#depression tw.

[vorashvan]

OKAY psa

if my activity gets wonky (from super duper active to ✨ nothing ✨) uhhhh i would like to disclose that i am currently switching my antidepressants and anti anxiety medication. and. well. you can see how THAT could go awry. SO please don't take it personally if i'm weird or whatever it's simply the Brain you see......

[lunaferrous]

/Seasonal depression really sucks atm.

It sucks worse when you're in a small town with very few mental health resources, and those resources you have to book weeks to months in advance when you think you're having an episode.

It also sucks when your small town is a summer town and people are out enjoying the day; but you're not. Because mother nature just doesn't want you to be happy during this time of year. Because it makes you feel lonelier than ever, and your creative outlets just aren't satisfying you anymore. Because it makes you feel like you're losing a part of yourself that once gave you confidence and made you happy.

Part of me knows this is all just the depression talking, and the obsessive component of my OCD making it worse. Part of me knows that it will pass, because it has before... eventually. I just don't know how long this time will last. And it just sucks being in the middle of it, with nowhere else to turn.

[hollustu-ascended]

･˖·✦  𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆  𝐃𝐎𝐖𝐍  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄  𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄.

Since  we  are  incorporating  stars  into  Sigyn's  lore  ,  one  of  the  ways  I  found  to  do  this  involves  her  appearance.   Through  my  research  ,  it  was  brought  to  my  attention  that  stars  change  appearance  and  color  over  time  due  to  their  life  cycle.         Because  I  enjoy  the  idea  of  muses  that  can  subtly  change  their  appearance  ,  I've  decided  to  incorporate  this  into  my  lore  for  Sigyn  ,  with  a  few  differences  in  order  to  make  it  work  with  my  story.

𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄:   i  will  be  selective  on  which  verses  i  use  this  for  ,  but  it  will  be  a  permanent  piece  of  lore  to  her  main  canon.

Sigyn's  original  face  claim  ,  is  Emilia  Clarke.   This  face  claim  takes  up  the  time  of  her  lift  up  until  the  events  of  Infinity  War.         When  referring  to  comic  or  norse  verses  it'd  due  to  either  Loki's  death  or  the  punishment  of  Jarn.   Throughout  this  time  ,  she  has  this  more  youthful  visage  ,  with  more  tendency  to  a  brighter  side  to  her.   She's  not  been  so  jaded  by  the  line  of  events  in  quick  succession  leading  to  the  massive  trauma  she  underwent.

Sigyn's  next  appearance  ,  Emma  D'Arcy.   Whereas  stars  simply  change  appearance  based  on  their  life  cycle  ,         in  Sigyn's  case  we  will  be  basing  this  off  of  a  massive  amount  of  stress.   With  the  loss  of  her  husband  ,  all  her  children  taken  by  Thanos'  plan  ,  and  the  death  of  one  of  her  dragons  in  the  process  of  the  fight  against  the  Titan  ,  she  fell  into  a  massive  state  of  depression.   She  would  work  through  this  over  the  next  year  after  ,         but  not  without  an  effect  on  her  that  would  be  everlasting.   By  the  time  her  children  were  returned  to  her  ,  and  her  husband  back  from  his  journey  back  to  the  world  of  the  living  ,         she  would  not  look  like  that  woman  who  had  been  mother  and  partner  to  those  in  her  life.   While  eventually  she  came  back  to  her  full  power  ,  for  about  six  months  found  her  ability  to  use  magic  being  extremely  lessened.

[dsturbedstudios]

morning fam , more bad sleep and bad night terrors , so that's just becoming a theme it seems. so i'll be around , but likely slow and spacey. the nightmares have been at it night after night so i'm so sorry if i space and forget something. i honestly can't remember the last time i slept and it felt peaceful. i'm still thinking about pruning a lot of the muses. i don't know anymore. anyways , i'll be on discord mostly , while trying to work on things i owe.

[drekkavac-moving]

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i'm gonna do my best to get some asks or replies out. took a sudden turn for the downward direction mood wise , so i'm gonna see if i can get that to settle down. but i'm her!

[jeoseungsaja]

Tulip violet willow, you can choose verse 😘

@temporalobjects ♚ from x. TW: mentions of death and self-destruction. 

tulip :   how does your muse view people in general ?  

