nesryn

[nesry-n]

INTRODUCTION 🍁🍃

name: nesryn / nes 🍂

details: she/her, 25+

blog: mainly a star wars blog with focus on anakin/vader x padmé (anidala / vaderdala) and skywalker family characters & dynamics; sometimes skywalker & kenobi brotherhood; special focus on the mythic themes of the saga; obi-wan and jedi critical 🍃 sometimes klaroline (klaus x caroline) from the vampire diaries 🍂 sometimes the mummy & other media 🍃

sw canon: Lucas saga—the prequel and original trilogy (PT x OT) plus their novelizations (secondary)

links: ao3 | all text posts | writing | asks | i vent here | ramble here | reblog commentary | 18+ tag: 🔞

profile pic: by the very talented @/mmeiram ✨️ it's anidala mummy au 🐪

filter tags: tcw critical, anti tcw, anti disney sw

updates: will update on more specific links and what else is planned for the blog 🍂

[nesry-n]

anakin about padmé in rots novelization:

“the woman whose breath was his only air, whose heartbeat was his only music, whose face was the only beauty his eyes would ever see”

when I say anakin worships padmé, I mean he worships padmé—worships her entire being.

[nesry-n]

still thinking about this because what do you mean anakin? do you mean that after you stole her breath momentarily, you ceased to breathe on your own forever? do you mean that after her heart stopped beating, your life became colorless? do you mean that after you lost her, all beauty was gone from your life?

[chekhovs-guns]

god i wish there were more ways to look at these apartments.

[bodeckerhedron]

MARK HAMILL as LUKE SKYWALKER

➤• STAR WARS: EPISODE IV - A NEW HOPE (1977) DIR. GEORGE LUCAS

[caramelldraws]

I love that scene and the sweep up from the pyre into the night sky

Sketch for a Lino print

[silverscreen-andfashion]

NATALIE PORTMAN as Padmé Amidala

Star Wars: Attack of the Clones (2002)

[nesry-n]

let it be known that anakin struggled with his jedi identity in the PT era not only because of the war, or the growing darkness, or palpatine’s grooming, but also because he could not give up actual practice of compassion and empathy—the essence of a true jedi. the order told him that he needs to be detached, and stoic but he could never be that, he has seen and been the people who needed the jedi to be the way he was. it was not just forbidding of love and attachment, it was the rigidity that wasn’t truly serving the galaxy. it was the ceding of moral authority to a corrupt senate. it was the ignorance.

and I do see the PT-era order embodying the better qualities of a true jedi too. but alas, they had lost the core essence of it by the time of PT.

maybe anakin wasn’t a good PT-era jedi. but then, the PT-era jedi themselves weren’t the best versions to emulate, and could actually have benefitted from learning a thing or two from the chosen one. maybe things would have turned out different then.

[nesry-n]

(tags via @/myfairkatiecat)

[nohardheroes]

ANAKIN & PADMÉ

Star Wars

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[nesry-n]

let it be known that anakin struggled with his jedi identity in the PT era not only because of the war, or the growing darkness, or palpatine’s grooming, but also because he could not give up actual practice of compassion and empathy—the essence of a true jedi. the order told him that he needs to be detached, and stoic but he could never be that, he has seen and been the people who needed the jedi to be the way he was. it was not just forbidding of love and attachment, it was the rigidity that wasn’t truly serving the galaxy. it was the ceding of moral authority to a corrupt senate. it was the ignorance.

and I do see the PT-era order embodying the better qualities of a true jedi too. but alas, they had lost the core essence of it by the time of PT.

maybe anakin wasn’t a good PT-era jedi. but then, the PT-era jedi themselves weren’t the best versions to emulate, and could actually have benefitted from learning a thing or two from the chosen one. maybe things would have turned out different then.

