Note: This list doesn't take into account the Kunle / Dono / Renwin / Johnmark / Johnchan type of parental relationship. that will be another list.
10. Luwoo - The Clown Ship - I'm kicking off my list with a fond look @ the past. In 2018 clownzens were introduced to these two clowns with the NCT U Boss comeback and it was love at first sight for all of us. This duo entertained us together until Lucas was summoned to WayV and politics prevented NCT from acknowleding WayV's existence for a while until the ban was over. I miss this ship they were young and fun. (or shall i say... hot and young?) Now Lucas has grown normal and Jungwoo... is high on something. What, i don't know.
9. Yuwin - The Lion and his Prey - Another one from the past. I'm not convinced by Yumark at all. But Yuwin was another thing altogether. I think they kind of enjoyed each other's company. The operative word being I think. What Winwin thinks remains a mystery to the rest of the world as he hides beneath multiple layers.
8. Luwin - The Roomies - not really a ship but i like their dynamic. Like really really like their dynamic.
7. Sungtaro - The Newbie Ship - Another newbie ship like Luwoo. Except much much much more sane. Sungtaro is cool. They're only here because i need more of their real personalities to stand out. But i can tell they have a strong bond. I also enjoy watching Sungchan calling Shotaro "hyung". The reason why this ship is here and Luwoo is at 10 is because Sungtaro exists in the present more than Luwoo.
6. Jaehyun - The Solo Ship - Jaehyun is in a ship with himself, and is pretty much unshippable with anyone else.
5. Markhyuck / Renhyuck - Haechan's Victims - yeah, i couldn't choose btween Markhyuck and Renhyuck, so I've lumped them together at number 5. Basically this is Haechan and his victims.
4. Johnten - The Summer Fling - yeah, that's the vibe i get. Some people tag them the long distance ship, forgetting that Ten, in fact, lives in Korea probably a few blocks away from Johnny. These two have truck loads of chemistry so i hope they're spending time together!
3. Nomin - The Teen Parents - I had a lot of trouble ranking my top 3, because how do you measure which ship is more superior over the others? that said, Nomin comes in at #3 because these 2 literally grew up with each other, and have 4 kids to look after together. That said, i get the sense that Nomin can live with or without each other unlike.....
2. Dotae - The Old Married Couple - I have a soft spot for Dotae cos they remind me of me and my bf. (I'm deffo the Doyoung in the whole thing.) Yeah, they squabble but the truth this, TY can always count on DY to support him and vice versa. They're just so cute together.
1. Chenji - The Fetus Ship - This is without a doubt the superior ship. They first met as fetuses at a children's concert in China, only to be reunited at SM. What are the odds? (this is like how Lucas and Jackson discovered how they are both from like Shatin within minutes of each other) These two babies work so well because they're polar opposites - Chenle doesn't give a fuck, and Jisung has enough nervous energy to move a generator. Chenji's this and that will remain my fave show on NCT's YT channel.
Sicheng is a nerd who loves strawberries and has a little secret. Yuta's a bully that always smells like cigarette —
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Characters: Yuta x Winwin pairing! ft. Mark Lee x Lee Taeyong x Qian Kun
Genre: hardsmut/fluff/light angst/boylove/bxb
words: 6.2k/expect erros as well/TAGLISH
t.c/warning: mention of d3ath/slicks3x/h3althissue/bully!ng/more warnings to mention
summary: a health condition that stops someone to feel too much emotion. Will they able to tell how they feel?
A birthday project for one of my fav twt and tumblr author! Ate Ninaaaaa! @pinyawriter/@yutahoes Happiest birthday po! Stay humble and be healthy ate! Hope to see ü soonest! Sana magustuhan mo to. 🥳🥺❤️
"Yan na ang mayabang na si Nakamoto." bulungan ng mga kaklase ni Winwin. Winwin and Yuta had been classmates since middle school but they never even talk. Yuta always notices him but Win doesn't care at all — at least.
"Diba magkakilala kayo since shs? Win?" Tanong ni Hendery sa kanya —
"Yah. But not interested. Ayoko sa mayabang. Ung akala mo kung sino na, ke porke anak ng attorney." Sagot ni Winwin.
"Do you really hate me that much, Dong Sicheng?" Yuta overheard their conversation —
Kun and Hendery were both shocked that Yuta suddenly showed up in their conversation.
"Here's the thing. I don't hate you. But moreover, I don't like you." Winwin answered. Isang kasinungalingan.
"Lets go Kun, dery. Punta tayo library. Masyadong mahangin dito." Then all of them stood up and left Yuta hanging.
"woah dude. That was really rude of him." Mark said.
"Haa. titiklop pala ang isang playboy na Yuta Nakamoto sa isang nerd na si Dong Sicheng." Taeyong said.
"May araw ka din sakin Dong Sicheng." Yuta said —
"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU LOOKING AT?" Biglang sigaw ni Yuta — he is pissed.