Reaper is curious about people. About their habits, the things they do; the way they carry their life. He’s very interested in humanity and often finds himself wishing to get in the depth of it instead of watching from the sidelines as he was originally told. There are times where he’s jealous of people, because they have a purpose of their own, because they have a name they can respond to, because they have what he doesn’t have. And, sure, he indeed used to be fully human once upon a time, yet he cannot relish in any of these memories because he’s forgotten them all. So, in a way, Reaper views people with interest and endearment, but also with tinges of envy due to foreign desire. He’s also had moments where he’s expressed frustration and/or discontent toward people, but this really depends on the person and the things they’ve done (especially if he’s on the job and finds out about their sins, etc.). 

violet :   how does your muse respond to betrayal ?

MY HEART’S ALREADY CRYING WITH THIS ONE BECAUSE...well, I think that in the show we can see two different stages of betrayal: 1) the one where he feels he’s been betrayed and 2) the betrayal he created himself out of bad faith, both developed during his youth and transcending until his current timeline, centuries later.  We can see that during his youth, his emotions ran high and he was blinded with useless resentment and manipulated by someone who wanted the Kingdom for himself. Here, he thinks he’s been betrayed by Kim Shin and so he sends death to him and his entire family, burning bridges down and creating a rift that would eventually lead to Shin’s wish for revenge. In this sense, Reaper (as a young and naive King) responds horribly to betrayal, doesn’t hear the reasons, doesn’t let anyone talk and convince him otherwise. He goes straight to creating violence and being consumed by something that could’ve been stopped if only he really listened. Later on, regret is the one that truly ends up consuming him because he realizes he did horribly wrong.  As Reaper, centuries later, his response to betrayal carries a heavy heart. In this setting, I think Reaper wouldn’t betray anyone easily, for he’s matured and grown; his experiences are vaster than those of his youth. Nevertheless, when he realizes that he’s been the traitor all along (the one who, in a way, started Goblin’s curse), he enters into such deep sadness that he asks Goblin to end with his existence if he must, because he thinks it’s what he deserves for unfairly ending with lives of innocent people.  TLDR; Not well and within reason IUWEHDIUWEH

willow :   how does your muse handle sadness & depression ?

Depends on what he’s sad about, but he’s very prone to sulking or moping when he’s sad. He’ll sit down and stare at nothing for hours with a can of beer in his hand; he’ll even drink medicine at times as if that could fix something (even if medicine does absolutely nothing on him). There are times where sadness hits hard and he’ll cry. This happens when deeper situations take place (losing someone, experiencing the painful sting in his chest, having profound regret over something, realizing how unfair death is -- especially when he has to guide children to the next life -- etc.). In these cases, he really does need a helping hand, someone who can perhaps soothe his worries and help him get out of that hole. 

[conquersbrains-blog]

i’m not doing great. i miss my parents. :))) and i hate christmas this year. i’m just fucking sad, life isn’t fair and i?? am just gonna be quiet and stuff today .

[faithfulsinncrs]

Unfortunately, I am going on an unexpected Hiatus. I do not know how long the hiatus will be, but I really just need it. As a lot of you may know I lost my best friend and one of my closest cousins this last summer and I’ve never fully recovered from it. I constantly put up a happy face whenever I am around people, but when I am alone I am broken. Roleplaying has always been a safe haven for me during dark times in my life, but this last summer was just one of the breaking points for my dark times.

I am okay physically. I am taking care of myself, but emotionally I am a wreck. My anxiety has been through the roof and everything has just been making me so tired. I love roleplaying and I don’t wanna burden anyone with waiting for my threads when I, myself, am never sure when I will have them up.

So I felt that the best thing for myself to recover is to take a step back and take a hiatus. A full time hiatus instead of a semi-hiatus. I need this time to take a break and a breather. To clear my mind of any dark thoughts lingering whenever I am alone.

To my amazing rp partners, if you want to drop any of our threads while I take this full time hiatus, I will be completely fine with it. When I come back, I hope to be a bit more happier and able to provide you with a proper roleplaying partner to continue expanding our muses’ stories together.

I do hope I feel better and more myself after this hiatus. I will miss rp’ing with you all, but if you’d like to talk to me, I am always available here on Tumblr IM even when I’m not on the dashboard.

Love,

Kae