#not dissociative

[nonmillennialstruggling]

Denial Day

I don’t feel like a system today and don’t think I have OSDD.  Also I don’t think I have enough amnesia to count as a 1a system but I sure as hell don’t have differentiated parts, therefore I’m not dissociaitive.

[nonmillennialstruggling]

Quitting therapy

Content note:  Going without therapy or health insurance

Today in therapy my counselor said she was walking a tightrope of not destabilizing me so much that I can’t do all the things on my schedule but that it meant we were only doing superficial work.  In her ideal world I would do less things and we would go deeper in therapy.  I need a break from these weekly sessions.  I emailed to say I was putting weekly sessions on hold and I think I should stop altogether when my current health insurance runs out, if not before.  I don’t see the point of therapy (for myself).  Never have, never will.  She says she has become more convinced that I have a dissociative disorder but I know that I’m not a system.  I don’t have amnesia and I always identify as me.  I’m also thinking that I won’t get health insurance when the current one runs out because it’s expensive and it would be good for me to not be on all the meds I take anyway.  I still have to email to get out of the DBT group I started attending.  It is way too process-y, has very little focus on actual skill building, and I don’t feel comfortable in the group.