"Dude, why don't you just like, give him a sample of your power here in school? I'm sure he is aware that you are the best bully here at school." Mark said.
"There will come a time — titiklop din saken yang Dong Sicheng na yan." Yuta said.
"Grabe nakakaya mo talagang sagutin si Yuta? woah! Ikaw na talaga Winwin!" Hendery said in awe —
"Tama lang naman un sa kanya. Mashadong mayabang." Winwin said while opening his books. Pero sa totoo lang sobrang kaba ang nararamdaman niya — he was also worried about his feelings. He must control and he must stop.
"Pero alam mo ba sobrang bully at playboy niya, kahit nga ex gf niya galit sa kanya." Kun added.
"Pero hinahabol pa din." Hendery added.
"Well what do we expect from a spoiled brat. Nag iisang anak ng sikat na attorney— and we should not be pouring too much attention to him. Madadagdagan ang laki ng ulo niya." Winwin said
Both of them just shrugged. What Winwin said was kinda right. Yuta was indeed a spoiled brat and a proud playboy and a bully. On the other hand, Yuta has a soft spot for Winwin that only he knows.
Later that day —
"Hi Winwin, wanna go home with me?" Biglang upo ni Yuta sa harap ng upuan ni Winwin.
"Get out of my face, Nakamoto." Winwin said coldly.
"Aww.. why is the cutie Winwin ignoring me? Di mo ba ako gusto?." Yuta said making a pouty face —
"Sige naaaaaa, hindi na kita aawayin. Pasasayahin kita, gusto mo?." He added.
Winwin finds it cute pero he must resist.
"I've been telling you to stop pestering me, Nakamoto. Wala kang mapapala sa'ken." Winwin stood up and went straight out of the room. He needs to attend a meeting with the org. for the coming party.
Yuta secretly followed Winwin — at nakita niya na papasok ito ng conference room.
Since di siya makapasok — He saw Nina. Ang babaeng baliw na baliw sa kanya. He even had sex with her at the cheering squad headquarters.
"Ow em geeee, Yutadaddy! Did you come for me? Hmm?." Nina immediately jumped to Yuta —
"Well, haha. Just passing by baby —." Then Nina tried to kiss him —
"I..i stop right there baby — i may not control my temper with you.." Yuta said just to stop Nina from kissing him.
"I thought you wanna kiss me.. hmp! I missed you pa naman." Nina pouted.
"Well, I just wanna ask, diba ikaw ang secretary ng school org. —.." He asked
"Yuh. Indeed i am, gusto mo ba sneak kita ng answers sa mga school test.?" Nina beamed.
"No.. i mean i just wanna know, if how is Winwin as the president? May meeting ba kayo now?." He answered.
"Well, from what I heard. We will having an org party maybe next week —." Nina said while flirtyly talking to Yuta — "would you like to be my escort?." She added.
"Well. Consider yourself lucky baby.. imma escort you to that party." Then he winked.
"OMG you made me sooo happy daddy! I'll go na. Imma update once the date is set. mwa!." She gave Yuta a kiss and went inside the office.
Yuta just smirked.
—
Winwin was trying to calm himself. Pagkatapos ng usapan nila ni Yuta kanina sa classroom nila ay hindi na siya mapalagay. He was trying to fight his emotions kase it was advised to him.
He reached for his medicines — took it and immediately calmed himself for a while.
He had a pulse rate detector that is somewhat connected to his ate's phone — then his sister suddenly called.
' Winwin! Are you okay???. ' you can really hear his ate's concern on the other line.
"Y..yes ate. Uminom na ako gamot. I'm better now." He answered.
' Let's talk later. Imma pick you up at school today. ' then she ended the call.
Winwin just sighed. The feelings that he has to control.
' Sana maging okay ako. The council needs me. Hindi pwede ngayon. ' he said to himself.
He immediately went back inside the office —
"So it's a wrap guys. Let's prepare for next week's event. And you can tag along someone pala." Kun standed for Winwin's position as of the moment.
"Okaaay! See you at the event guys!" Kun added.
At lumabas na silang lahat.
Kun asked Winwin if okay lang siya, he sighed
' OK '
"hatid na kita sa labas. I know your Ate is picking you up." Kun offered.
"Yes.. Kun.. thank you so much." Then they both went outside of the university.
Yuta was sitting at the shed — and he saw Winwin escorted by Kun.
' taena. Si Kun pala type mo. hmp. Mas gwapo pa ako sa kanya. ' maktol niya. He saw that Winwin was picked up by a white car, at isang babae ang bumaba sa sasakyan at agad na niyakap si Winwin.
' sino yun? '
——
"Oh god Winwin, You made me so worried. Okay ka lang ba? Did you take your medications na?." Naya asked.
"Yes po ate. Okay na po ako. Im trying to control my feelings po." Winwin said.
"Alright — just avoid him okay? As much as possible."
