@nibelstrike sent : how is his relation with shera ? (gimme angst pls jk or not)
it’s a common idea , once you’ve been spared from death , your following time is borrowed , or even stolen ; i don’t believe their relationship is traditional nor healthy , at least during the og . i believe shera still feels guilty , because when cid shouts over the intercom “ you’ll die ! ” she simply replies “ i don’t mind . ” but he still sacrificed the mission to save her anyway . he sacrificed all their dreams , not just his , though she seemingly accepted her fate long before he even realized she was still on the ship . one teammate even tries to encourage him to forget about shera and follow through with the launch . this wasn’t just his dream , this was a team effort , and he sacrificed all of it to save one woman who put herself in that situation to begin with . she risked her life because she didn’t trust the numbers and didn’t trust her captain’s word , or so it seems .
i believe he still holds her responsible for the failure to launch only because he believes she’s smarter than she thinks , that she worries too much and it grates on his nerves ; he genuinely believes she’s intelligent in her own right and lets her anxieties get in her own way . that’s what he’s upset about , instead of resenting his decision to save her . he believes she’s partly responsible because she didn’t trust the numbers , or him , but in the end , shinra pulled the plug on the program , not shera .
i also believe he’s in the wrong , with yelling at her constantly and demanding she follow orders . i believe he finally gets his shit together after finally flying into space . there’s a phenomenon known as the overview effect experienced by astronauts in space : “ It is the experience of seeing firsthand the reality of the Earth in space , which is immediately understood to be a tiny , fragile ball of life , “ hanging in the void ”, shielded and nourished by a paper - thin atmosphere . From space , national boundaries vanish , the conflicts that divide people become less important , and the need to create a planetary society with the united will to protect this “ pale blue dot ” becomes both obvious and imperative . ” -- he literally sees the earth as a fragile orb of life and realizes his conflicts and his issues are so small in comparison , plus when he fights sephiroth , he actually has hope for the future and has no intention of dying in the north crater when he has so much . . . Life to return to .
so when he returns to rocket town after seph’s defeat , i imagine maybe a year or so later he finally proposes to shera . and she accepts ! and his team builds him an airship which he names after his new wife . i believe he yells much less ( at her , at least ) and no longer holds resentment for the failure to launch no . 26 .
