approach, but he didn’t leave either. He just studied a wall, waiting for you to pull yourself together.
You did, eventually. “Thanks,” you mumbled. Hana glanced at you. “I mean it. You didn’t have to do that.”
He hummed, turning away from the wall. “So. Ya kill someone?”
Straight to the point, huh? You took a deep breath. “Yeah.” You paused. “Have you ever, uh. Y’know.”
“Killed someone? Couple times, yeah.” He stretched. “Well. Actually. Probably a lot more than that, but I don’t know if they count.”
You stared at him, waiting for him to continue. He shrugged, plucking at some of his hair. It was in really good shape, considering that he’d been outside for ages. Actually, he was also rather clean. Did they give him access to a shower or something? How did he fit? Did he just get hosed down?
“This big ol’ thing,” he said gesturing to his body, “has been around for a bit longer than this.” He tapped a finger against his head. “We were all like that for a while.” You assumed he meant the other phobics. “‘Ventually we woke up, but I killed quite a few before I got there. Wasn’t really me doing the killing, though- didn’t have my sparkling personality.” He threw you a wink. You rolled your eyes. “Not like I remember what happened then, anyway.”
He fell silent after that until you piped up. “What about the other two people you killed?”
“Oh.” He finger-combed his hair, seeming very interested in picking out the knots. “One of ‘em tried to kill me. Came at me with a big ol’ knife. That was before I ended up here.”
“The other?” you prompted when he fell quiet again. He snorted, lips curling up over his fangs.
“The other was after I came here. Nasty piece of work. A criminal from your compound, though I dunno if he was a part of the compound itself. Didn’t seem like it. Asked him about what he did to get sent here.” Hana’s lips curled further. “Don’t think he was in his right mind. Said he was pickin’ off people from the farms, raping them, then chucking their bodies somewhere in the fields to rot.” Hana hissed. It was low, inhuman. It made your hair stand on end. “So I killed ‘im. Don’t think he appreciated being on the receiving end.”
Your chest clenched so hard you couldn’t get in a breath. You remembered that. It had happened a few years ago. You had been so grateful that you worked closer to the inner compound, so that something like that could never happen to you. You’d been so sure it would never happen. So, so sure.
“Woah there.” Hana reared up a little, looking at you with clear alarm. “Easy. I didn’t mean to freak ya out. Take a breath before you pass out, all right?”
The choking sobs eased enough for you to do just that. Hana came hesitantly closer, caution in his eyes. “S’okay. He’s dead now. Did you, uh. Know him or somethin’?”
Your voice was strange, strangled, but you got the words out. “Knew of him, more like. I thought- I thought it was so good when he was gone because- I would never- worry about it-” You kept having to pause to gasp for air. Hana winced.
“Maybe we should talk about somethin’ else now, yeah? Uh. Damn, they didn’t give us water, I think ya could use some…” He scrounged around. “Thought there was a spigot somewhere around here… not that it’d be super clean water, I guess.”
“I’m fine,” you said. “I’m sorry.”
“Don’t say you’re sorry about things ya don’t need to be sorry for. It sets a bad precedent.” He finished fumbling his way along the wall and sighed. “Hmph. I don’t see it. Maybe I can bang on the door and make them-”
“Don’t bother. Like I said, I’m fine.” You took in a deep breath. Water would have been nice -your mouth was getting kind of tacky- but it wasn’t necessary. Hana gave you a skeptical look, but he didn’t bang on the door. That was probably for the best- the space was small enough that the sound would have echoed and that would have freaked you out more.
“Suppose it’s a bad time to ask and all,” Hana said. “But, uh. Y’ever gonna tell me why you killed someone? Just seems fair, is all.”
You took a deep breath, and then another. And then another and another. Hana waited, not really looking at you. His tail was still partially in the tunnel, but you could imagine his tail tip flicking idly, back and forth, while he waited.
“It’s not easy to talk about,” you said eventually.
Hana nodded, accepting. “I can see that.”
“I didn’t mean to- no.” You didn’t want to lie to him. “I did. I knew what was going to happen when I went there and I went anyway. I knew.”
Hana remained silent, his eyes flicking over to look at you. Another deep breath. “When I was there, I worked mostly in the town. It was a lot of stuff that I did. Repair work, maintenance, animal care, that kind of thing. Outside, but close to the center of the compound. That’s how you knew how important someone was. How close to the center they were. Eventually, I started getting called for other things. Maintenance on the hall itself, being a gopher for messages from the hall to the other workers or even bringing food into the officials. That was the first problem, I guess. The officials.
“There were a bunch of them, people who kind of ran things in the compound. I mean, I say a bunch. Probably around five or six. We never saw all of them. But Peter was one of the ones we saw, often. He was the… I don’t know. The charisma, maybe. His official job was something to do with assigning tasks and population management, but he really made people want to stay. He could talk to you and make you feel like the most important person in the world, or like the shit under his shoe. Peter could make you feel good about doing the most menial, backbreaking work every day because he could make you feel like you were doing something important.” You paused. You’d expected to feel upset or near tears, but you just felt oddly numb. “He made me feel important. About everything.”