"Thank you Kun. Go home safely." Naya said to Kun. Then umalis na sila sa univ.
They already arrived at their unit. Agad na pumasok si Winwin sa kwarto niya.
He called Kun.
"Kun, is the party and preperations okay na?"
' dont worry Win okay na lahat. Wag ka na mag worry jan. Nakita kita kanina bago ka pumunta sa meeting. '
"What?"
' you were talking with Nakamoto. Alam mo naman diba? You need to avoid him. '
He stopped for a while. He hates Yuta on the outside, pero matagal na niya itong gusto. Of all the exes and girls that have been linked to him, he tried his best not to get affected — pero minsan he vents out to Kun. Kun knows it all.
"I know. Im sorry. Mashado lang siyang ma..makulit —"
' i know. I really care about your condition, Win. ' he added.
"I'm s..sorry Kun. Will try to —"
' do not try. Please do. Para sa ikakapanatag ng ate mo at ng lola mo, including me. ' Kun said.
"I will Kun. Thank you. Goodnight." Then he ended the call.
His Ate Naya was at the door —
"I heard everything bub.." she said habang papasok sa kwarto niya.
"Ate. Im trying okay? Ayoko mag worry ka. Pinipigilan ko ang sarili ko."
Her sister knows how he loves Yuta so much, simula shs ay gusto na niya ito. Being a cold Sicheng is very helpful to him, pero deep inside — nahihirapan siya na pigilan ang feelings niya para kay Yuta.
"Yeye loves you so much. She don't want na mangyari ulit ang nangyari kay Mama. As much as i wanted to let you but —."
"It's okay ate. I don't want people around me getting worried." Then Naya hugged his brother. His family can't afford to lose him anymore.
"Sleep well, bub. Will visit your doctor tomorrow." Then she went out of Winwin's room.
Winwin let out a sigh — and took his pills to calm himself.
——
"Kamusta? What did Doc Woo tell you?" Asked his sister. Ihahatid na niya si Winwin sa university nila.
"He added new meds to the list. Hays. Ate when will i stop taking these fucking meds?." He sounded irritated.
Naya felt helpless. Di na niya alam ang isasagot niya sa kapatid niya.
"I..I'm sorry bub. I don't know what to say." She said,
They already arrived the university —
"I'll pick you up again later bub."
"It's okay ate. I'll just hitch to Kun." Then he waved his goodbye —
Yuta suddenly appeared out of nowhere — teasing Winwin —
"Ouyyy.. sino yun? Sicheng? Gara ng kotse haaa — anyways lunch tayo mamaya.. my treat." Yuta beamed happily.
Winwin is trying to calm down. He doesn't want his pressure to go up — mapapasugod ang ate niya ng wala sa oras. Then he saw Kun coming their way —
' Kun save me. ' he mouthed.
"Hi. Nakamoto!" Agad na bati ni Kun. "Yow, Kun." Yuta coldly replied — then he faced Winwin -
"C'mon Win let's eat lunch mamaya —"
"Win, we need your presence mamaya for the decorations and approvals. Alam kong vacant ka this lunch." Kun inserted.
' tangina? ' Yuta cursed in his mind.
"Yes, sure. I'll just call you kung saan ako mamaya." Winwin replied — then Nina suddenly appeared in front of them
"Hi Yutadadd— oh I mean Hi Mr. Nakamoto! Tara, let's eat lunch! My treaaaat!" She beamed, not minding Winwin and Kun.
Yuta looked at Winwin — sending him the vibe of a ' save me ' look.
"Hi pres! I prepared the papers with Kun kanina, you can drop by nalang mamaya. Tara lets gooooo!" Then Nina dragged Yuta out of the scene.
Winwin breathed loudly.
"Are you okay? Let me check your heart rate." Then Kun looked at the rate meter that was on his watch.
"Lets go na sa org room. You can stay there. And check the papers nalang din." Kun said.
As much as gusto niyang makasamang maglunch si Yuta pero hindi pwede — he doesn't know how control his heart rate pag magkasama sila.
"O..okay mamaya pa naman class ko." Then they both went to the org room.
——
"Let's go home, Win. Do you perhaps wanna eat something while driving you home?" Kun asked while helping Winwin arrange the papers.
"Yes please. I wanna have burgers. Baka ipagbawal na naman ni Doc Woo ung burgers." Winwin added-pouting.
"HAHA. Well Doc Woo knows you a lot. Tara lets go." Then he dragged Winwin out of the university.
They drove through Winwin's fave fast food. At kanina pa napapansin si Kun na may sumusunod sa kanila —
"Win, do you recognize that car?" Kun asked.
"That's Yuta's car." Winwin said — he tried holding his chest — trying to calm down.
"I'll lure him away. Hang tight." Then Kun drove away.
—
"Taena? Bat biglang bumilis ang takbo niya? Nakita niya ba ako?" Yuta said while trying to catch up sa sasakyan nila ni Kun. Habang nag da drive siya biglang tumawag si Nina.
