Having Feelings For Pein from Naruto-
Getting forced into the Akatsuki, with S-ranked criminals, against your will giving your life to a cause you still can’t comprehend was one unfortunate thing, but falling in love with the leader was a total nightmare!
-Now this is Pein we are talking about, the leader of a world-class criminal organization he spells ‘fear’ and ‘No- nonsense’ and it’s absolutely a mess.
-You can’t remember the last time you ever had such incomprehensive feelings for anyone.
-It’s a complete heck of a rollercoaster always falling down, there was not a single up in this trap you dug yourself.
-His charismatic way of pursuing his goals, which was completely wrong in your opinion but it was a hat’s of for how ambitious a person could be, and idealistic.
-You could only remember the two times you had spoken to him since you gained these foreign feelings and oh dear, you did not look up at him once, knowing you would stutter.
-There was no opening for such unprofessional talks and no way you could be with him.
-Unfortunately, ever since your keen interest you began trying to scratch his exterior with subtle hints or insight to his personality.
-Things, you wanted to understand he was so close but yet so far.
-it was frustrating, exhausting, and saddening.
Pein---
-The Akatsuki needed another S-ranked criminal and found you, the (Kage’s) first in command.
-As formidable and deadly as you could be there was one thing that hindered the way you were a Shinobi to be kind and forgiving never showing any animosity towards anyone.
-With a deep affinity to sense the feelings of someone without any words.
-He found you to be as human as possible, your humanity in such a painful world was admirable and disapproving to the leader.
-The only times he distinctively remembers you fighting with what he would call hate was when the Akatsuki members were in danger.
-recently he found you to be too ‘naive’
-” Did you ever lose someone precious to you?”
-The question caught you off guard and dumbfounded.
-” We don’t have the curse of hatred, and to fight against different villages for land, and resources, my family lived in the outskirts when one day I discovered my whole family to be massacred, I felt.... sad.”
“But... If I give up on myself and fall to sadness... I want to help people.”
-His eyes widened, all those words reminded him of so much, all at once,
- “You can’t possibly believe this world can ever understand your suffering”
- “This overwhelming sadness which follows me, and to everyone who has lost their loved ones, I got to know that day that even innocent people who have nothing to do... with war... gets their lives robbed.”
- It was since that day, Pein’s cold exterior seemed to have melt down, it was incredibly subtle.
- “Thank you for listening”
- Maybe something had changed pondering deep over you.