do you miss me like i miss you? ~ s. hanma
word count: 935
synopsis: Shuji sees you wearing the matching earring you gave him after you two have broken up.
tw: angst kinda, mild swearing
a/n: here you go hunny @sleepingem ! I hope i was able to bring your ask to life the way you expected! 💓 i honestly loved writing this, hanma and angst two of my fav things😋😌
please do not plagiarize my work.
The clock reads 2am, it was normal for Hanma to be up this late. He sat on his window sill with a lit cigarette watching the city lights. He sighed and ran a tattooed hand through his hair. Hanma usually spends his nights before going to bed wondering what the exact moment was that things went wrong between you two. It was a nightly routine: sit by the window, light a cigarette, regret his life's choices, repeat. He’s never told anyone, not even Kisaki that his life's biggest regret is letting you go.
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You were a 2nd year in high school, the first time you remember meeting Shuji Hanma. You first heard about him because he got sent home for beating up another student who “looked at him wrong”. That’s when you caught a glimpse of him, as he was being escorted out of school. A tall and lanky boy, who had brown hair with a blonde streak. You saw the two tattoos on his hands, and you noticed how he wore a single earring. You thought he looked absolutely ridiculous, but another part of you, deep down, thought he looked intriguing. Ever since you saw him that day you couldn’t get his gold eyes out of your head. Little did you know you would come to love everything about him.
The next time you see him he is at the park you like to go to. Again it looks like he just got done beating someone up. He was sitting on a picnic table, his hands bloodied and bruised, smoking a cigarette. “He is sitting at my favorite table” you think to yourself. You like to come to this park and catch up on homework or read and you like sitting at the table that is closest to a tree that offers shade on a warm sunny day. You typically were not someone who is afraid of others so you decided to sit next to him.
Shuji gave you a weird look while wearing that signature smirk he always wears. He couldn't believe someone like you would even dare to sit next to him. Shuji knew who you were of course. You’re popular, always have good grades, and you’re always smiling.
“Why do you get into so many fights?” You ask out of the blue.
Shuji took a minute to register what you said.
“Because people piss me off.”
You thought for a minute before replying,
“Hmmm, that seems as good of a reason as any!” You said while smiling.
Shuji didn’t know the effect your smile had on others until he was on the receiving end of it. His heart swelled and he couldn't help but smile back. He didn’t do his signature smirk but genuinely smiled.
It’s been exactly a year since you and Shuji first met at that picnic table. A place you two have visited often over the course of 365 days. You told him to meet you here because you had a surprise for him. When Shuji arrived you couldn’t wait to give him your gift. You gave him an earring that matched yours. When Shuji opened it he couldn't help but smile a genuine smile, something that only happens around you. He felt tears prick the corner of his eyes but he held them back. He never thought he would be loved so much by anyone.
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It’s been years since that day and Shuji still finds himself wearing that same earring even long after you two have broken up. He refuses to take it off, fearing whatever memories he had left of you would disappear. He remembers what it was like to be loved by you so clearly, he never felt that from another person, you were the only one. Shuji often wondered what you were up to now. Were you married to someone and did you have kids? Did you think of him as much as he thought of you? Did you even think about him at all? Do you miss him like he misses you? He decided instead of wallowing in self pity to take a walk to clear his mind. The sun was out and there was a warm breeze. “It’s just like the first time we met” , he thought to himself. He was so caught up in his thoughts of you that he didn’t realize until it was too late that he wandered to the park where you two first met.
He looked over to the picnic table where you had your first conversation. His body went rigid and cold. He saw you sitting there, but you weren’t alone, there was someone else with you. He noticed how your hands were intertwined across the table. Your smile is still the same smile you gave him, all those years ago, only now it was directed towards someone else.
Shuji was just barely able to make out that you were wearing the earring that matches his that you gave to him all those years ago. He smiled at this, and he knows you haven't forgotten about him like he thought. His heart swelled with happiness and he fell in love with you all over again. The relationship between you two must have meant as much to you as it did to him.
That day he decided he would do everything in his power to get you back. He refused to let you slip away a second time. He turned on his heel and headed back to his apartment, where he was going to start planning on how to get you to love him once again.