Madoromi “Self Harm”
マドロミ『リスか』
reader discretion advised. below contain lyrics that children really shouldn't be reading (15 and younger) self harm is extremely serious.
despite what twitter & tiktok say, harming yourself isn't cool and you don't actually get clout for it. those likes and friends mean nothing if youre dead.
your life is fragile. please remember your life is priceless and precious. if you feel worthless, you're not worthless to me. you are so loved. even if you dont know it.
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💙手首の傷を数えてた
💙リミットはとっくに超してる
💙求めていないLINEの音が
💙心の奥えぐってく
💜“寂しさ埋めるだけ”
💜そんな夜の往復
💜忘れたい日々ばかりが列を作る
❤️💙💛リスカ
❤️流れ落ちる血を見て想う
❤️「キミの為に生きているんだ」と
🩷💜いつか
💜「ちゃんとした関係になれる」
💜願うのは私だけ？
🩷嘘だ嘘だ
🩷女のストーリーに映るキミ
🩷仕事だって言ってた
💛眠れない夜にキミはどこの女と寝てんの？
💙鍵を渡すと前に言った
💙あれずっと信じてるんだ心中
💙そして脳裏に浮かぶのは
💙いっそ一緒に心中
💛大丈夫だよと言うんだったら
💛私の増えた自傷は？
💛言えてなかった一言だけ
💛居場所全部知ってる
🩷💜リスカ
💜流れ落ちる血を見て想う
💜「キミだけが幸せ」
💜有り得ない
❤️💙💛死とは
💙「愛し愛される」のおしまい
💙正常は捨てといた
❤️全部全部
❤️今なら許してあげるから両目を頂戴よ
🩷私との未来以外
🩷どこの女と見れんの？
💛ここまで続く関係値
💛フェードアウト目論んでないよね？
💛他の女とならもう喋った
💛「もう一生会わないで」
❤️見てていつも独りでこうしてるの
❤️キミの目にはどう映ってる？
💜見せて
💜キミの頭の中全て
💜ぐちゃぐちゃにしてあげる
❤️💙💛リスカ
💙流れ落ちる血を見て想う
💙「これからは一緒に居れるんだ」と
🩷💜キミが
🩷「ごめん」と許しを乞う顔は
🩷とても美しかった
❤️良い子良い子
❤️右手も左手も差し出して絶対を誓って
💛眠れない夜私が
💛キミダキシメテアゲル
💜ほら
💜まどろみの世界へ
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ROM
💙tekubi no kizu o kazoe teta
💙rimitto wa tokkuni koshi teru
💙motomete inai LINE no oto ga
💙kokoro no oku egu tte ku
💜“sabishisa umeru dake”
💜sonna yoru no oofuku
💜wasuretai hibi bakari ga retsuwotsukuru
❤️💙💛risuka
❤️nagareochiru chi o mite omou
❤️“kimi no tame ni ikite iru nda” to 🩷💜itsu ka
💜“chanto shita kankei ni nareru”
💜negau no wa watashidake?
🩷usoda usoda
🩷onna no sutourii ni utsuru Kimi
🩷shigoto datte itteta
💛nemurenaiyoru ni kimi wa doko no onna to ne ten no?
💙kagi o watasu to mae ni itta
💙are zutto shinji teru nda shinjū
💙soshite nouri ni ukabu no wa
💙isso issho ni shinjuu
💛daijoubudayo to iu ndattara
💛watashi no fueta ji kizu wa?
💛Ie tenakatta hitokoto dake
💛ibasho zenbu shitteru
🩷💜risuka
💜nagareochiru chi o mite omou
💜“kimi dake ga shiawase”
💜arienai-💙❤️💛shi to wa
💙“aishi aisareru” no oshimai
💙seijou wa sute toita
❤️zenbu zenbu
❤️imanara yurushite agerukara ryoume o choudai yo
🩷watashi to no mirai igai
🩷doko no onna to miren no?
💛koko made tsudzuku kankei-chi
💛feedoauto mokuron denai yo ne? hoka no onna tonara mou shabetta
💛“mou isshou awanaide”
❤️mi tete itsumo hitoride koushiteru no
❤️kimi no me ni wa dou utsutteru?
💜misete
💜kimi no atama no naka subete
💜guchagucha ni shite ageru
❤️💙💛risuka
💙nagareochiru chi o mite omou
💙“korekara wa issho ni oreru nda” to 🩷💜kimi ga
🩷“gomen” to yurushi o kou kao wa
🩷totemo utsukushikatta
❤️iiko iiko
❤️migite mo hidarite mo sashidashite zettai o chikatte
💛nemurenaiyoru watashi ga
💛kimidakishimeteageru
💜hora
💜madoromi no sekai e
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EN
💙I was counting the cuts on my wrists
💙I've long since passed the limit
💙The unwanted sound of LINE messages digs deep into my heart
💜"Just to fill the loneliness"
💜Those nights, the rhythm is always the same
💜 they line up the only days I want to forget
❤️💙💛Self-harm
❤️Looking at the blood flowing down, I think
❤️"I'm living for you" and
🩷💜 someday
💜"We can have a proper relationship"
💜Am I the only one who wishes for that?
🩷It's a lie, a lie
🩷You appear in a woman's story
🩷You said it was work
💛On sleepless nights,
💛Who are you sleeping with?
💙I said before that I'd give you the key
💙I've always believed that, even if it meant suicide
💙And what comes to mind is
💙Why not just commit suicide together?
💛If you say it's okay
💛What about the increased self-harm I've been doing?
💛There's just one thing I couldn't stomach saying
💛I know exactly where you are
🩷💜Self-harm
💜As I watch the blood flowing, I think
💜"Only you can be happy" - that's impossible
❤️💙💛Death is
💙The end of "loving and being loved"
💙I've abandoned normalcy
❤️Everything, everything
❤️I'll forgive you now, if you giive me both your eyes
🩷Any woman other than one with me
🩷Who else can you see?
💛This relationship has lasted this long
💛You're not planning to ghost me, are you?
💛You've already said it to other women
💛"Never see me again"
❤️Watch me
❤️I'm always like this, all alone
❤️How do I look to you?
💜Show me
💜I'll completely mess up
💜everything in your head
❤️💙💛Self-harm
💙Watching the blood flow, I think
💙"From now on, we can be together"
🩷💜Your
🩷"I'm sorry,"- that pleading face as you beg
🩷 I'll never forget how beautiful it was
❤️Good boy, good boy
❤️Right hand and left hand out to me
❤️I swear I'll never forgive you
💛On sleepless nights
💛I'll hold you tight
💜Look
💜Into the world of slumber
