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Okay so I have been having thoughts so I shall burden ya’ll with them.

1. Could Jesus… be considered a demigod/half blood?

2. If the religious fanatism of the Catholic/Christian movement hadn’t erased other religions to the point of calling them ‘Myths and Lore’… could an argument be done on behalf of Jesus’ conception being similar of that of Zeus’ previous known and preferred ways to conceived children?

3. The known oldest biblical texts in existence (the silver scrolls) are dated 700-650 BCE. Why is it that Christianism/Catholicism was allowed to continue to expand when at the same time in other parts of Europe and Africa (And possibly the early American cultures that no one know about but that possibly had their own deities) cultures had their own religions and gods that got erased and labeled as fake by Christianism/Catholicism?

4. Why does Christianism gets to erase other deities and proclaim theirs as the one true religion?

5. Like sure, we get the story of Jesus and what he did… but we also know of the stories of Perseus, Hercules, Jason, who were also sons of ‘gods’… what’s up with that?

6. The sumerian tablets (with their own mithology) predate the bible by about 3000 years. Why are those not deemed as real why call their content mythology?

7. I just want to know how Catholicism/Christianism managed to basically erase everything else and remain the one thing that’s considered ‘true’ faith.

Thank you for coming to my ted talk. If any of you have answers or thoughts that you might want to share. I am all ears (eyes).

My mate Azriel x reader

Okay, this was originally going to just be an idea sent to my friend, but then it got kind of out of hand🤣😅😅

*smut in between the ///////

apologies if the smut isn’t the best, I’m used to writing fully/angsty stuff <3

So basically, the idea is that y/n and her friend are at Rita’s, y/n is being cocky about how she can get anyone to go home with her, and that results in a bet :)

A/N I kinda changed about how the mating bond works, like when it snaps into place, and what usually occurs after cause ya girl needed some fluff <33 (don’t forget the soup 😉)

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“I’m telling you Luc, I could get any one of them to go home with me!” I exclaimed confidently, gesturing to the people around us. “Are you sure?? ANYONE??” Lucy leaned farther back into the cushions of the booth, taking a sip from her drink with an amused expression on her face. “yes! Anyone!” I threw my hands up defensively, rolling my eyes, blissfully unaware of the three males listening to us from the corner. Lucy looked around, for the poor soul that would fall victim to tonight’s bet. “Fine then y/n, I get to choose the male, and you have to take him home” Lucy grinned at her. “fine by me” I smiled back, drinking the rest of my drink, and shaking the other girls’ hand. I hummed softly, thinking the challenge was going to be easy, because I knew I had good skills, plus most of these men were drunk enough to not care about anything else anyway.

Lucy searched for a bit, looking for the perfect male, before her eyes settled on the three Illyrian men in the corner, who were curiously watching us. “Him.” Lucy pointed towards their table. Smirking confidently.

“who?-” I turned around to follow Lucy’s pointed finger, my eyes widened when i saw who the finger was pointing at. “LUC!” I squealed, sinking down into my seat, hiding from the gaze of the men a few tables away. “What?? Y/N, you said ANYONE” Lucy giggled, “Luc! You know I can’t talk to him! He’s- he’s-” I whined softly. She knew I liked him, I mean, who wouldn’t like him, he looked like a god. She did this on purpose and I know it. She just smiled, “maybe he’s your mate~” she laughed, and I just glared at her. “Yea right, as if I would be THAT lucky” I rolled my eyes, but not pushing the thought away. She laughed, standing up and walking away as unknown footsteps came closer. “Have fun~” Lucy waved over her shoulder as I backed farther into the booth, unsure who the footsteps belonged too.

