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[system-vent]

Positive Vent, no TWs I think

My system has this really tight-knit group of friends. Four, including me, are systems, and one is a singlet.

These people are literally my entire fucking world. I love them so so much. We’ve all been through a lot of shit on our own and together and I am still just like so in love with all of them. And this isn’t romantic love (minus my partner sys who’s also in this group) I just fucking love them so much they’re such amazing people and I love having them as friends so much

One of my sys friends and I share a commute every morning where we go insanely autistic and info dump about our special interests to each other and I can’t fucking explain how much I love that interaction I have with them every morning and like I find myself genuinely looking forward to seeing them so I can rant about the blorbos and they rant about the squishies and like we aren’t even really in the others fandom and yet we’re both completely literate in the lore n shit and then I also love one of my other sys friends because whenever we’re left unsupervised we will start saying the craziest shit to each other and it always ends in my stomach hurting from how hard I laugh with them and then I love my partner sys because even when they’re having their own issues they continue to see the positive and they are always so so so transparent about things and I can just tell them anything and I know that they might not understand but they sure as hell do get it. And then my non sys partner who is literally one of my favorite people in the entire world because they may not be a system but they are platonically dating two systems and best friends with another two and I love how they know exactly what to do for each person whenever we’re struggling and one of my alters was literally best friends with them before they went dormant for two years and when they fronted for the first time again recently they immediately noticed and said ‘hey [alter]’

Auhfjnejsjxe I’m so used to having toxic or strained relationships and so having this amazing support system (haha get it) is literally the best part about my life and I love every single person so so so much in so many different ways

Also if anyone who is mentioned in this post clocks who wrote this, nuh uh

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[system-vent]

More of a pos vent if anything, but we feel like we are finally getting our life back together.

Our host made a council (between them and the other/previous hosts and managers) to better manage the system and one of the newer protectors (Animatic) has actually been helping with communicating problems between us and our psys. Even our most unstable alter is finally taking better care of herself.

We came out to our grandmother recently about our DID too and unlike our mother she's actually very supportive about it. Life feels good right now

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[peace-and-light-poetry]

"Perhaps, art is useful, after all."

She had certain ideations They were just there but she had them Nonetheless

She practically forfeited art After all, it was useless to do And it wasn't paying bills

(passions are useless, pragmatics are necessary)

Still, in her visions, She pictured herself lying lifeless Among some kind of plants

Perhaps, in art, she could Die a hundred times, with each portrayal Such wouldn't be out of the ordinary

(being so Death-obsessed, otherwise)

Her agreement with Death meant she'd wait Wait until it was time to be collected However, art wasn't limited to that, at least

No, in art, she could Could kill herself, again and again In any way she chose

In obsessive-intrusive visions, She's died multiple times

She had certain ideations And only the will to keep breathing (not one to live—Breathing is an involuntary response)

Yet, still, persisted

So, perhaps, in a twisted sense, Art did have a purpose, after all.