"Fuck. Calling at the worst time — hello baby." He answered through his earphones.
He kept his focus on the road pero di na niya makita ang kotse ni Kun. He slammed the drive wheel.
"Fuck! I mean — I'm sorry Nina.. I'll call you later. Bye." Then he hung up.
—
"Thank you Kun." Winwin said.
"Sleep well. Bukas na ang party. Take a good rest, okay? I'll go now." Then Kun drove away.
He went inside — and saw an unexpected person. His Yeye —
"Oh my Winwin!" His Yeye hugged him —
"I can't stop her Win. She wants to see you." Naya said.
"How are you my sweetie? Kamusta ka?" She said while caressing Winwin's cheeks —
"Im okay Yeye. Bakit ho kayo nandito? You travelled far just to see me." Winwin said.
"I just wanna see my Winwin and my precious Naya." She answered.
"Have you eaten? sweetie? Are you eating healthy? Is Naya giving you meds and proper foods?" His Yeye asked.
"Yeye, okay lang kame ni Ate. Im eating healthy. I am healthy ano ka ba." He answered.
"Halina kayo, lets sit. Kumain kayo. I prepared your favourite soup, Win." Naya said —
They were chatting happily and also talked about their family.
"Lets sleep now Yeye. I have a major event tomorrow." Winwin said while helping his Yeye put the comforter.
"Sweetie.. your ate Naya told me about Yuta Nakamoto." She suddenly said..
Winwin was shocked. His Yeye doesn't know that he is gay. Only his Ate, Mama and Kun knows it — not his Yeye.
"Yeye i..i can —." His yeye shushed him.
"I know what you are sweetie. Don't try to hide it. And I accept you wholeheartedly."
Winwin was teary eyed. Hindi niya inaasahan na tatanggapin siya ng kanyang lola. He was beyond happy.
"Dont let out too much emotion, calm down." His yeye reminded him.
"I am yeye. Im.. im sorry and thank you.. i mean — hindi ko inaasahan na.. na matatanggap mo ako." Then Winwin hugged his Yeye.
"Wo ai ni sicheng — you are my precious. I don't wanna lose you." His yeye said that made his heart very warm and very happy.
"Sleep now, my sweetie. Yeye is always here." Then Winwin kissed his Yeye's forehead and went out of the room.
Naya was waiting for Winwin to go out of their yeye's room.
"I'm sorry bub." Naya immediately said.
"No need to say sorry ate. Atleast we know yeye still accepts me." Winwin immediately hugged his sister.
"How about Yuta, did you tell her about it?" Naya asked.
"I guess you already told her about him."
"I mean — she wants you to be happy bub. And so I am. Pero we want you to —"
"Ate. I'm tired. I have an event tomorrow. I will sleep now." Then he kissed her sister's cheeks.
—— ORG. PARTY --
Isang maingay na paligid ang sumalubong kina Yuta at Nina. Agad na hinanap ng mga mata ni Yuta si Winwin.
' asan kaya si Winwin? '
"Baby, c'mon! Let's go to our table." Then Nina dragged Yuta in her circle.
Winwin saw Yuta coming kasama si Nina.
"Kun! shit! Andito si Yuta!." Winwin is now panicking —
"Win kalma. Here, go somewhere na mejo malayo kina Nina. And for the speech later, sasabihan ko nalang si Prof. Jung na ako na magbabasa ng speech mo."
"Pero, I want to enjoy this party! I want to enjoy it as much as possible, Kun." Winwin whines.
"I know, but please.. save your health Win. I'll get back to you." At umalis na si Kun para puntahan si Prof. Jaehyun.
Winwin went to the bar — and he ordered a glass of margarita.
' di naman ako mamamatay sa konting alak. ' he said and ordered some drinks — di na niya namalayan ang oras. There are 5 shot glasses in front of him — from margarita to tequila then whiskey.
He checked his surroundings — the sound of his surroundings became dull — lasing na siya. And when is he drunk, he has this habit na whiny at di nakakakilala ng tao —
"Sir, okay lang po kayo?" The bartender asked.
"Y..yea..yea.. im goooooood — gimme ano..another shot pl..please—." Winwin said. Sobrang pula na ng cheeks niya at nararamdaman niya ang init.
"A..asan ba si Kun? T..tangina iniwan a..ako??." He said while trying to look in his surroundings.
Suddenly a man approached Winwin at the bar —
"Hi Dong Sicheng." said the man
"Hi!!! Sino ka?" He tried looking pero hindi niya talaga makilala.
"Back off." At may lalaking biglang humarang sa gitna nilang dalawa —
"Tangina.. ang bastos mo.. si..sino ka ba?" Galit na tulak ni Winwin sa lalaking nasa harapan niya — it was Nakamoto.
He grabbed Winwin's hands and dragged him out of the convention hall.
