@nostrike : ‘ do you wanna hold him? here, it's okay! just support the neck like . . . yeah, there you go! you got it! ’
first time parents ; accepting.
𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝘀𝘂𝗿𝗽𝗿𝗶𝘀𝗲𝗱 𝘀𝗵𝗲 𝗵𝗮𝗱𝗻'𝘁 𝗶𝗺𝗺𝗲𝗱𝗶𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗹𝘆 𝗸𝗶𝗰𝗸𝗲𝗱 𝗵𝗶𝗺 𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗼𝗻𝗰𝗲 𝘀𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗶𝘀𝗲𝗱 𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲, especially since he had actually missed the birth and as much as he had snuck in here late last night to get to see his little boy for the first time, he had come back the next morning, freshly showered and only a little hungover. johnny could only imagine how mad she was at him, but right now, she wasn’t showing it and allowed him to come and sit near her as she fed robby. what he didn’t expect was for her to try to give him the baby before he could even say. robby was so tiny, so little and new, what if he hurt him? but before he could protest, robby was placed in his arms, all tiny and warm, looking up at him with those big blue eyes and he had to try and hide all his fear deep down elsewhere. robby was so beautiful, so small in his arms with little mess of hair that looked sort of blonde and johnny knew he had never loved anything more than he did his own son in that moment. looking up at shannon, his own blue eyes wide with a mix of fear, anxiety and just an overwhelming feeling of love, “ he’s beautiful. he looks like you, he’s got your eyes, ” johnny says softly, unsure of what exactly to say to her. how could he even begin to explain how sorry he was? he should’ve been here for her. the fact he had sat in that cafe across from the hospital, just willing himself to walk in and be there for the birth of his son. he missed it and he couldn’t even explain why. johnny had been a wreck since his mom had passed away just before christmas and he was letting everyone down in his life, especially shannon who probably wouldn’t ever forgive him for missing this, “ i’m sorry i wasn’t here. i don’t have a good excuse and i don’t expect you to forgive me . . . i’m just sorry, ”
