#negative tw.

[voxnews-a]

I just wanted to make a statement here in light of some things I've noticed (yes, despite being away) that I hope for the people that are incredibly possessive and just block people out of no where who have done nothing wrong but write with people and form bonds with the same writing partners that I hope y'all don't crash out from the high. I've become more open with people again but it seems like I'm getting convinced to just write and interact with people who don't have this clingy behaviour. It's just incredibly rude and not fair to other writers who are here to write and then just get blocked because they happen to write with your bestie or whatever. Like damn.

[lunaferrous]

/Seasonal depression really sucks atm.

It sucks worse when you're in a small town with very few mental health resources, and those resources you have to book weeks to months in advance when you think you're having an episode.

It also sucks when your small town is a summer town and people are out enjoying the day; but you're not. Because mother nature just doesn't want you to be happy during this time of year. Because it makes you feel lonelier than ever, and your creative outlets just aren't satisfying you anymore. Because it makes you feel like you're losing a part of yourself that once gave you confidence and made you happy.

Part of me knows this is all just the depression talking, and the obsessive component of my OCD making it worse. Part of me knows that it will pass, because it has before... eventually. I just don't know how long this time will last. And it just sucks being in the middle of it, with nowhere else to turn.

[videcoeur]

:(

vent under the cut

One of my one piece server disappeared and I noticed 3 people blocked me too on tumblr over the holidays. I'm barely here so I have no idea what happened/if I did anything.

Like, I'm not gonna try to contact anyone about it I'm just super confused as to what happened? I haven't been active in that server over a year, but I still liked to check it once in a while. As for the people who blocked me, I never interacted with much more than a couple asks and such, but I'm still a bit saddened.

Anyway I don't want to step on any toes so that's the only post I'll make about it! And I want to apologize too if I did anything that made anyone uncomfortable. I'd love to know what so I can rectify or at least, apologize properly, but if not that's okay too.

Hoping for a kinder 2024 for everyone! (and myself)

[lunafaeris-archive]

/I’m low-key debating whether or not I should move blogs.

I know that’s mostly my depression talking, but at the same time this blog is backed up and cluttered and hard to navigate. And for as much as I cherish the good memories I’ve made here, there are some things other than that I want to separate myself from.

I’m tired of being taken for granted. I’m tired of feeling used.

I love my characters and the world I’ve built up for them and I don’t want to give that up. If I do set things aside here and make a new blog, it will be centered around Luna with the rest of my cast (Anton, Lucca, Elliot, etc..) being available on request. I would like to keep and transfer most of my bonds/ships over to new said blog, after contacting people and letting them know if they’d like to continue or not.

This is something I’ve been mulling over for a few days and it hasn’t gone away. Part of me knows it will just put more work on me and I don’t know whether or not I should because I’ve been feeling so low, and me even making the tiniest of mistakes sends me spiraling. I keep trying to remind myself that things will get better once I’m healed, but even that doesn’t help in the short term. I know this might feel like I’m coming out of left field for some of you, but I’m not used to talking about things like this, not without feeling ashamed and like I’m fishing for pity points and then delete anything I have to say less than a day later.

I appreciate the people who have reached out to me and if I’ve dropped the conversation suddenly... it’s on me. It’s my fault. I don’t know how to talk about these things without coming off selfish or angry or both, and I don’t want to push that on people.

I haven’t made a concrete decision yet as to whether or not to move and start fresh. I’d have to gather most of my writings, bios, headcanons, etc... and transfer them onto Google Docs, hopefully in a way that makes them more easily accessible after some tweaking. Make it dash only because I’m not bothering with theme graphics, they’ve never been my strong suit.

I’m still thinking about it. I might just start compiling all the important info I have on my characters and world lore as a fail safe if nothing else, and start from there.

[allmothered]

honestly i’ve been trying my best to put on a smile this past week but i don’t know if a depressive episode is brewing or if there’s some other external/internal factor but i feel so cut off from the world, like i’m trying to swim back to shore and land just keeps getting farther and farther away

[gildhart]

.... lagill is so.... *gagging noises*

[ofironloyalty]

and last before i go to rest, when i am saying ‘ handling negativity in threads and interactions ‘ is the fact that,

most of them end up with one party criticizing tianna or d.emacia for the same topic and flaw of the nation over and over.

and mentally taxing because seeing characters who are murderers, mages with malicious intentions and acts or belong in nations that also have flaws are getting the claps instead.

like honestly, my hands are tied and it’s demotivating.

[hhjs]

want to kill myself juice <3