Pagewang-gewang ang lakad ni Winwin — indicating na mashado na siyang tinamaan sa ininom niya.
He suddenly stopped.
"你是谁??" Biglang napachinese si Winwin. Lasing na lasing na talaga siya — (trans. who are you?)
"Fuck. HAHAHAHAAHAH nagcha chinese ka without knowing na alam ko yan. HAHAHAHHAHA." Yuta laughed. Habang akbay si Winwin —
"Let's go home, Win. Masyado ka ng lasing." He said while trying to arrange the seatbelt— his face almost close to Winwin's face.. specially the lips.
' tangina. Sarap naman halikan ng mga labi ni Sicheng. Putangina talaga. ' he said to himself. Mejo natagalan siya dahil bumara ang seatbelt nito.
Winwin was murmuring something in chinese — then he suddenly mentioned Yeye —
' He is referring to his lola? ' "Win? Sicheng? San ka ba nakatira?" Yuta asked — when Winwin suddenly kissed him..
He was holding Yuta's neck — pressing it more into his lips.. Yuta didn't hold back.
He was licking Winwin's lips so that he will open and suck his tongue — marahan niya itong kinagat at napa ungol si Winwin — caused Yuta to freely suck Winwin's tongue.
Yuta's kisses went lower — he started licking Winwin's neck — sucking and drawing every part of it — Yuta felt that there is something bulging in his stomach part —
Winwin's growing a boner now — "fuck Nakamoto." Winwin suddenly said
"wait. Kilala mo ko?" Yuta suddenly stopped and looked at Winwin —
"Just kiss me — I..i dont know who you are but i..i can feel that you wanna fuck me." Winwin declared — closed eyes.
' shet. Si Winwin ba to? ' Yuta said —
"L..lets just go to my unit — baka may makakita sayo dito."
At pinaandar na ni Yuta ang kotse —
While he was driving— Winwin's hands started to roam around Yuta's thighs —
"Can i suck your cock?" Winwin said na ikinagulat ni Yuta — he almost stepped on the brakes.. naalala niyang lasing si Winwin he probably doesn't even know kung sino siya.
"I badly wanna suck Nakamoto's dick."
Yuta gulped. Di niya inaasahan na ganito kalala si Winwin kapag lasing.
Winwin started massaging his cock habang nagda drive siya — tangina muntik na niyang matapakan ang accelerator ng kotse..
"Win.. shit. stop w..wait —." Yuta was stammering while talking — tinitigasan na rin siya. Pero nararamdaman niyang nawala ang kamay ni Winwin — he fell asleep.
He decided to find the nearest hotel.
Nung makacheck in na sila, Yuta slowly put Winwin on the bed —
"Dong Sicheng —." He said while looking at him —
"What have you done?" Yuta started caressing Winwin's face —
"Bakit ba ayaw mo akong pansinin? Bakit ka galit na galit sakin? Wag mo nang mahalin si Kun please — ako nalang, let me love you, please."
Then Yuta kissed Winwin, passionately. He poured all his emotions in a kiss. This is the moment that he's been waiting for. Where he can show Winwin how much he means to him.
Winwin kissed back— he is now awake. He heard everything Yuta said — but as much as he wanted to return the feelings, he had to resist and act like he didn't love Yuta.
They started to pull their clothes off while they were kissing. Winwin removed his watch where his pressure is monitored by his Ate Naya.
Most of their clothes quickly flew off and Winwin dropped to his knees to help Yuta with his pants and get his hands on that big cock that he had been fantasizing about for a long time. Then had his lips around Yuta's big cock and it was exactly where he wanted to be.
"Ohhhhhh god Winwin — i… haaaaaaaaa ~."
Yuta ran his hands through Winwin's hair and Winwin reveled in the taste and feel of Yuta's cock. It was spongy but hard and Winwin couldn't wait for Yuta's load to wash down his throat. He bobbed his head back and forth and looked up at Yuta who immediately smiled at him.
"Is this what you want Win? Well, I'm willing to give my dick just to make you happy." he said.
Winwin moaned in response around Yuta's cock and grabbed Yuta's ass with his hands and pulled him closer until Winwin was almost gagging.
"fuck that mouth Sicheng — haaaaaaaaa shit.." Yuta can't help but moan.
"Fuck my mouth Nakamoto. I know you want to fuck my mouth —." Winwin said as he removed his mouth long enough to take a breath.
"I want to eat your cum.." Winwin added.. wala siyang pakialam. He wants Yuta so bad, and this might be his only chance to do this.
Yuta told him to stand up and helped him remove the rest of Winwin's clothes before they started to kiss again and lie on the bed.
They are becoming wild — libog ang nangingibabaw sa dalawang binatang may lihim na nararamdaman sa isat-isa.
They grabbed each other's asses and grinded their cocks together. Winwin started back down to Yuta's cock with his mouth, kissing all the parts in between and pinching his nipples.
"haaaaaaaa~ shit. ahhhhhhh~."
