#notfeelingmybest

[lanegrablues]

Attention & Focus

I am having a hard time focusing. I guess I am now dealing with the impacts of my assault and trying to maneuver through my new reality. I hate to admit it, but I will probably never be the same. My perspective is different. My feelings toward the opposite sex has changed. My value and view of my self-worth has shifted. I know that I am in a spiritual battle that I have to fight through, but I feel powerless. I feel like I am fighting for my voice to be heard, but it keeps bouncing off of the walls - I feel misunderstood. I feel so weak. I feel so stupid. I feel like I am in a fight - fighting to the death - fighting for my life. Fighting to not "opt" out.

I have to live and live abundantly. I want to live and live abundantly. I know that the enemy does not want me to... which is why I have to claw & scratch to make it through. He would not be pressing me so hard, if I didn't have a call on my life or a purpose that would change my life/the lives of others.

I say all of this to say... that I am NOT going to give up and neither should you. LET'S FIGHT!

[palettepainter]

Vent

[jaclynbailey13]

So, how is your day going? Mine is currently not great. Yesterday, about 3 hours after I took my last antibiotic for strep throat, my fever came back and my throat and soft pallet swelled until I couldn’t even swallow my own saliva. My fever stopped some time last night, but I haven’t had any real food in over 24 hrs and I haven’t been able to swallow water without aspirating my fluids. So I went to work with Owen today and he got me an appointment. The doctor took one look down my throat and immediately sent for the ENT specialist. He thinks I might have an abscess in my tonsil or possibly the surrounding area. They did a throat swab, which almost made me hurl, and definitely made me cry. Then they sent me to onsite urgent care to get an iv for dehydration, a pain injection, a steroid injection and a super strong antibiotic drip. Now I’m just waiting for my ct, and for them to figure out how much pain meds it’s gonna take for me to be able to open my mouth without crying so I can go back to the ENT specialist. #kaiserpermanente #entspecialist #ivdrip #notfeelingmybest (at Kaiser Permanente) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq8ULQUFGzB/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1mwpv5p616s1e

[suiriswhite]

Wow, 2 days without posting.. sounds ridiculous but I think I actually never had such a long break.🙈 So first of all: Happy Monday! I also wanna say thank you again for all the recovery wishes I received, they made me really happy.💕 The weather here right now is soo beautiful!❄ Fresh snow and lots of sunshine but sadly I'm stuck inside all day long.😓 So if you don't know, I'm currently sick with the flu. I believe it's an actual flu as I don't have any signs of the usual cold such as cough and stuffy nose but all symptoms of a flu. It all started on Friday and I guess the worst day was on Saturday when I barely could get out of bed and slept for about 20h.😴 While today I'm not feeling as bad as on Saturday (although now I also have stomach cramps, yay..), there's no way I'm able to go to work, instead I'll be going to the doctor later to get a sick leave. And well, this sucks. I only have 4 weeks of work left and you can imagine what this looks like to others.. "So she only has a few weeks left and now plays being sick.." I don't even wanna know the talking that may be going on behind my back and I shouldn't care at all tbh, I know it's not true and that's all that matters. Hope you're all having a good start into this week, a better one than me.😉 . . . #monday#sick#ill#beingsick#flu#fever#freshweek#recovering#realtalk#notfeelingmybest#toughtimes#selfcare#notthebeststart#winter#winterwonderland#frozen#motherearth#spirituality#yourownmagic#connectwithnature#nature#natureheals#neverstopexploring#wildheart#wildchild#freespirit#divine_forest (hier: Somewhere on Earth)

[kyralanae-blog1]

Me: 😷Back up, Bri. I'm not feeling well and I don't want you to get what I have. Bri: What do you have, diabetes? Me: No, I don't have diabetes. Bri: Oh. 🤔Where do they get this from? Lol She's making me a card now. ☺️#kidssaythedarndestthings #shessocute #shesalwaysthinkingofme #iloveyouBri #notfeelingmybest #Godsstillgood #encouragement #KyraLanae ps-if you have diabetes, I'm praying for the manifestation of your healing and the wisdom to do what you can do to obtained your desired results in Jesus' name. #diabetes #Godisahealer

[transcendingdimensions22]

Them days when you just feel a little heart broken

[toughlilkitty-blog]

It's Friday and I'm feeling not so good! I don't have time to get sick got so many things to do!!! #Friday #gottopushthrough #notfeelingmybest #coffee #coffeefirstplease (at California State University, Long Beach)