Hana was a short distance away, watching with rapt attention. You couldn’t quite bring yourself to look at him, but you could tell he was paying attention. “He was nice to me, and I thought he was kind. I was so happy when he started getting me to work more in the hall. I thought it meant I was doing well. And eventually he started getting close. Asking me to take meals with just him. I thought it was strange, but I was happy. And then he started to ask for other things. And I thought… I can’t refuse him. Ever.
“The first time he tried to have sex with me, he was drunk. Like, pretty damn drunk. I let it happen because I wasn’t sure if he would remember it. I didn’t want to offend him if he did. I thought it was just a one-time thing. Except… the next time he was less drunk. And then the third time he wasn’t drunk at all. And every time I thought he wouldn’t do it again. By the time I realized it was going to keep happening, I had no idea how I was supposed to stop it. Refusing felt like I was suddenly kicking up a fuss over something that hadn’t been a big deal at first, but it had been a big deal all along!”
Your voice broke, rising in volume. Hana bristled, looking alarmed, but uncertain. Should he move closer? Back away? Comfort you? Seeing his panicked bewilderment, you took a deep breath and tried to relax. “It’s- I tried to stop it in small measures. Tried to tell him not now, or another time, or even tried to just cuddle.” You giggled, a little hysterically. “He wasn’t pleased. He got pushier. More demanding and more controlling. I started to get a little desperate. I talked about what was happening with some other people, but those who weren’t jealous or thought I was being ungrateful were scared of him. And then when he found out I was telling people, he was furious. Said I was trying to make other people jealous or get attention, even when I said that wasn’t what I was doing at all. He got more aggressive. Angrier with me. I couldn’t do anything right anymore, and every time I did something wrong, he threatened to send me away. I didn’t want to stay with him, but I didn’t want to leave, either. It was awful.
“I think I went crazy for a while. I was so stressed I couldn’t even think straight for ages. I just wanted him out of my life. I had access to a lot of things in the hall at that point, including the medicine storage. I thought if I slipped something into his wine when he was drunk enough, maybe I could pin it on his drinking, that he’d just had too much. It wasn’t like we could do autopsies. And that’s what I tried. Put a bunch of crushed-up sleeping pills into the wine and brought it too him when I thought he might already be too drunk to notice the taste. I’m not exactly sure what went wrong. Maybe he didn’t drink enough, or I put too little in, or maybe he was just in death throes. But he came at me, and I hit him. I think it killed him, or it was a combination of that and the medicine. So I panicked, tried to hide the body, and then, well. You know what happened after that.”
Hana was silent for a moment. He took in a deep breath, released it slowly. His eyes closed for a moment. “I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay.”
“It’s really, really not,” Hana said. “It’s gross. And fucked. And horrible. I’m glad ya killed him.” He turned toward the door with a murderous look in his eyes. “And that bitch was going to-”
“She didn’t know. Why would she? It’s not like most people knew what happened. She knows what they told her. I murdered one of our leaders. Honestly, getting thrown into the pit was a mercy for me. I thought they might string me up and have a torture free for all.”
Hana shuddered. It traveled along his shoulders and all down his tail. It was sort of funny to watch. “Fuck.”
“Yeah.” You weren’t sure what else to say. You were just tired.
Hana moved a little closer to you, but stayed out of touching distance. “I’ll talk to ‘em. If you want. Tell them not to- not to have ya here anymore. Ya don’t deserve it.”
“It’s fine.”
“It ain’t fine! Ya don’t deserve it!” There was a thump from outside, Hana’s tail swinging wildly. “It’s about not lettin’ them punish people who shouldn’t be punished!”
“I did kill a man,” you observe mildly.
“Yeah, and ya should have gotten a medal for it,” Hana huffed.
“I don’t really mind being here. It’s not so bad. Company’s nice.” You smiled at him. He frowned back.
“Thought ya didn’t like me.” He wasn’t saying it accusingly. Just as an observation.
“Oh. No, I don’t not like you. I know I freaked out last time I saw you. I got… worried when you were upset about Thierry.”
Hana drooped. “Eh. Yeah. That wasn’t my best moment. I didn’t mean to scare ya. I wasn’t thinking.”
“Running wasn’t my best moment, either,” you said. “I thought about coming back soon after I ran, but I was kinda embarrassed. Sorry.”
Hana laughed. “We both fucked up then, huh? Maybe me more than you. Glad you’re here now, though. S’good to see ya.”
“It’s good to see you too,” you said. “Like I said before.” Hana grinned, eyes crinkling at the corners.
Eventually, he departed back to the surface, but he spent much more of his time down in the cave with you. It was quietly peaceful. After what you estimated to be a few hours, the door banged and Hana perked up as food was slipped through the door. He managed to catch it before it closed completely and there were a few minutes of mumbled conversation. Hana retreated, letting the door close. He seemed smugly pleased with himself.