Yuta lay on his back, Winwin crawled down between Yuta's legs and simply moaned louder around his cock and started to play with his ass. Yuta was able to reach down and start playing with Winwin's ass while he sucked Yuta's cock.
"shit — haaaaaa.." Yuta's moan is almost out of breath..
Winwin started to suck even more furiously, trying to take Yuta's beautiful cock as deep as he could, trying to show how bad Winwin wanted Yuta to take his ass, trying to show Yuta how turned on he was at the thought of Yuta pounding his ass.
Winwin must control his emotions. He might not reach the climax if he puts too much emotion.
"Please cum in my mouth, Nakamoto.."
Winwin started to finger Yuta until Winwin could feel his cock grow bigger in his mouth. Winwin kept his finger in Yuta's ass as he finally let loose with a gasp and started to shoot his cum down Winwin's throat.
"Uhhhhhngggg— shit. haaaaa~.."
Winwin kept his lips around Yuta's cock and pumped it with his other hand trying to get every ounce of his cum. It tasted better than Winwin could imagine— and he couldn't seem to get enough.
Winwin was so close to cumming while he sucked him, but even with Yuta working his ass, Winwin didn't cum. His dick just kept getting harder and harder, flopping around as Winwin licked, sucked and swallowed his load.
With a "plop" sound, Win released Yuta's cock from his mouth. Yuta pulled him up and they started to kiss again deeply, Yuta's tongue trying to find any remnant of his seed in Winwin's mouth, but he had swallowed it all.
"fuck shit — " Yuta said breaking their kiss..
"I can't believe that you are this good Sicheng." Yuta said — even him can't believe it. Winwin goes around like a pro sucker.
They started to kiss again. Having not cum yet, Winwin's cock was leaking like a faucet.
Yuta rubbed the head of Winwin's cock, but he warned Yuta, he would make him cum if he kept it up.
Winwin ground his hips into Yuta and pulled his ass cheeks apart and found his manhole.
"fuck me Nakamoto.." Winwin said quietly as he did to him what Winwin hoped Yuta would do to him, fingering his hole.
"Are you sure about this Win? I mean I don't wanna hurt you baby —." Yuta said, kinda worried.
"You already hurt me. Just fuck me Nakamoto..," Winwin replied.
"I fucking need your cock in my ass. Please —" Winwin pleaded as Yuta started to roll Winwin over onto his back.
"I love you Sicheng.." Yuta said.
A sudden rush of feelings — Winwin tried to calm himself — pretending he didn't hear it.
Yuta made his saliva as a lube to which he was now applying to Winwin's hole, and Winwin's cock was dripping more and more precum.
"Make me cum Nakamoto — I want your cock so bad..!"
Win was almost foaming at the mouth. He wanted it so bad. Surprisingly, Yuta has a condom. He pulled a condom out of his wallet and rolled it over his cock. Yuta had stepped off the bed and pulled Winwin's hips towards the edge of the bed while he was on his back.
"I'm sorry Win and I love you —"
Winwin felt Yuta remove his fingers and in their place was something that he had imagined many times.
' i love you so much Yuta that it hurts — '
Winwin's legs were up on Yuta's shoulders as he started to work his cock into him.
"haaaaaaaaa— fuck hhhnnnhggg shit."
Winwin moaned as he pulled his legs down and tried to pull Yuta closer to him by wrapping his legs around him. Yuta put one hand on him and gently held Winwin's chest down. As he moved, Winwin felt Yuta's cock start to push in more and it stunned him for a second.
' Is this what heaven feels like? Heaven in Yuta Nakamoto's dick — shit. '
"just relax Win — haaaaaa.." Yuta said —
Winwin did as Yuta asked — and after a bit of burning and pain, Winwin felt a pop through his outer ring and slowly ever so slowly he felt fuller and fuller and it started to be pleasurable. Yuta would pull out a bit, apply more lube and push slowly back in.
"shit.. haaaaaa — .."
Winwin's cock had gone soft, but it was still leaking and finally he felt Yuta's balls against my ass. Winwin looked up at him with his mouth open and almost drooling - it felt so fucking unreal. He had been imagining being fucked by Yuta, the person he loves.
"haaaaaa — uhngg..uhngggg. Sicheng — haaaaa~." Yuta keeps on moaning.
Yuta had his hands on Winwin's hips and started to rock his hips very slowly against Winwin. Every part of him felt on fire in a good way. Winwin was finally getting fucked by a man he love for the longest time His cock started to get hard again just the thoughts of it.
"haaaaa— are you okay? baby?." he asked.
Winwin looked up at him into his glazed eyes and smiled and moaned.
"fuck me...fuck me so hard...oh shit Yuta — haaaaaaa ~." Winwin answered.
Yuta started to move his hips back and forth and Winwin responded by pushing back. Winwin was finally able to wrap his legs around him and Yuta bent down to give a deep kiss. He started to bite and suck on Winwin's neck, as Yuta pulled at his ass with his hands, trying to draw Yuta deeper into him. He started to hit a spot that was sending shockwaves over his whole body.
