Angry ramble under cut, just needed to write it somewhere.
Might be the bitterness speaking but, having a friendship where the idea of putting boundaries down, and of discussing things that are "annoying" and could be improved on (specially when they are referred to and you are told to meet up to talk about it and then they are swept under the rug and not talked about at all and you are bloody proved right when you said that would happen) is so anxiety inducing... It feels less like a friendship and more like something that can't grow cause it actually refuses to do so.
It feels like wasted energy, even more so when you know that these things could and should be talked on, because you're a fucking adult and have known each other for over 15 years.
Like yeah, spending time together is fun, but that's it. There's something that bothers you? Fuck you no it isn't what are you talking about. In this friendship there are no issues there's no war in Ba Sing Se, there's nothing to change, it's perfect as is, screw you for making this awkward now hope you forget about it fast so we can go back to the perfection from before. Boundaries? Yeah, you mentioned something about not liking someone doing this specific thing, but cause you didn't mention it explicitly and with a presentation like I were a 3 year old, I've elected to do what I want and do exactly that either way. What do you mean you are angry now? The rug is right there, shove that under it and don't talk about it anymore.
What kind of friendship is this, if the only thing you do is talk about things you have in common, discuss nothing because oh no differing opinions, respect nothing and nobody talks about things others particularly enjoy cause the other parts don't give a shit.
I'm so tired of this shit.