“I gave them a piece of my mind,” he said. “Not as much as I wanted to, but ya know. They wanted it to be all quick.” He shrugged. “They’re gonna let ya out soon. Didn’t tell ‘em too much, but I did say it was self-defense.”
“They believed you?” you asked, a bit skeptical.
“More or less. Honestly, I think they’d already gotten the idea that you killed someone high-ranking, and they’re more likely to call self-defense for that. When I told ‘em you’d killed someone in self-defense and they were a high-up, they seemed to be content.”
“It wasn’t really self-defense,” you said. “It was premeditated murder.”
Hana snorted. “He was raping ya. Ya stopped him. It was self-defense.”
It was such a simple sentence, but the way he’d said it, like it was obvious and clear, that you should have done it, that it was as simple as protecting yourself- it made you crumble. You dropped your head into your hands and whimpered. Hana froze, then slid closer. He seemed momentarily lost, until you slumped against him. You didn’t hold him back, but you allowed him to hold you while you shivered and whimpered. He was careful, keeping his touch light, but there. It wasn’t restrictive- just a reminder he was there for you.
Once you were done crying yourself out, you lay down and closed your eyes, exhausted. “I’m going to sleep,” you mumbled. “Let me know when they come to get me.”
Hana nodded. “Will do.” He lay down next to you, watching you lazily. “When ya get out of here… come back to visit me, yeah?”
You opened your eyes. Hana seemed… melancholy, tense. He was waiting for your answer. “Yeah,” you said. You slid your hand out over his. “You’re never going to get rid of me after this. Promise.”
Before you closed your eyes again, you saw Hana grinning.
True to his word, you were released from the cell and allowed to go back to your room. The newcomer still glared at you, but she never made any effort to do anything. In fact, a week later, she came up and gave a mumbled apology. You forgave her, at least enough to tolerate her presence.
And you were back on feeding duty for Hana. He was pleased every time you came by, always attentive and waiting. The feedings took longer now- sometimes so long that people had to come get you. It was just nice talking to Hana. The only issue was that it was uncomfortable for him to stay down for a long time. You hadn’t realized it before, as he never complained, but the tunnel was little tight around him, and his tail could cramp if he spent too long in there.
One day, as he was carefully retreating back through the tunnel, (he had to hold his arms out in front of him, lest they catch awkwardly on the uneven walls), you caught his attention. “I, uh. I couldn’t go up there with you, could I?”
He froze, arms still outstretched. “Ya want to?”
You huffed. “You don’t need to sound like it’s insane to want that.”
“No, no, s’not what I meant.” He wriggled a little ways back out. “I meant, ya never want to go through here. It’s too tight for ya.”
“It’s tight,” you agreed. “But I want to try anyway.” Your heart was thundering just thinking about it, but you liked the idea of the fresh air and sunlight on the other side.
Hana pursed his lips. “Are ya sure? Not to doubt ya, but if ya get in and decide ya don’t like it, it’s gonna be hard to get back out.”
“I got it. Trust me.” You gave him a pleading look. He squirmed, restless in his worry. Then he sighed.
“I can’t stop ya. Just be careful.” He retreated again, slower this time. You took a deep breath and pressed inward.
You were going forward, instead of in reverse, so your arms were pinned to your sides within a few moments. You couldn’t move them an inch, could barely lift your head. You could kick your legs and wriggle to force yourself forward.
There was panic from the moment the stone walls restricted your arms, but the moment when they pinched in so tight you couldn’t move without some scratches was when it really set in. You tried not to breathe in great, whooping gasps, because that make dust fly up your nose and mouth and only increased the terror that you couldn’t breathe, but it was hard. The walls were so tight. You could barely breathe enough to scream, but you could make little noises of terror. There was a pale light distantly above and in front of you, but you couldn’t reach it. You could see the sun, but you were in the dark and you couldn’t bring yourself to move forward.
The pale light wobbled, then a shape moved across it. A head and shoulders. “Hey!” Hana called out. His voice echoed faintly down the tunnel. “Ya stopped moving.”
You tried to speak, but it came out as a thin squeak. Hana went very still. Then he spoke again, in a soft, gentle voice. “Hey. S’okay. Ya got this. It’s scary, yeah? Being stuck in there. But if ya just move your legs a little, ya can keep moving forward. Ya can get out. Just a little further.”
You groaned. But you kicked. Your legs thrust you forward. And Hana’s shape, backlit by the sun, got clearer and clearer.
His hand reached in as soon as you were close enough and he pulled, gripping your collar until you had wriggled free.
“There ya go!” Hana sagged in relief as you scrambled onto the dirt floor. “Whoo! Was a little worried.” He lowered himself to look into your face. “You’re okay? Nothin’ hurt?”
“Nah. Fine.” You could steady your breathing. “It was tighter than I remembered. But I’m okay now.”
You rolled onto your back, letting the warm kiss of the sun land across your face. “It’s a nice day.”
“Yeah,” Hana said, staring down at you. “It is.” He curled his body closer in around you, surrounding you in snaky coils. He didn’t block out the sun, careful to keep his body to the sides, rather than directly overtop you.
