#not stims

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part 2 of this. once again not a stim and tadc spoilers

I guess we're doing TADC critical here now

I just wanna expand and put images of Jax being a dick here since I didn't bother to take screenshots of it before other than at one point. and the dialogue in order I guess.

fantasy where Ragatha abstracts:

Pomni: Jax, just know I'm by your side. And if you need anything or if you need to talk to someone, you can count on me. I know that you need it.

Pomni: And I'm the only one who can help you with this. You need me. I'll fix you!

(that scene where he chokes her out)

Jax: Hey! Did you forget that we don't die from lack of oxygen?

fantasy where Zooble abstracts:

Gangle: Come on, guys! Come on! Cheer up! We're going to throw the best funeral of all! This would be Zooble's wish. And remember, we shouldn't mourn death, we should celebrate life!

(Jax shows up)

Gangle: Jax! Why are you wearing that?

Jax: Wearing what? Oh, this! I thought there was no better way to commemorate them than embracing this weird non-binary thing.

Gangle: You're wearing that just to mock Zooble!

Jax: Isn't that what you're doing?

Gangle: Jax, I, I, I hate you!

Jax: What's wrong? Don't act like you don't like it, kitten. Come to my room after the funeral. Don't be late, okay?

(Everyone stares at Gangle after that happens)

Gangle: What are you doing? Go back to your work!

fantasy where Gangle abstracts:

Zooble: You killed the only person I ever loved in my life! Now I'm going to kill you, Jax!

Jax: Come on, you're always blaming me for everything, what's this for?

(Zooble swaps their hands out for chainsaws and runs at Jax. Jax reacts with his eyes popping out of his head, floating mid air, and acting all shocked)

Jax: We have to do something, right?

(Jax pauses time)

Jax: I think this calls for a change of scenery.

(He makes the background into the edge of a cliff positioned so when he unpauses time, Zooble will fall. Zooble floats mid-air for a bit before changing their hand back to normal to hold up a sign that says "YIKES!" before falling)

Jax: That's all for today, folks!

[crossroads-stimz]

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This is our only tumblr account and so my only place to put my thoughts and I am Opinionated. I know no one will see this or care but I have moral OCD and my brain tells me I need to make my stances clear or else I’m a bad person.

None of this is up for debate either. I am not open to someone trying to change my mind. I’m a grown adult who’s had a lot of experience in the real world and that has shaped my opinions in ways that social media will not affect. If any of this offends you, block me and move on. Tumblr is meant to be a curated experience, after all, and if I’m not a part of your curated experience, that’s totally okay.

Syscourse under the cut

As a DID system myself, I’m not *against* the existence of endogenic systems. Who knows, maybe that is possible, idk, the human brain is so complex and weird that it could be. Plus I don’t see any major harm people identifying as endogenic so long as they recognize the differences between being an endo system and being a dissociative system and respect that.

My biggest gripe with endos is the fact that some of them misuse and appropriate terms meant for trauma survivors. Also trying to convince others that they’re also endogenic systems, it’s ignorant at best and insidious at worst- you’re not a therapist or psychiatrist or neurologist, do not try to convince someone coming to terms with severe childhood trauma that actually they were born like this. It makes it so much harder to recover and escape ongoing abuse and actively makes excuses for abusers- ‘it wasn’t that bad, I was born a system, my abuse wasn’t bad enough to cause a dissociative disorder’.

Willogenics, meanwhile, are just despicable to me. It’s one thing to say you’re born with a certain weird brain disorder, it’s another to claim you willed it into existence. And so many willogenics also literally make ‘alters’ for sale or take requests on designing headmates for other people and it actually makes my stomach fucking turn. How dare you. I’m an alter, me and my system have gone through hell, we are people with independence and hopes and dreams and you can’t just fucking design someone to trade and buy and sell as you fucking please. It astonishes me to see people say ‘transIDs DNI’ but still allow willos to interact because they’re literally just cosplaying having a disorder, how is that any fucking different??

For the record, I don’t think people should attack each other over this. I understand that other DID/OSDD systems like myself get defensive and upset, with good reason- this is a life-altering, difficult, painful, terrifying disorder caused by significant childhood trauma. However, you shouldn’t go attacking every single endogenic or willogenic system you see. If you see them spreading misinformation or doing harmful things, then call them out, absolutely, but don’t send death threats, don’t send insults, and don’t send equally inaccurate information. Call them out, then block and move on, because if someone is spreading harmful misinformation and rhetoric online, I sincerely doubt anyone will be able to convince them with a single anon telling them they’re being ableist.

EDIT: I had no idea system hopping wasn’t a term unique to RAMCOA systems. I’ve seen RAMCOA systems use it and resonate with it so much that I admittedly assumed it was a CDD term. Thank you to those who educated me!

I stand by my opinion on willogenics though. The term is dangerous at best and I frankly don’t think that a CDD system can manifest alters the way that willos claim you can. Plus the issue isn’t that there are CDD systems who use the term, it’s people literally cosplaying having a CDD/DID/OSDD.

[hadalstims]

AAAND the secret boss series is done! Until future chapters, anyway.

I made the Pink one first but we didn't wanna post them out of order loll

[foreverkitty]

everyones done!

[paintmixing]

The time for grieving it has well and truly passed so from this point onwards if harry potter blogs or people that post harry potter content as a fandom follow this blog or interact with posts I’m blocking on sight. I, as a trans person, do not feel comfortable tolerating that anymore. I want to feel comfortable in this space, I want other people to feel comfortable in this space.

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Quick survey to test the waters: who out of my followers would be interested in me starting to make my own gifs/stimboards? I would probably take requests for specific boards as well as doing whatever inspires me. Let me know if this sounds appealing, or if you're just here for the reblogs. Keep in mind that I would still be posting mostly the same stuff, just with a little original content!