Sunday, December 24th, 2017 (04:23)
Today I had a headache the whole day because I've fallen asleep at 7 am and woken up at 10 am.
Then ofc I was laying in bed til 13/14 and when I went downstairs I made myself some breakfast.
After that I helped my mom with chores like cleaning the house (and helping her sort her never ending amount of shoes and put them into their carton-box)
Then later that Evening I wanted to have some "me" time. (Aka drinking tea, reading Percy Jackson while lo-fi or other calming music plays in the background. I'm doing this really often recently which is good since I really need to start reading books more often again. And drinking tea.)
Oh the tea I made this time was a mix of the rooibos caramel tea and the rooibos chocolate flavored tea which tasted trés bien.
Ohhh now that I think about it, I should begin studying for the upcoming French, German and Maths exam. And prolly for Biology too since my participation in the class is very poor (aka I failed the test, almost didn't do any homework)
Oh no I'm beginning to fear.
So back to my "me" time ritual and so on.
I wanted to go and have the "me" time but then my mom goes "U gotta bond with ur family yadda yadda yadda" but I really didn't want to cuz 1) I'd have to move my "me" time to a later hour 2) My dad seemed kinda pissed today and I was scared that instead of having a family bonding session I'd have a 3 hour long quarrel session cuz when my dad is in a bad mood he's easily irritable.
But thank heavens that we actually had a chill time.
I was discussing about stuff like friendship, love etc. etc.
Of course I had to swallow down some homophobia and couldn't say anything against it because I didn't want my parents to suspect me in supporting, or even worse, being a part of the lgbt+ community (I'm pan).
But then we started talking about friendships and that's where I proudly told my parents what wonderful friends I have.
For example, I was comparing them with my ex best friend. And. I've noticed that she was never into discussing deep stuff, which I don't like at all, cuz if I think about it, I sometimes love to get lost in my deep and philosophical thoughts or talk about it with my friends. And their reaction is never like "ewwwww that's too deeeeeeeep and depressssiiiiiing." They talk about deep stuff too and. I think the deeper the topic you talk about with a person is, the closer you get. Which is an awesome feeling. I never had that with my ex best friend. All she ever talked about passionately was about boys and how much she loves their attention. Oh man. I remember arguing with her about if your future boyfriend is allowed to have a female best friend or not. And I said "of course he can, duh. I'd take away his freedom if I actually demanded him not to have a female best friend. And that's the last thing I'd ever do. I want my future partner to feel as comfortable as possible."
And then, she said the most manipulative and egocentric thing I've heard.
"What??? If he has so much freedom he could easily bang around with another hag behind your back and eventually leave you."
And I said "Well, I believe that my partner will love me as much as I love him/her and won't do that. And if they will find someone that is suited better for them, then I'm going to be hurt but also happy for them for finding better happiness which I couldn't provide for them."
She said "Wow, Coffee you're crazy. Have fun on getting cheated on multiple times."
And I said "Well, have fun having a Muppet as a boyfriend."
Oh man that was like, the best burn I've ever thrown at her.
And man. It's sad how today's youth sees love. I've heard that many girls just want as many boyfriends as possible. Which I find ridiculous. Why have a thousand shitty partners when you can have one amazing partner that you can stay with as long as possible? Which you can trust and which trusts you. Which knows how to please you and you know how to please. Which makes you happy in every single way and you try to make happy.
Just. Long lasting unconditional love. Yeah. That's the thing I'd be into. But sadly that won't happen soon.
Why are teenagers so into that "fast love - fast sex - fast breakup" thing? (Lololol I sound like an old granny)
Ahh but I can't wait to shower my future partner with love. I'd do anything to make them happy.
But for now. I gotta wait.
After that chill talk with my parents I finally did the "me" time.
The tea tasted amazing, the story is getting better and better and the music in the background makes it an amazing experience.
And noooooow I gotta go to sleep. I have to wake up early so I can help my parents with cleaning the house and stuff for Christmas.
Oh and MERRY CHRISTM(ASS) YAAAAAAAA (Samurai invented the Christm(ass) thing haha) (05:30)