You reached out and tentatively patted his side. The snake body shifted under your touch, the scales slightly warm. Hana watched indulgently as you traced the scales with a finger. Then, finally, he lowered his upper body to the ground next to you. You lay there together for a bit, basking in the sun.
Hana shifted next to you, a little restless. “Are ya goin’ to be up here long?”
“Trying to get rid of me,” you teased. You couldn’t see his face from your angle, but you knew he was rolling his eyes.
“No. ‘Course not. Just wonderin’ if they were missing ya down there.” He was quiet for a moment. “Just thought ya might want to stay up here a bit longer.”
“I’m not eager to go into the tunnel again,” you agreed. “And it’s nice up here. The sun’s nice. Haven’t seen it in a while.” Hana shifted, as if impatient. “And the company is nice.”
“Just nice?” Hana poked. “Faint praise, isn’t it?”
“Well, maybe I could think of someone else I might want to hang out with. Thierry cou-” Hana lifted himself so he was leaning over you, practically pouting. His tail moved, curling even tighter around you. It could have been threatening, but you couldn’t stop yourself from giggling.
“Hey. What did I ever do to ya?” he complained. “I’ve been nothin’ but cordial to ya and now you’re just-”
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” you huffed. You reached up and petted his face. He closed his eyes, instantly melting into your touch. You brushed your fingers along his cheekbones. He looked quite peaceful. Happy. You had a sudden impulse.
Before you could think better of it, you pulled his face in and gave him a kiss on his forehead.
Hana’s eyes flew open. He blinked once, twice, startled. You wanted to giggle, but a flicker of nervousness in your guts stifled it. His tail curled in close, a tight mass of muscle. Despite that, he kept it from tightening so much that it would make you uncomfortable. “Did ya mean to do that?” he asked. You nodded. A slow grin spread across his face. “Then I’m going to have to return the favor. If ya don’t mind…”
No sooner had you nodded than you were covered in enthusiastic kisses from a snake man. Giggling at the ticklish feeling and wrapped in coils and arms, you felt… surprisingly safe. And not even a little afraid.
"It might be poisonous," you comment as your traveling companion plucks a very suspicious looking mushroom from a nearby tree.
"It might, or it might be very delicious." he smiles.
You flatten your lips as you beg to differ. Over the past few days you've learned about one of his very odd talents of being able to consume poisonous plants with little to no effect. First it was some berries then some other mushrooms and recently the fruit of a well-known poisonous tree. He could always tell if they were unfit for human consumption, which of course is a plus for you since you have limited knowledge of foraging.
"Is this a thing all Naga are capable of doing or just you?" you ask.
"Every family has a sort of different 'gift' so to speak. My mother's family could eat anything, even if it tastes like burnt garbage on a hot summer's day. As for my father's side...." he trails off and for a moment he looks lost. He glances over at you and offers you the same weak smile he did several days ago when talks about his past with your family came up.
"We don't have to talk about this anymore if you don't want to." you offer an end to yet another painful topic.
It had been touch and go with whatever subject could withstand Silas' unpredictable moods and turning points from congenial conversation to awkward head scratches and annoyed sighs. You've learned to give him a bit of space and time to think and process whenever this happened but it was getting to the point where you could hardly ask him a question without him shutting you out completely.
After a few minutes of the once again silence you decide to head back to camp and start on dinner with some of the fish you had caught earlier. You hear Silas murmur something as you leave but you decide to ignore it.
The fire is still going, attended by a salamander that started following you around after the second day. You've lovingly named him George after the family dog that is now oceans away with your sister and her new family. He was a great comfort for whenever things got well, uncomfortable. Silas enjoys his presence as well, especially when the nights are cold. When he sees that you've return to the camp, George lets out a little whine and rolls into the fire like a little puppy playing around.
"You being a good boy and keeping that fire nice and warm?" you coo to him.
George nods and goes back to rolling in the fire while you get started on scaling the fish. This was the one prep work that you took over doing since you had years of experience with all things fish.
By the time you're done and have the fish over the fire, Silas returns with his shirt filled with an array of mushrooms, berries, and nuts.
"Sorry about the wait, I found a few different mushrooms and kind of-"
"Picked them all?" you raise a brow, noting he's avoiding the prior topic.
"Yes and no. I picked all the ones that I know aren't poisonous and look," he tilts his shirt over enough for you to see the haul.
There were several large hen-of-the-woods mushrooms and a nice size bunch of oysters. You're genuinely impressed and even hungrier than you already were.
"If you want to get them ready I'll go and find some herbs that will go good with them," you turn to head over to the stuffed food bag but your arm is caught in a light clawed grip.
"Silas what-"
His hand loosens as it glides up to your lips and gently presses a finger to it. Your eyes widen at the sudden interaction. You hadn't noticed before thanks to the mushrooms but his knuckles are scratched up and his hair seems a bit disheveled.
"What hap-" his finger slips and his hand covers your mouth. Your entire body shivers with fear until your eyes meet. Confusion clouds his eyes and that lost look returns.
