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I look at this one uh from time to time -
late night chemistry cram session ft. ginger ale, coffee and strawberries 🍓 (finals ver.)
lowk so peaceful.
tw: su*c*de, exam/academic pressure.
i just read that yet another student commits suicide In Kota after two years of trying hard for NEET and just a few days back there were news about 4/5 suicides within 90 days in a reputed National institute… these kinda things they just sit heavy in your chest in a way you can’t really explain.
another student gone because the pressure became too much and the worst part is how normal this is starting to feel. we read it, we feel bad for a minute, we shake our heads, and then we move on like this is just how things are. but how did we even get here. how did one path become so big that it starts deciding who deserves to feel proud and who should feel like they have failed at life.
these are kids, not machines, not ranks, not numbers on a list. real people who stayed up late, who tried again and again, who carried expectations that were never meant to be this heavy. and somewhere in all of that pressure, they stopped feeling like they had a way out.
that is what breaks me the most. not just the loss but the silence before it, the way someone can be struggling so much and still feel like they cannot say it out loud because everyone around them is only asking about marks, attempts, results. no one is asking are you okay, are you tired, do you need a break. and even if they do, it does not feel like a real option because stopping feels like failure, slowing down feels like losing, choosing a different path feels like disappointing everyone.
so they keep going until they cant. this is not just stress, this is a system that makes people feel like their entire worth fits into one result, and when that result does not go their way it feels like everything is over. it should never feel like that, not for anyone. no exam, no path, no expectation should have this kind of power over a life and no student should feel like disappearing is easier than facing one more day of pressure.
if you are someone going through this right now please hear this, you are not your score, you are not your rank, you are not a failure for needing rest or for choosing something else. your life is bigger than this even if it does not feel like it today.
and if you are someone around these students be softer, be kinder, stop measuring people only by what they achieve, because sometimes what someone really needs is just to feel like they are still enough even without a result.
Dear Coaching Institutes
Why do you only visit toppers after the results?Why only enter homes where there's celebration, sweets, and smiling parents?
Why not visit the house of that kid who failed? The one who's hiding in his room, feeling like a burden… The one whose parents haven’t spoken a word since the result came out?
You proudly post photos with toppers, praise their effort, meet their families. But what about the one who gave his best too… and still couldn’t make it?
Why don’t you go wipe his tears? Sit with his parents and say, “Please don’t be angry. Your child tried.”
Not every victory is loud. Sometimes, the greatest strength is shown by those who still breathe under the weight of failure.
Celebrate success all you want. But don’t forget the ones who lost everything to this exam, even their self-worth.
Incase people start to forget
FUCK YOU NTA
Wdym I could only complete periodic table and P block since morning when I was supposed to complete whole inorganic today 💔
That too I am not sure if I remember this shit or already gone from my mind 🥀
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My NEET Rant
This NEET thing is giving me PTSD, and I’m in my final year. I’ve seen the stress families go through during the 2 years of preparation up until the day of the very exam. I’ve seen my father take the stress twice once for me and until last year for my brother (he is in First year now🧿).
The constant need to perform good, score more than 650, bcuz we’re from general category and don’t have any reservation to fall back on, and get a seat even if they get 250 (lol how fucked up is that 🤯🔫).
I can’t imagine the plight of the family where the kid really scored well and the family is confident he will get the seat and is finally relaxed, and they wake up this morning to see it get cancelled, I can almost see how stressed and heartbroken my father would get and it hurts to think that’s how so many families would be feeling today. 💔, not to mention how quick that Post Exam Amnesia kicks in the very day after 5 pm.
I really pray for the students out there who worked night and day to get a decent rank and have no backup to fall on and though this would be their ticket out. I really hope u do well again when we that’s organised and no leaks anymore and cheated ranks to climb above u.
As for the govt, like I love that they are very nationalistic and respect them for that and did a lot for its benefit but is wrong to just forsake ur student, I really hope this is sorted out soon and stop making these fuck ups I guess? U can deploy so much central force in Bengal to ensure fair election, it’ll take a minuscule percentage to keep the question paper from being stolen.
And not to be such a gloomy gus, ik there are some students jumping up and down on the bed bcuz they have been given another chance and instead of taking a drop year they get another chance this year after their exam didn’t go as good as they expected,
My tough-love pragmatic advice to all the NEET aspirants is there is no point in trying to fight against the system, u can bitch and moan and cry about this but remember u r in the clock again here, ik its sad and unfair but u have to pick up ur books and timers again and get back in the study table. My father always tells me this whole NEET-MBBS journey is not a test of knowledge but of resilience, so try and make the most of it. I really hope u all do well.
All in all my thoughts and prayers to students out there, anyone who would like to talk about it and just get it off ur chest.