Yuta was nailing Winwin's prostrate and railing it good. Winwin's cock became harder than it ever had before.
"Oh godd.. shit — haaaaaaa..aaaaaaa~." Winwin was trying to calm himself..
"shit, baby— your ass is real good — haaaaaaa.. fuck haaaaaa~.."
The more Yuta talked the more Winwin wanted him to fuck hard, however he had other ideas.
Yuta pulled his cock out of Winwin's ass and suddenly he felt like his ass was a gaping hole — but not for long. Yuta pulled Winwin off the bed and lay down on his back.
Winwin climbed on top of Yuta and straddled his lap, lifting Winwin's ass up while reaching down to grab his slicked up cock. Leaning forward, Winwin kissed him again as he guided Yuta's cock back into his ass with almost no discomfort or pain at all.
They both gasped in pleasure, Winwin put his hands on Yuta's chest as he started to rock back and forth, while Yuta held Winwin's hips trying to drive his cock deeper into him.
"shit haaaaaaaaaa— fuck that's so good — fuck.." Yuta was now cursing and loved the feeling of Sicheng riding his cock.
Winwin could see and feel his cock flopping around as he rode Yuta.
Yuta tried to grab Winwin's cock but he told him that wanted to cum just by his cock in his ass. Winwin could now feel Yuta's cock getting bigger and he knew they were both very close to cumming. Winwin could feel every ridge and vein in Yuta's cock. It may have been covered by a rubber, but the whole experience and riding his cock while being high was putting him into another world - a world he wishes to visit again — if he can.
Winwin could feel himself starting to go over the edge..
"Ohhhhh fuck— Nakamoto shit — haaaaaa~ ahhhhh.."
Winwin started to blast his cum all over Yuta's stomach and he could also feel Yuta's cock swell as he came in Winwin's ass.
"Oh fuck — baby.. haaaaaaa~.." Yuta pulled Winwin's ass as hard down onto his cock as he could.
Winwin could still feel Yuta's cock throbbing in his ass.
' I love you so much Nakamoto — I really do.. '
It took him a few moments before Winwin could even open his eyes and when he did, Winwin realized that his head was buried in Yuta's neck. They turned towards each other and kissed.
After several moments, Yuta removed his cock from Winwin's ass and they just lay there, Winwin couldn't have hoped for a more satisfying time.
"Please don't leave me baby.. stay beside me.." Yuta murmured while he was hugging Winwin and fell asleep..
He looked at Yuta — full of love. But he knows na hindi siya pwedeng magtagal sa tabi nito.. Winwin's pressure started to go up..
"I love you Yuta Nakamoto, but please just forget about me.. masasaktan ka lang. At ayokong makita kang nasasaktan — for god knows how much I love you since the first time I saw you.." Winwin said while he was playing with Yuta's soft hair.
"I love you but I'm letting go.. I'm sorry. I love you, goodbye —.." then Winwin kissed Yuta's forehead.
——
It had already been 2 weeks since the org party, and Yuta never heard or seen Winwin around the school. Madalang nalang din niyang nakikita si Kun sa school.
He even asked his professor kung pumapasok pa ba si Winwin, but his prof never said anything. He also tried calling Winwin's number pero out of coverage. Even Winwin's platform was also active 2weeks ago.
One time, tinanong niya si Nina. And Nina didn't tell him anything. Parang may itinatago sila kay Yuta.
"Bakit wala si Winwin? Mag da dalawang linggo ko na siyang di nakikita —." Yuta was with Mark and Taeyong at the cafeteria, ngayon lang sila ulit nagkasama dahil naging busy si Mark sa mga task nila.
Then suddenly they heard Kun screaming, calling Yuta's last name —
"NASAN SI NAKAMOTO??" napatayo si Yuta — agad na lumapit si Kun kung nasan si Yuta.
"Ano bang problem—." Isang malakas na suntok ang sumalubong kay Yuta — his side mouth was bleeding dahil sa lakas ng pagsuntok ni Kun.
"PUTANGINA KA NAKAMOTO! NAPAKA SELFISH MO! SANA IKAW NALANG YUNG NAMATAY! TANGINA MO KA!." Galit na bulyaw ni Kun — akmang susuntukin ulit niya si Yuta nang pinigilan na siya nila Mark at Taeyong.
"A..anong pinagsasabi mo? Putangina mo — gago ka —."
"WALA NA SI WINWIN!." bulyaw ni Kun — naiiyak.
Biglang natahimik ang cafeteria — lahat ng tao ay nagulat.
"Pinagsasabi mong wala na si Sicheng? Wag..wag mo akong ginagago —."
"KUN QIAN STOP IT!!!." Biglang sigaw ng isang babae — it was Winwin's sister.