"My father disappeared when I was a child. It caused some problems between your father and my mother." he pauses, giving you some time to process.
You calm yourself and carefully wipe his hand away from your face, holding it just as you did before.
"I don't know much about him except that I look a lot like him. That and I have never met his side of the family, never even heard my mom talk about them."
A familiar pain hits you in the chest as you realize that that's sort of something you two have in common. Your father never talks about your mother or her family, only that you look just like her. Roslyn and Peter were too young to really remember her, so none of you have anything to go by.
"The worse part of it is that I can barely remember him. I look like him, sure! But I'm not him... I don't even know who he is! I-"
You give his hand a squeeze and it's like you break him. He lets go of the shirt, letting the mushrooms fall and before he starts after them you pull him into your arms.
"I know..." you whisper, gently patting his back.
"Neither of us are our parents..."
It was a stinging sort of comment and you felt him stiffen in your hold.
"I look like my mother and you look like your father. For me it's easy to not miss someone I didn't get to know. Sure I wish I had a mother, but there's nothing I can do about that...But you, you knew your father and you have every right to miss him, feel uncomfortable about talking about him, be angry that you know nothing about him..." your throat tightens up and you realize that you had started to cry. Silas escapes your arms and pulls you into his. He's shivering as he holds onto you and it makes you want to cry more, that is until George saunters over, waggling his fat tail behind him.
You let out a dry laugh as he nudges you then Silas. He drops one arm to dangle, allowing for the salamander to sit up and rub his head on it. You feel Silas lighten, his grip on you not as tight. You wiggle yourself free and go to fix his messy hair but he turns from you. You quickly follow him and before he can react, your hands are on either side of his face.
"You don't have to tell me everything or anything. You don't need to indulge me in a topic that's too much for you, but please don't hide this from me," you wipe a tear from his pale face, his silvery eyes tinged with red and oh how you wished there was no history with your families!
Silas held himself for a moment before he melted into your hands. His eyes closed and a clawed hand glided up one of yours, guiding it to his lips where he kissed your fingers one by one.
"I can't keep pretending things didn't happen the way they did. I can't ignore it the way your father and my mother did. You deserve to know ev-"
It was your turn to shush him, placing your hand over his mouth as he had done to you. His soft lips brushing your palm as he gasped against the sudden movement. A strange sensation crept from your hand to your chest and although you wanted to explore this new feeling, now wasn't the time.
"I don't deserve anything from you, at least not now. I've thought about it since our first night together and we really don't know each other. Sure my papa had told you a lot about me, like how I used to be terrible at fixing nets, worse than even Peter. But I bet he never told you that I got better by waking up early and going to learn from the spouses of the fishermen in town. Doug was the best, could get a few mended before breakfast." you keep your eyes on his, making sure he's following every word you say.
"Trust comes first before anything else, so let's start there. You can't just be comfortable divulging some stranger in your past just because it might affect them. Trust me, I know... that's why I always ended up in the back of my brother's tavern, cleaning dishes or food prep..." You pause at that, a terrible memory you'd rather avoid thinking of just like Silas did earlier...but you weren't going to ignore it.
"I can't tell people what my mother was like because I don't know and no matter how many times people say I look like her or sound like her, I don't know her!"
With your eyes still on his you force yourself to look away when his silvery eyes seem to burn with a fiery rage that practically has you shaken. He grabs your hand that has been covering his lips and pulls you up to him, chest flushed against his.
"How strange it is that we're on the same boat but on completely different seas," his voice is a lot calmer yet there's still a bit of pain in it. He lets your hand go but you stay right up against him, eyes holding you in place.
"You're right to say that trust should come first, but..." he lowers his face to yours, lips against your ear. "I fear that I already trust you a great deal my dear."
He moves to meet your gaze and you can't help but to feel trapped between fear and intrigue. A fear for being caught in something dangerous and intrigued by the ever growing allure that is Silas. Your heart starts pounding so loudly you're pretty sure anyone in a five mile radius could hear it, but no, you're stomach interrupts with a churning gurgle as it begs to be fed.
His face screws and he lets out a laugh mixed with amusement and defeat. You feel a bit embarrassed until you remember the fish.
"Oh no!" you push away from Silas and whip around him to see that the fish had been perfectly tended to. A sigh of relief escapes and you nearly have to take to your knees. George waddles up to you and you give him a loving hug.
"Good good boy!"
You turn back around to Silas, his demeanor has shifted back into something more recognizable albeit tired and worn.
"Luck was on our side when he trudged his chubby little legs into our fire that night," Silas grins.
George nudges into you and flops onto your lap, belly up and obvious in need of tummy rubs. And you obliged.
"I'm sorry my dear, I really am..." his voice is steady and although his back in turned you can tell that he is finally composed.
You felt odd about his apology, not because it wasn't sincere, but because it was much more like you. You've been the one apologizing to strangers who knew your late mother. You've been apologizing for your lack of social graces and ability to talk to new people without stammering over every other word. So it's odd and a bit well...