I kept my gaze at the table until well after the footsteps stopped. When I finally dared to look up I was met with a pair of the most beautiful hazel eyes I’d ever seen. Standing, with his hands resting on the table, watching me with a certain look in his eye, that I just couldn’t place, was none other than Azriel, the shadowsinger. I tried to speak but no words were forming, and it didn’t help how amused he looked at my inability to speak. What did he want? Why was he here? Let alone SMILING at me!! I could’ve fainted right then.

it’s not that I wouldn’t love to take him home with me, he was so, so perfect. I had dreamed countless times of running my hands through his hair and kissing his lips, but now that he was here. Standing in front of me, wings slightly spread, shadow’s flitting about around him, the dream didn’t seem so out of reach. It was all I could do to make myself look away from his intense gaze. “Umm.. H-hello-..” I whispered, barely loud enough to hear. I giggled softly at a cool feeling on my arm, when looking to investigate, there was a shadow swirling around my hand and wrist. The feeling was odd, unknown, but not unwelcome. It felt cool, but still warming, I smiled softly, then felt my head being tilted up. I tensed, my eyes being met with very close hazel ones. Azriel must have sat down at some point while I was distracted.

“hello darling~ And what’s your name?” he purred softly, looking down at me, smiling. I gulped “y/n…” smiling nervously, I now wished I hadn’t finished my drink from earlier. “Y/n.. suck a lovely name” be brushed the hair from my face. Gah! Where was Lucy when I needed her?! I looked around frantically for her, trying to ignore the male sitting awfully close to me. I sighed, smiling softly when I found Lucy dancing freely, almostnat one with the music and her drink in hand. Enjoying herself, and surrounded by people. Just the way she liked it. I steadied my breathing, glancing back to Azriel “should you not be with your friends?” I asked, tilting my head, and gesturing to the now empty table, confused as to where the other two went. Before I could question, he answered me. “Your company seemed better” he shrugged, running a hand through his hair. I had to refrain from reaching up and brushing the hair from his face. “Can I show you something?” He asked, tilting his head slightly. I glanced to where Lucy was now sitting “I- I mean…”I chewed softly on my lip. This could be my chance, but i didn’t want to leave my friend. “Okay..” I said, softly smiling at him. He grinned, getting out of the booth, standing up, and waiting for me to get up. “Let me tell Lucy I’m leaving. She’ll have a fit otherwise” I pointed towards Lucy, walking over ‘she’s gonna have a fit over who I’m leaving with.. that’s for sure..’ I put my hands on Lucy’s shoulder’s, giggling when she jumped out of her seat into a weak fighting stance “woah, easy soldier” I waited for her to sit back down before telling her I was leaving, covering my ears and walking away before I had to endure her squealing. “Okay, we can go now.” I smiled softly, brushing past Azriel and outside into the cool night. “it’s faster if we fly.” I heard a voice behind me, only moments before I was scooped off the ground. Startled, I clung onto his neck. He just chuckled at me “you’re not afraid of heights. Right?” He smirked again. Oh how I wanted to wipe that smirk off of his face. “No.” I said defensively, huffing. His only response was a soft laugh before we shot into the sky. I screamed, clinging to him tighter, not used to flying in someone’s arms. “something wrong darling?~” he purred as he leveled the flying. “Fuck off..” I grumbled, daring to look around, gasping softly at how small everything looked from above, still being able to make out some of the places in Velaris that I frequently visited. After a few more moments of flying, we landed on a balcony. Confused, I looked up to Az for an explanation “look y/n” he extended his arm outwards, off the edge of the balcony. When I looked out, I saw the most amazing view of Velaris, I didn’t want to stop looking “it’s beautiful-…” I said quietly, wishing to capture that view in my head forever. “Just like you,” he stopped next to me, seeming like he wanted to say more, but just stood silently. I glanced up at him “you haven’t been this quiet all night” I tilted my head at him, smiling at how peaceful he looked. There was a certain kind of spark in his eye that matched perfectly with the smile on his lips. It was everything I could do to not wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him. I had hoped that’s why he brought me here, and I’d waited for so long, what was waiting a while longer.

It was as if he read my mind because suddenly there were a pair of strong hands on my waist and warm lips on mine. I melted into the kiss, wrapping my arms around his neck, pulling him closer. I had waited so long for this moment, and I never wanted it to end. I ran my fingers through his hair, and it was so much softer that I could have imagined. He bit softly at my bottom lip, and I gladly parted them, letting his tongue explore the inside of my mouth.

I wanted to whine when we had to part to breathe. I missed the taste of his lips, it was intoxicating.