Agad na lumapit ito kay Yuta at Kun —
"Kun, i'll talk to him. Please take a good rest. You helped us a lot already, we owe you so much. But this time, I want to personally talk to Yuta." Naya said and turned to Yuta.
"Can I talk to you for a while?." Naya said. Yuta was puzzled and didn't know how to react.
——
Naya brought Yuta to the nearest cafeteria in the university.
Kinakabahan siya, he saw Sicheng's sister before.. now that he's up close, sobrang magkamuka sila ni Winwin.
"Don't be nervous. I won't hurt you." Then she chuckled.
' Tangina, Winwin girl version. ' Yuta said in his mind
"Ang selfish ng mundo, right?" Naya said while stirring her coffee.
"Kung sino pa yung taong sobrang bait, sila pa yung unang nawawala — yung taong sobrang iningatan namin.." Naya was trying not to cry.. but she still continued
"I just wanna say thank you for making Winwin so happy during his last days — I can't blame you and I can't even get mad at you kase alam ko ang laki ng epekto mo kay Winwin.. alam mo during his days sa hospital, ikaw ang bukambibig niya — araw araw ikaw ang hinahanap niya — Yeye was also there pero he never stopped mentioning your name. Sa kanyang bawat pag gising sa umaga, he always looks at the door, hoping na you will come and visit him. Kun tried cheering him up, pero agad na nawawala ang mga ngiti niya."
Yuta's tears started to build up — tangina.
"Alam mo, when he came home that night, kahit nahihirapan na siya, nagawa niya pang sabihin sakin kung gaano ka niya ka mahal, kung gaano siya ka saya nung gabing may nangyari sa inyong dalawa. Hindi raw siya nagsisisi na may nangyari sa inyo. I hate to say it but, for the time na magkasama kayo, nagmuka kang selfish. Hinayaan mong tanggalin ni Winwin ang kanyang orasan — that watch was intended to control his heart rate and pulse rate. Kaya nagtataka at wala akong natatanggap na report mula sa watch niya — that was also my bad kase i just shrugged it off. Haha~ ang tanga ko rin. I'm sorry Yuta, if we sounded rude and selfish na itago ang condition ni Winwin.."
' tangina. tangina. tangina. '
"Kung sana sinabi niyo ang condition niya, edi sana mas marami pa akong nagawa para sa kanya.. fuck you and Kun for being damn selfish. Haa- for those times that I was bullying him sana sinabi ko nalang kung gaano ko siya ka mahal— k..kung gaano ko siya gustong alagaan at makasama araw-araw.. fuck!."
Nasuntok ni Yuta ang kanilang table.. He feels terrible and responsible for what happened to Winwin..
"Walang araw na di ko siya naiisip. Nag iisip ng paraan na mapansin niya ako, pero kayo pala ang dahilan kaya lumalayo siya sakin at iniiwasan niya ako — tangina niyo." Tears now falling on Yuta's cheeks—
"Ni hindi niyo lang man ipinaalam sakin kahit nung nasa ospital na siya! Anong klaseng kapatid ka na alam mong mismong kaligayahan niya pinipigilan mo? Napaka selfish mo!."
Naya was helpless. Alam niya mismo sa sarili niya na napaka selfish ng ginawa nila —
"We only thought of his health Yuta, alam mo ba kung bakit namin siya pinapaiwas sayo? He cannot do his emotions too much, may sakit siya sa puso Yuta! And my mom died because of a heart failure — and now si Winwin.."
Naya bursted in tears..
"Putangina." Yuta said and tried to stand up — pero pinigilan siya ni Naya and said —
"Here. This is a letter for you, Winwin wrote that — I'm sorry Yuta. We hope you'll find your happiness too. And please, let go of Winwin's memories. It'll only gonna hurt you." Then Naya left.
——
He barely cannot believe after everything Winwin’s sister told him. After his talks with Winwin's sister ay binisita niya ang libingan ni Winwin.
With a heavy heart — sobrang nasasaktan siyang makita ang pangalan ng taong pinakamamahal niya —
He sat there.
"Ang daya mo. Bat moko iniwan? Di mo na ba ako kayang sagutin? Di mo na ba ako kayang barahin? Tangina naman Sicheng!." He said.
"Binasa ko ang sulat mo, pero sana, sa mismong bibig mo manggaling ang salitang Mahal kita, Yuta Nakamoto — tangina sarap siguro pakinggan nun. Pero alam mo, sobrang saya ko nung gabing yun.. nasabi at napadama ko sayo kung gaano kita ka mahal — na..nahirapan ka bang iwasan ako? Kase ako, ginagawa ko ang lahat para mapansin mo — pero putangina. Di man lang tayo nag usap ng maayos — haha~."
He wiped his tears. But he needs to let it all out — he needs to let go of all his feelings and memories that Winwin left with him.. he took a deep breath —
"Sicheng Dong.. I love you but I'm letting you go now.. we will see each other in our next life.."