"You don't have to be. I told you that you don't need to push yourself because you think an absolute stranger deserves years of whatever is in your head." you see him plucking the mushrooms and other foraged goods up. They'll need to be washed really well.
"Less of a stranger now and more of a friend I'd like to think," he turns his head around just enough to see you still sitting with the salamander, rubbing its tummy as he dozes off.
"But that's still not enough I suppose. I need to trust you in a way that makes me feel-" he pauses and turns back around to finish picking everything up.
You don't press him to finish that thought, you're just glad that he seems to understand. You pick up George and set him by the fire, to which he hobbles into with a sleepy little trot. The seasonings you find in the food bag smell divine and savory, a wonderful fit for these mushrooms. Back at the fire you see Silas sitting across from you, cleaning and skewering the fungi. Calm and cooled, he focused on his prep work as if he was whittling.
The fish crisps up nicely and you have to stop yourself from nibbling on some of the mushrooms as they finish. Silas almost got away with an entire skewer if you hadn't have caught him. He tried to play it off as a last minute taste test, but he gave up when you gave him an all knowing look. Once everything is plated, the both of you enjoy a relaxing evening together. The fire is kept up by George, who will occasionally drag some sticks nearby to snack on while working. For the first time in your life things felt like they were going right.
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The night was colder than you'd expect. Silas retires early to the tent and you hurry along with clean up to do the same. A drop of water lands on your nose and you look up at the now grey sky. You think to ask Silas back out for help, but you didn't want him getting sick if it's too cold out here. Instead you finish cleaning up and one by one haul the bags into the tent, not stopping until your traveling companion pokes his head out.
"It's about to rain," you tell him.
Silas looks up and notices the cloudy evening sky. A low rumble of thunder alerts the both of you to hurry into the tent. Grabbing the last bag and George, you nearly fling yourself into Silas trying to get in. He holds onto you, helping you balance yourself out. His hands are cold and you could feel him shiver as he was letting you go. He has one of the thin blankets wrapped around his shoulders and the other rolled into a makeshift scarf around his neck. You pass off George to him and he nearly melts into a puddle as he lays down holding onto the salamander. Both happy, one for warmth and one for the attention. You can't help but to giggle that is until Silas bumps you with his tail.
"Laughing at my misery?" he feigns a frown, eyes giving away the mischief beneath.
"No, well not exactly." you smirk as you settle down next to him. He skootches over to give you a little more room, propping himself up on his tail as he lays George down.
"You're really a lot different from how your father had talked about you." he starts.
"Everything I thought I knew about you from him has either been invalidated by the years or just his side of the story."
You hang onto his words as you stretch out beside him, supporting your head on his tail as you've become so accustomed to. It was nice to hear him admit it and at the same time it made you feel better that he really didn't know anything about you.
"Makes me feel silly for overreacting that night," you laugh, but he didn't.
"No, you had every right to. I thought about it and I would be uncomfortable in a similar situation... In fact I think most people would be too."
The tent ripples as the wind picks up and water starts to lightly drum against it. Silas moves in a little closer, nudging part of his tail up till it was brushing up against your feet. He tightens up a little bit more before he finally relaxes.
"Sorry I know it's a bit more snug than usual but I am not one who enjoys the thought of getting sick." his face twists as if he's recalling something terrible.
You remember him telling you that his mother is a healer for his village and that she makes the most potent medicines this side of the forest. She's been called into Melmar a few times in the past, however as of recent she hardly leaves the village much less her own home. You start to think about the tonics and infusions she's probably made for a young Silas, sick in bed and whining in protest about the yucky medicine.
"What are you thinking about?" he asks, noticing you suppressing another giggle.
"Your misery again," you grin.
"You're terrible." he laughs, brushing silver strands back out of his face. The knot of hair had come undone and his hair splayed about in a tempting fashion. You love the feel of it, soft and silky like luxurious cloth hand woven by Drider crafts folk. He catches you eyeing him and his expression cools into something more tempting than his luscious locks.
"What are you thinking about now?" his voice sounds mischievous and alluring all at once but you do your best to ignore how it really makes you feel.
"Your hair is lovely." you reply, looping a few strands around a finger.
Silas sighs and you take that as an invitation to run your hand through his hair, something you already did every morning since he had a hard time putting it up himself. He melts into your touch, eyes closed as he enjoys the way your fingers gently run across his scalp.
"Mmm.." a moan escapes his lips and you almost stop but you're too intrigued to see what would happened if you continued.
"Combing it out now might make it easier to brush in the morning," you comment, trying to justify what you're doing. He props himself up off his tail and you follow suit, thinking that he's going to turn around for you to comb it out better. He does but then he plops his head into you lap.
"To make it easier for you," his lips curl into something coy as he settles against your thighs. You look down at him, still surprised by all this but when he closes his eyes you can clearly see that he's proud of himself for being so bold.
Rolling your eyes you decide to get started on combing out his hair. Little by little as you run your fingers through it you notice how more and more relaxed he becomes. Soft sighs escaping his even softer lips has you thinking about how they felt against you skin. He's peppered little kisses against your cheek once before and ever so often on your hand, but you wanted more. You stared at his lips now as you continued to run through his silvery locks. How dangerous, you thought to yourself as you avert your gaze.