When I looked up to him, he was breathing heavier, more uneven. He had a look in his eyes that was drastically different from before, darker, there was a different intent in those hazel eyes. When I tried to pull away from him, it felt like there was a string tugging my heart back towards him. His hands tightened their grip on my waist as if I was the only thing keeping him centered in the moment. “Can I?..” he look down at me, and I nodded, knowing what he meant. “Az!” I squeaked when he suddenly picked me up, carrying my away from the edge of the balcony and into what appeared to be his bedroom. I was going to make a joking comment about how he didn’t even get me dinner first.

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My thoughts were interrupted when I was pressed against the wall, and his lips were attached to my neck, kissing and biting against the skin. His hands found their way up my back and to the lacing of my dress, quickly untying it and pulling it off. I tried to watch where it went, but the rest of the room was too dark, and my attention had been drawn back to Azriel’s hands now freely roaming my body. “Azriel~” I whined, the ache in my core growing with each second. His hands stopped as he gently set me on the floor, trailing kisses down my neck, chest, and abdomen, until he was on his knees on the ground. Never in my life had I thought the Illyrian male would be on his knees for someone. Let alone me. Before I could process anything more, he had one of my legs slung over his shoulder, kissing and biting at my inner thigh.

My underwear had to be soaked by now, and by the look he had just given me, they were. I blushed bright red, opening my mouth and starting to say something, being interrupted once again, this time by Azriel licking a long, slow strip up my core. I gasped, arching my back off the wall, melting into his touch. The shadowsinger had since removed the rest of my clothing, pulling my other leg over his shoulder. He placed gentle kisses over the sensitive skin, chuckling at the soft whines it caused. He started kissing his way back up my body, his hands still lingering near my core. When he finally reached my mouth again, my legs were back around his waist. He brushed the hair out of my face, smirking at me. I was panting, I tilted my head, unsure what to make if his expression, when I felt two of his fingers enter into my core, the aching feeling leaving.

“Fuck!~” I grabbed onto him, nails digging into his shoulders. He held them still for a minute, before slowly moving them in and out. I was panting softly, still holding tightly onto him, his shadows swirling around us slowly. Soon I felt that familiar tension building inside, the chord tightening “Azriel~” I whined softly, trying to warn him. He must have known because he went back to kissing and sucking my neck. his fingers curled inside me moving faster as my climax neared. Then, the world around me shattered, it was pure bliss, and nothing like I’d ever felt before.

when I came back to reality, azriel was smiling at me. He kissed my forehead softly “good girl” he purred, slowly removing his fingers. I was panting, whining softly at the loss of his touch. I blushed bright red as he held eye contact with me as he brought his fingers to his mouth, licking them clean. It was as if he needed to remember this forever. Though I was embarrassed, the last thing I wanted to do was look away.

when he was done, he gently set my legs back onto the ground. ”more..please..” I looked up at him, pleading. I had always dreamt of him touching me like this, of him touching me at all, and I couldn’t help it. There was something that was tugging me to him. It was like I couldn’t get enough. he seemed to think for a moment.

“Bed. Now.” He growled, and had an almost predatory look in his eyes. I nodded, hurrying to the bed, not wanting to see him mad. Well, maybe I did want to see him mad..just not now..not in this moment

I was looking around, but it was too dark to see him until he was right next to the bed. I knew he looked good, but damn! He could’ve been a god with a body like that. I let my eyes wander all over his body, smiling softly. I looked up to him “ they weren’t wrong about an Illyrians wingspan correlating to other parts” I giggled, brushing stray hair out of his face, feeing that tug on my heart string again. He just chuckled, climbing on the bed, and getting in between my legs. “Sweetheart, they weren’t wrong about many things” he kissed my lips again, positioning himself. He brushed the hair out of my face, smiling at me “so beautiful” he whispered, slowly entering, stopping every so often to make sure I wasn’t hurt.

Once the whole way in, he stopped, checking to see that I wasn’t in pain. When I tugged him closer to kiss him again, he started moving, his pace was slow at first, watching my pained expressions turn into ones of pleasure. I took a risk and lightly ran one of my fingers against his wing. He groaned, shuddering. “I guess they weren’t wrong about much, two for two” I giggled when he suddenly started to pick up speed, and my whines turned into full on moans.

