Every so often, I like to make flags that represent me in the best way possible. It changes year by year as I gain a better understanding of myself.
I feel like I'm here:
It's both my manhood and my aporahood in one flag which is interesting, because I decided not to include green for neutrality like I usually do.
However, some days, my gender looks more like this:
This is my manhood being influenced by the neutral aspects of my aporinity, creating a sort of neutramale identity.
But then there's this:
Instead of my manhood feeling like a ningender, it often feels more like a demigender because that neutral aporinity subdues my manhood. Don't even ask how I distinguish between the neutralizing of gender versus the subduction of my gender. It makes sense in my head but I've yet to figure out a way to put it into words.
Maybe there's also a non-neutral (gravinous) aporinity that influences my manhood. I have a feeling my aporinity moves toward and away from neutrality, maybe on a spectrum from neutral to maverine. I'm not sure. I also don't think my manhood influences my aporinity - I think it's all a one-way thing.
It certainly is something to see my genders in such a complex way.
- Your Bigender Big Brother 💙💚