[divorcedwife]

in a galaxy far, far away

[nesry-n]

omf, I need to answer my asks. sorry for the delay to whoever has sent them 😭

[eldritchdemigodskywalkers]

anakin skywalker vs. masculinity standards (1/1) | 6,767 words

Despite [Anakin Skywalker and Darth Vader] being the exact same character, merely portrayed in different stages of his life, one is widely lauded in the pop cultural consciousness and the other is derided for being "disappointing" and "badly written". Through the lens of different masculinities, the current essay aims to examine how the contrasting depictions of Anakin Skywalker in the Prequel and Original Trilogies could have garnered such an extreme reaction to the reveal of the backstory of one of the most famous villains from 20th century pop culture, as well as how the animated interquel Star Wars: The Clone Wars responded to such criticisms and to what effect.

Alternatively: The long-awaited masculinities essay, in which I lambast bad fanon, criticize The Clone Wars (2008) for their questionable Anakin characterization, and deadname Twitter in the citations.

Originally titled: On the characterization and fandom reception of Anakin Skywalker in Star Wars in relation to differing masculinities.

CW: Discussions of misogyny and toxic masculinity (and queerphobia), sexual violence, school shootings, ableism, and canon-typical depictions of death, violence, slavery, grooming, mental health and trauma, victim-blaming, etc.

[nesry-n]

To wit, Anakin Skywalker's characterization in the Prequel Trilogy is considered disappointing to mainstream audiences because he fails to meet their expectations of the proto-Vader: instead of the hyper-masculine villain of their childhood fantasy, they received a young and vulnerable child immigrant from a marginalized community, an emotional, at-times awkward teenage loverboy, and a conflicted young adult who was ultimately failed by the systems around him to keep him safe from abuse — none of which constitute as a power fantasy to aspire to. This is not for a lack of trying on Anakin's part either, who had aspired to live up to Jedi ideals in the films but ultimately found them unsustainable, thanks to those ideals of stoicism and detachment being contrary to his true self characterized by emotion, compassion, and unconditional love.

absolutely amazing breakdown. everyone, please go read this!

[tatooineknights]

THE EMPIRE STRIKES BACK (1980) Dir. Irvin Kershner

[mirrorofliterature]

Leia Organa stops walking in the Jedi Temple, the Republic on the cusp of falling.

Anakin Skywalker has flagged her down.

He looks a wreck. The man about to become the scourge of the Empire - a mess. His hair is greasy, his eye bags are deep.

He may already have turned to the Dark Side. Maybe. But Leia doesn't think he feels dark. Not yet.

"You came from the future." His gaze is manic. "Tell me, is Senator Amidala alive?"

Oh.

If Leia tells Anakin the truth - no - she thinks she may break him.

She hesitates a beat too long, and Anakin's eyes slip shut. A tea falls down his face.

She wonders why he cares about Senator Padmé Amidala. Jedi are not supposed to have attachments, and yet - she exists. Luke exists.

Her mind whirs. Maybe - maybe the death of Padmé Amidala is what pushes Anakin over the edge.

Save Padmé Amidala, save the galaxy. It is probably not that simple: the Republic is already in free fall to its doom.

Maybe Leia didn't get sent back in time to save the Republic.

Maybe she came back in time to save her mother.

[walkerwing]

-LOVE

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[nesry-n]

anakin about padmé in rots novelization:

“the woman whose breath was his only air, whose heartbeat was his only music, whose face was the only beauty his eyes would ever see”

when I say anakin worships padmé, I mean he worships padmé—worships her entire being.

[c0c0ya]

Anidala Modern Sketch/Been a hot minute

So uh, I haven't posted in a hot minute 💀. I need to get back to work! I haven't been under a slump or anything, I've just been out on a fantastic family cruise, and I got a bit distracted 😭.

While I did a lot of new things [like karaoke in front of a crowd], when I did find occasional glimpses of solitude, I just ended up reading really good star wars time travel fanfics because there is NO end of ROTS!

Getting Padme's face right is always so weirdly difficult for me compared to Anakin. I don't know why, I just think Natalie Portman has such a beautiful face, and I find it very difficult to reference without messing it up too much. Anyways, I'm a huge fan of those modern au fics where Padme is a beautiful, career-driven lady who's just rushing her life, and then Anakin comes crashing in to keep on her toes. Also him being absolutely in love with her first is a MUST!

Well I hope this doesn't look too much of a mess, and I do plan on making more fully rendered pieces soon, and actually doing some writing once I get accustomed back to my job and back in my native state. Hope everyone like this piece and take care!

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