#nes.rambles

[nesry-n]

the thing to understand about vaderdala is that padmé won't give an eff about vader if there is no anakin in him. she loves and believes the anakin in canon vader. in any canon divergent au, it'd be the same. and in raised as sith au, vader would have to actually show/awaken the anakin in him for padmé to give him time of the day. seeing as for who and how she fell in canon, the same sincerity, passion, devotion, and honesty would be needed. she'd have no time or attraction for the dark or morally grey vader, sorry.

[nesry-n]

a vent

idk why I am putting myself through the ao3 vaderdala tag again. so many of them are so ooc, and padmé is often so much more ooc than anakin.

she either hates her husband or she has no faith left in his goodness, or she is a docile caricature or she is a damsel in distress. I am like—who in the actual fuck is this padmé because that's not who we see in movies.

not to mention that anakin becomes a snarking husband after he turns vader, when literally all vaderdala scenes have him still tender and soft like anakin, except for his own oocness at mustafar.

and then I realise that literally so many of them (going all the way back to the earliest fic as I read oldest —> newest) have awful infestation of tcw characterisation.

suddenly the heavy oocness all makes sense.

[nesry-n]

I always suspected but finally googled today to confirm that Ahsoka's name is indeed derived from Indian king Ashoka's (called Ashoka the Great historically and pronounced Ashok without the "a" sound) who laid down weapons and adopted Buddhism after witnessing the suffering caused in his bloody conquest of Kalinga (modern day Odisha in India). He then sent his children to other parts of Asia to spread Buddhism.

Ashoka can be broken down into "a" + "shoka" where "shoka" means "sorrow" and the prefix "a" sound means "without". So the name means "without sorrow". And that's what Ahsoka's name means too.

[nesry-n]

Been posting a lot of "in the beginning of rots" posts. Huh. Well, imo, its an important part to understand how the characters and their dynamics have transformed after 3 years of war.

[nesry-n]

a @mirrorofliterature appreciation post for their media literate and objective star wars takes, awesome ficlets, and constant pushback against woobie-wanism even though some fans cannot help but miss the point of their posts. Also, people should learn to appreciate boundaries set by someone. This is just a fandom and one is debating fandom opinions at the end of the day. Perhaps one should restrain themselves from getting personal as there is a real person behind the screen. Also, not every SW post needs to come with a disclaimer of "btw I understand there is more complexity involved"—please stop spreading disclaimerism.

In light of some people crossing boundaries, I just wanted to shoutout one of my favorite SW bloggers (mirror) who has really helped my anidala fandom experience here on tumblr. Keep rocking! ✨️🙌

[nesry-n]

accidentally reading obkin delulu and laughing lmao

[nesry-n]

Time to take out the weapon beloved by parents worldwide —

People complaining about Padmé not girl-bossing enough, what were you doing at 14?! 🔪🤧💀

[nesry-n]

i really want to write raised-as-sith Anakin x bene gesserit (from the dune universe) Padmé AU for vaderdala week. i also have an idea about how i would like to characterise this Anakin.

but i am really working on reconciling bene gesserit teachings with canon Padmé. it would likely have to be a combination of both where i tweak bene gesserit teachings to suit SW universe and Padmé’s archetype—this would be possible with modifying and making bene gesserit a mostly lost, at least 50,000 years old order, and then i tweak Padmé’s character traits to reconcile her principled and compassionate nature (plus vulnerability in personal relationships) with her been gesserit upbringing.