Night #538 & #539
Last night was my GCSE Presentation. It was good to be fair, I got to dress up and see my friends win stuff. I didn’t get much. I don’t really care.
Today was just another day at college. It was Friday so that meant I was literally busy all day.
We went for a meal after college. It was meant to be 5 of us but it ended up being 3: me, Joe and Smel. I paid. I didn’t mind because it was for Joe’s birthday but I don’t understand why Ella spent all her money if she knew she was coming out. I don’t mind paying for little things here and there, but why did I pay for a fkn meal for her? It’s not a date for crying out loud. I don’t want to be spending loads of money. I don’t have loads to be spending. I still have Christmas presents to buy. I don’t really want to spend over £10 per person. Maybe Em is an exception. There’s only Joe, Smel, Ben and Em but still, that’s £40 if I spend £10 on each or £80 if I spend £20 on each. £40 is a manageable amount, I can deal with that. £20 is a lot of money. I don’t like treating it as such because I don’t want to have to see it as a lot but it well and truly is right now. I don’t like talking about money, but when I buy new things, it makes me happy. If I can’t buy myself new stuff because I’ve bought other people stuff, I won’t be very happy.
Goodnight.
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