January, February, March, summer! –Everybody must love summer, especially students like me, but except me, I guess so. In my family’s tradition, summer means outing and outing means swimming, and I am a total non-swimmer!
Well, to share my experience, what I do when we are on an outing is spending the whole day at the cottage. There, I eat- Eat a lot. I also take some photos of the beautiful sceneries, theirs and so mine. Sometimes, I go near the shore. Either I take a walk or just sit on a rock with some music on and lastly, the one that I absolutely hate is I become everybody’s yaya so I usually sleep or pretend sleeping.
But this summer, instead of doing what I am supposed to do, I decided to do something different. I stepped out of the cottage and went to the water for about 4 feet, I think. From the best of my knowledge, I came up with my own steps. “Breathe in, hold and jump,” my mind kept on reminding me to float facing the sun. Doing the three steps, instead of seeing me to float, water just went through my nostrils and eventually, I sank. But that did not divert me from achieving my goal so, I continued. I repeated the steps all over again. Unfortunately, I only ended up sinking. There, I realized that there must be wrong inside me. I got tired.. I cried and gave up because I cannot figure it out so I just headed off to the cottage and forget about trying.
It is like us facing our problems. We fix it alone; deal with it on our own maybe due to some reasons like proving something, showing a sign of independency or maturity- to name a few. Yes, these are not bad but you know, “Two is better than one”. Allow someone to help you, guide you, teach you.. You do not need to shoulder everything. Let someone to carry some things for you.
And somebody came who gave me a hand and that was the moment I did my very first “not so long” float under the blue and clear sky. I felt relief.