Silas cracks open an eye to see you looking over at George who is curled up against his tail.
"This may become a reoccurring question tonight but," he reaches a hand up and you can feel cold claws against your skin. You dare to look back at him and find yourself frozen in place by his heated gaze.
"What are you thinking about my dear?" his voice lilted and you held your breath. He cocks his head in your lap before sitting up and cornering you against the side of the tent.
"Is it too bold of a thought for you to share?" you can tell he's enjoying himself, to which you were glad for all things considered, but why did it have to be tormenting to you. You purse your lips and put a hand up between you and him.
"For now. Maybe when I trust you a bit more I'll divulge this 'bold thought' to you." You reply and luckily the answer seems to suffice.
"Then I better do my best to be deserving of such trust," he takes the hand you had put up in front of him and kisses the tips of your fingers. The touch of his lips did nothing to help put away those dangerous thoughts, instead further igniting them. But no, you'd be good...After all you need to trust him first, just as he needs to be able to trust you.
"I don't know what you could do to earn it or how long it might take," you look away from him, trying your best to steer the conversation elsewhere.
Silas takes the hint and frees you from his gaze. He slinks back down into your lap, content to lay there for as long as you'll allow him.
Bold, you think of him. Bold and smug and way too charming for his own good.
"You're very cautious, I like that about you. But don't you ever feel the dire urge to take a risk every now and then?" his question hit you in the gut before twisting your stomach. The sudden look of disgust on your face made him jolt up.
"My dear what's wrong? Did I-"
"Roslyn and Peter used to get onto me that I was too cautious... Too afraid, too wary. I didn't do anything that was out of my comfort zone or talk to new people or do anything new and exciting. But all this." you pause to look around the tent then back to Silas.
"This is new, you're new and I am way out of my comfort zone here. I wanted to travel and get away from Melmar because I was tired of my life there. Of being around people who know this weakness of mine. Of being the same me as I've always been."
Silas catches a tear off your cheek and rubs your face gently.
"Thank you." he smiles. "Thank you for trusting me enough to tell me about that."
He wipes away a couple more tears before he presses his lips against your forehead.
"No more tears tonight my dear." he whispers as he pulls you up against his chest. You were thankful that it was cold and he hadn't discarded his shirt to the usual corner, you wouldn't know what to do if he held you up to his bare chest.
You breathed in deeply a few times attempting to calm yourself and then without warning the clawed hand at your side was tickling you into a fit.
You squirm and try to wiggle away from him but he holds you down and tickles you till you're breathless.
"Uncle! I said uncle!" you laugh.
Silas finally backs away, proudly smirking at his tricky way to getting you to stop crying.
"And you say that I'm terrible." you heave, still catching your breath.
You had slid to the ground during the struggle and now refused to get back up with how winded you are. Noting your exhaustion, Silas curls up next to you and nudges George to come over but the salamander is fast asleep.
"Leave him be, he's been working hard today." you turn around to face Silas.
He pouts for a brief moment before sighing.
"You can use me as a heating pad again, but no funny business." you roll your eyes and before you could adjust yourself Silas was already pulling you into his arms.
"You are far too kind my dear." He breathes against you and your heart begins to pound. Reaching up with the end of his tail Silas covers the light crystal, dimming the tent in the low glow of a sleepy salamander. You snuggle up against his chest and doze off to the sound of rain, thunder and his beating heart.
"Goodnight Silas," you mumble, half asleep. His claws curl into your hair as he brings his lips to your cheek, peppering kisses up to your forehead.
"Goodnight my dear."
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When morning came around neither of you were keen on getting up and trudging through the mud, especially Silas. It had rained all through the night and now it was hot and muggy. George tiptoed outside the best he could to find some dry sticks to eat but no luck, everything was drenched. You had proven you are your father's daughter by packing away a small bundle of sticks just in case it rained and you couldn't find any dry kindle. George happily snacks on a couple twigs you give him while you try and figure out what to do next.
"We can't really go anywhere till the ground dries up enough and leaving the tent will be difficult for you..." you mumble to yourself.
Silas huffs, blowing a strand of hair out of his face.
"It's not like the world is going to suddenly change and this forest will be on another continent. We have time my dear."
He's right but then again the both of you only have a year together....that's what your father said at least.
"Yeah, I know. I'm going to see about breakfast then." you leave it at that and try to put the far future out of your mind. You start to rummage through the food bag and find a bag filled with oats. This with some spices and the berries and nuts he picked last night will be perfect. You show him the ingredients and he looks delighted and then sad.
"Silas?"
He laughs then rubs the back of his neck nervously.
"I won't be much help with this will I?"
"Afraid not," it was the truth and you really couldn't sugar coat it.
He crosses his arms and sort of pouts while looking at his tail.
"You can scowl at it all you want but if you drag yourself out today you're going to get all muddy." you sigh.