I didn’t know how much longer I could hold on “Az!~” I arched my back off the bed as he hit the perfect spot. He positioned himself so he would hit that spot with every thrust. I could feel the tension building, threatening to snap “Az~fuck~close~” I whined, wrapping my legs around his waist “already princess?~” he chuckled, leaning down to whisper in my ear “cum for me~” he bit softly at my earlobe, and that sent me over the edge. My world shattered again, and I think I saw stars, a few thrusts later and Azriel came too. He let me ride out my high, before slowly pulling out. He leaned down to gently kiss me.

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“Do you want a bath?” He asked gently, and I nodded, too tired, and stunned to speak. Had that really just happened? I couldn’t believe it. As he walked away it felt as though that string on my heart snapped into place. I knew what it meant, it had felt just as though my sister had described it to me, but it couldn’t be. He couldn’t be my mate.

I shut my eyes, almost ready to let sleep take over when a pair of arms, one under my waist, and the other behind my knees, lifted me off the bed. I whined softly in protest, opening my eyes slightly, I was met with two warm hazel eyes, and a soft kiss on the forehead.

“are you okay?” Azriel asked as he gently lowered me into the tub. The hot water felt like heaven, and I wanted to wrap myself in it like a blanket. I hummed, nodding softly in response “just perfect..” I yawned again, sleep still wanting to take over “tired..but perfect” i smiled, rubbing my eyes to get rid of the tired. Azriel laughed , sitting beside the tub in case I needed anything. He had already brought me water, and some snacks “ooh! Food” I exclaimed happily, eating some, then sinking back into the tub, watching the steam.

“why,” I sighed, thinking of my wording “why DID you come up to me tonight at Rita’s?” I looked over to Az, meeting his gaze and waiting for an answer. “I-“ he stopped to think “you just seemed..” he stopped. I tilted my head curiously “you looked so beautiful, I couldn’t help myself. Plus when I overheard what you said to your friend..who was it..Lucy?? I just couldn’t help myself” he grinned and I splashed water at him in a response. After a bit longer in the water, when my hips had stopped hurting and my body relaxed, I looked up Azriel who had stood back up “towel please..” I whined softly, waiting as he grabbed a towel form seemingly nowhere and unfolded it so I could wrap myself in it. I gladly took the towel, wrapping it around myself. he picked me back up without saying anything and carried me back to his room.

after he gave me clothes to wear, that were bigger than I’d thought they’d be, I turned to look at him. “Earlier.. you said you heard what I said to Luc at Rita’s.. eavesdropping isn’t very gentleman like you know” I stuck my tongue out at him. “oh no..what ever will I do..” he rolled his eyes, chuckling. My heart strings tugged forwards again, wanting to be closer to him, to hold onto him.

I wondered if he felt the same tug that I did, but with that mask over his face, I couldn’t always tell what he was feeling. I debated wether to say anything, or to just ignore it. I thought of how my sister and her mate found out, which I guess this was a better outcome than that.. but I didn’t want to accept it. I couldn’t accept it, for fear he wouldn’t. I should say SOMETHING about it. Lucy would kill me if I told her that I didn’t tell him…

I must have had some expressing on my face cause I felt a warm hand against the side of my face, i immediately leaned into the welcoming, safe touch. “Do..do you feel it too??…” I said, barely above a whisper. Azriel tilted his head “Hm?” My heart sunk a little “the, the tug..” I muttered, looking up at him, tears forming in the corners of my eyes. He studied my face, his etched with concern. “Hey, don’t cry” he wiped the tears that dared fall from my eyes “I felt it too, I felt it long before I talked to you..” he pulled me closer.

“I’ve waited so long for this..” I muttered, holding tightly onto him, almost afraid it would all disappear. “Me too y/n..me too..” he replied, kissing me gently. I pulled away slightly “does that mean you’re-“ he cut me off my putting a finger over my lips “yes, it means I’m your mate” I grinned into his chest, my heart sang happily my mate my mate my Mate. He laid down onto his bed. I wondered when the sheets had gotten changed. ‘House magic’ I assumed. He ran his hands through my hair, holding me close to him, his wings curled around us, shadows calming down. I shut my eyes, finally welcoming the darkness of sleep.

