#negative queue

[neglectednobody]

me, having trust issues

me: *has friends*

them: say they like/love me often, run to give me hugs, literally the best friends ever

me: crap what if this is all a facade and they're just doing it out of sympathy

them: constantly denies the theory above

me: BUT WHAT IF THEYRE LYING ABOUT THAT TOO

[neglectednobody]

i never let them see the worst of me!

Words Fail;Dear Evan Hansen

[neglectednobody]

i should've never said the word love, i threw a toaster in the bathtub, i'm sick of all the games i have to play!

Soap by Melanie Martinez

[neglectednobody]

i constantly feel like i'm really annoying even tho people say i'm usually not like ??? are you lying ???

[neglectednobody]

right now, i hate eating. it makes me wanna throw up. & not cause i hate food, cause i love it. just cause since i'm overweight it makes me feel even more fat. i wouldn't have ate if it wasn't for the fact i have meds to take

[neglectednobody]

i just wanna be liked by people for once. i try my best to be a good person and i just shit on my everyone i used to know.

[neglectednobody]

im slightly depressed but what's new, i had an outburst today and it keeps making me believe i have some kinda mental illness. like i'm not just trying to be "special" in genuinely concerned. it's probably bpd or smthn. my parents won't believe me tho cause i'm too young, so guess i'll have to deal w this till i'm old enough to move out

[neglectednobody]

you used to make me so happy, now you make me cry late at night when no ones there for me