I wish sexuality made sense and that there were less labels to confuse myself with because I first thought I was bi because I crushed on girls and boys all through my childhood, then just lesbian because ugh no dudes and that was the case for a while and took me ages to accept about myself, but also I was very ‘ugh no’ about sex and I still can’t fathom the concept of an irresistible need for sex, at best sex seems like it could be somewhat entertaining and at worst do NOT TOUCH ME I’d sooner be stabbed than have sex
but then people are fucking pretty. There are an unbearable amount of beautiful, pretty girls everywhere but there are also really, really pretty dudes and everyone is fucking pretty
there’s probably some obscure label I’ve not yet heard of to explain all of this but the thing is my family and friends all think I’m a lesbian because... well that’s what I thought I was. But I can’t be a lesbian because I don’t just love women, men are freaking artwork too
I kinda want to undo the last year of telling people one thing about myself because I know my mother is just going to be so smug and ‘I told you so’ about the lesbian thing. I definitely prefer women, I know that, god they’re stunning and I feel comfortable with them.
I read an article saying that your sexuality can also be explained by who you envision yourself with in fantasies and ??? I??? don’t??? I literally never picture myself in situations
I feel like because I’m in my twenties I should already have this all figured out, and I thought I did, so now I just feel dumb as shit and a fraud for not having a clue
all I can conclude is people are pretty and sex ain’t shit