I awoke with a jolt, unsure of where I was, and panicked. These weren’t my clothes, this was my bed, OR my room. And my house doesn’t smell like Cedar and cinnamon. I sat up as both memories from the previous night, and a pounding headache came flooding in. I groaned, burying my face back into the pillows.

there was a soft knock on the door, and after a few seconds I could hear it opening. “Y/n, Love, It’s almost noon, I brought you some soup.” I opened my eyes, smiling softly at the man in front of me. My mate. I still couldn’t believe it. I forced myself to sit up, happily taking the soup and eating it, slowly letting the thoughts of last night in “LUCY!” I yelled frantically, looking up at Az “oh cauldron! Lucy’s gonna be so worried!” I set the tray down and started to get up, but two strong hands pushed be back to sitting “Y/N, calm down, it’s okay. Cass and rhys told her you were staying at the house with us.” Great..and I thought I could get away without telling her everything for a bit longer.. “I’m sorry for them” I laughed softly, Azriel looked confused “she squeals..really..REALLY loud when she’s excited about something.” I grinned, at the look on his face. He nodded with understanding. “The other’s are downstairs If you wanna go down, or we could just stay up here?” He offered, waiting for a decision, stretching his wings out. Could I meet them? Would they want to meet me? I thought about it for a bit, deciding I should meet them now rather than prolonging it. “Okay..” I said nodding. Standing up “I’d like to meet them..” he kissed me gently, taking my hand and walking down the stairs.

never had I thought last night was going to go as well as it did. Nor had I thought Lucy was going to be right. I steadied my breath as we walked into the room. I was finally going to meet the Inner circle.

I kept my gaze steady on the ground as we walked in, I could hear the talking get quieter as we approached the table. I held tighter onto Azriel, glancing up at the other’s. “Hello..I’m-..” I took a deep breath “I’m y/n” I smiled softly, studying everyone’s faces. Feyre and Mor looked the most excited, Cassian seemed intrigued and Rhys nodded politely, smiling. It was all I could do to not hide behind my mate.

we sat down at the table, and everyone continued their previous conversation, Feyre and Mor bombarding me with questions. Not to be rude, just curious. I answered them to the best of my abilities. The eventually left me alone, questions ceasing.

i grabbed Az’s hand underneath the table. Squeezing it gently, I leaned closer, yawning. He looked at me, his hazel eyes sparkling. Squeezing my hand back, and kissing my forehead.“Tired love?” He whispered softly, I nodded, groaning in response. “I’m sorry, I can’t keep my lady up” he shrugged, grinning, and standing up, picking me up with him.

his lady

the words rang in my ears, my face and ears burning slightly. I smiled, holding tighter onto him as he walked back up the stairs. I was almost asleep as he walked back into his room, gently laying my on the bed, sitting next to me, and gently rubbing my back “go to sleep love” he Purred softly as I patted the spot next to me, wanting to be closer to him. “Lay” I whined softly, pouting out my bottom lip.

he chuckled quietly, laying in the vacant spot on his bed. I happily rolled over, laying my head on his chest, feeing his arms wrap protectively around me. “You’re never leaving me now. You’re stuck with me..foreverrr!”He exclaimed squeezing me lightly, making me giggle. “I don’t know, forever seems like a long time” I leaned up, kissing him gently. “But with you, forever isn’t long enough.” I smiled, laying my head back on his chest, sighing happily.

I couldn’t have asked for anything more. I could have wished on all the stars in Velaris and never even dreamt this could happen. I found him, my mate…I couldn’t wait to tell Lucy, but for now, Az felt so warm and sleep was so welcoming. ‘Tomorrow’ I thought. I’ll tell her tomorrow…

A/N: okay, this was a lot longer than I originally intended, and it spieled off more than I thought. Why does my writing just end up showing what I want in a relationship.. damn I’m lonely…😭😭<3

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