"And there's a river nearby. I'll just sleep in the hammock tonight." he's practically begging to leave at this point.
"Ok fine...Just try to not get any mud on me." you surrender as you weren't quite up to arguing this early in the morning.
Silas bends down and smooches you on the cheek before rushing past you. A displeasing sound of mud sloshing about and annoyed groans fill your ears. You really want to poke your head out and tell him that you knew this would happen, but you didn't think that would help the situation. No, nothing would help until you've at least had breakfast. After all, thinking on an empty stomach has only ever irritated you.
Poking your head out, you see Silas sitting on one of the large stones with his tail sort of propped up and dangling from a low branch that was barely holding up. You shake your head and pull George out to help with the fire.
"Whatever happened to April showers bring May flowers? Why is it this rainy in the middle of October?" Silas complains.
It has been an unusually wet late autumn this year and you hope and pray that it doesn't affect the journey too much.
"Do you want berries and nuts in your oatmeal?" you divert the conversation to something more pleasant.
"Yes, more berries less nuts though. I really can't-"
Silas shoots right up and stands defensively. He's listening for something or someone. His eyes focus as he reaches down for one of his knives. You can't hear or sense any danger nearby but you weren't a Naga and you didn't have a sense for what you could not hear nor see.
Your heart starts to pound almost right out of your chest. You look around for something to fight with although you weren't sure what you'd be up against. You've tangled with some unsavory sea creatures like most people in Melmar did, so you could hold your own in a fight. You grab the pan you had used last night and stand at the ready.
Seconds pass into minutes and nothing happens. Silas is still on guard and so are you, though your arms are starting to tire. You switch up positions, moving your foot back ever so slightly when you hear the sound of foliage being torn to shreds.
You spin around to see a terribly mangled griffin, its wings torn and its legs cut and bleeding. Gruff voices and clanking metal weren't too far behind. You look in the poor beasts eyes, tired and mournful. Silas must have read your mind as he slithered over and hoisted it up into his arms.
"I'll take 'em to the river my dear. You clean up and make it look like it didn't come through. If they ask, say you heard something in the opposite direction. If that doesn't work and they try anything on you-"
He hands you a small whistle and a bag of powder.
"Call for me. I'll come as quickly as I can but use this first. It's a little something an old friend of mine taught me to use. Mixed correctly it'll act as a smoke screen and sleepy powder, just don't breathe it in if you can help it."
He looks nervous to part from you, especially with danger at your heels. You want to go with him, leave your belongings behind and run with him... but you couldn't. You had to trust him with this.
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Monster. Hideous. Ugly. Who could ever love a creature like that? It had been hard for Ita to accept himself as he was, his last partner had told him that they would love him no matter what, but when he had revealed himself to them in his true form those were the words that they had yelled as they quite literally ran out of the house. That was the day that the relationship had ended and Ita had found himself spending a lot of time alone. That is, until you had come along, he felt different when it came to you and that nothing would ever go wrong. But… He still kept himself hidden from you, only showing you what his human form looked like.
He was beautiful, or at least was considered beautiful by human standards. With platinum blonde hair that looked white, dark brown eyes and freckles that lined the bridge of his nose, many times he had others flirt with him. But all he wanted was you. He would tell them as much when they prodded him for his number, social media, whatever it would be. When you were with him? You got the pleasure of telling them off for being so invasive and you’ve never felt more alive than when they wouldn’t back off so you’d pull him into a sweet kiss that had him melting underneath your touch just to prove a point.
But you could see the way he scrutinized himself when he looked in a mirror and thought you weren’t around, you could feel how nervous he’d get when you’d come home as if he was doing something that he shouldn’t have been doing. You didn’t know who had been with him the last time he dated, but the anger you felt towards them at making him a mess like this was palpable. You would compliment him to no end, making sure that he knew that you loved him for who he was, no matter what it was or whatever kind of secrets he held.
The words reassured him greatly, and at times he often thought about revealing his true self to you but those thoughts would come back and he’d retreat back into the dark realms of his mind, going over every tiny detail that he could. Perhaps he could change the way his face looked? He wouldn’t know where to start, his tail coiled around itself, making a tiny snake lump. The pure white scales glittered underneath the lighting of your shared bedroom and he instinctively flexed the hood he had, fanning it out to stretch out the muscles. It looked very similar to a King Cobra’s hood, but it wasn’t, it was exactly like a false cobra.
What he didn’t hear was the front door opening, he was too absorbed in his own thoughts to hear you call out his name softly. What he did hear was the bedroom door opening and a gasp coming from you, he quickly recoiled, tightening himself up into a small ball, but you stared at him in awe as one word fell from your lips.
“Beautiful.” You breathed, walking forward to kiss him gently and run your hands along his scales, and in that moment he’s never felt more loved.
Would snake hybrids have a bondage and hypno kink?
I think bondage is closer to what real snakes actually do. Snakes coil around each other when mating, so careful restraining their partner is probably something that feels like second nature to hybrids. Though they definitely prefer to use their tail and show off all that strength