#nothing remarkable

[ryan-sometimes]

So I’m an AFAB enby right. So I just had this dream last night that my nudes were leaked, which is already wack because I’ve never taken one. But here’s the weird part: in my nudes I had a dick. Everything else about my body was the exact same, boobs and all. I just had a dick between my legs.

Idk how to interpret that

[anadorablekiwi]

Brain malfunctioning

Thoughts broken

Anxiety constant

Trigger unknown

Solution also unknown

[nururu]

main characters get killed off so easily in chainsaw man and like the whole time the storys like "everyone dies all the time" so it's not like you're not expecting it.... but then they die and they're like just actually dead and not coming back and u don't even get time to mourn... like honestly it's kind of genius bc you're being forced to be on the same page as the characters & u just have to get over it and keep going

[illimitablespaces]

Dear Reader, not much of an update, but something nonetheless.

I have been away from this space for a while, in part hopeful that I might focus on bettering myself and feeling some semblance of normalcy.

Unfortunately, this has not been the case.

I am more exhausted than before, and I no longer harbor any hope. All actions are almost automatic, as mental clarity and reasoning have all but disappeared from me.

Tomorrow is another day is a punitive sentence.

In a last ditch effort to cling to this sorry thing I call my life, my partner has helped me with scheduling an initial consultation for ECT. Now, I'm sure this conjures up scenes from popular media as a barbaric and torturous treatment but it is, in actuality, quite sedate and even unremarkable by medical standards.

After the initial administration of anesthesia and IV, the conductors are applied to the patient's head and, after observing the brain's wave activity, a psychiatrist determines the proper (and miniscule) electrical impulse to send, thereby stimulating the brain to return to "normal" wave activity. All this meant to "reset" the brain, in a way. This is all too brief and simplistic, but I hope you get the idea. It's not a shock or anything that would illicit anything or than the big toe to twitch ever so slightly. A dental appointment is more dramatic than this procedure.

So.. while I'm not expecting anything to come of this particular treatment, I've agreed to comply because I have tried so many avenues already (not exhaustive but enough to qualify for ECT).

After all appears lost, what else is left to lose?

It is my sincere hope you've been well, Reader, and taking the best of care--M

[squattingslag]

[clairles]

Oh my god there is this one guy in the entire universe who is 100% my type and I lowkey wanna cry every time i see his pics in the internet

[interclouds]

Six cryptarch packages and not one legendary engram out of them. I think I see why Bungie was okay with them not giving shards anymore.

[kitkatpurrpurr]

Wowee, I found Euipoi’s old posts on Therian Wilderness back when she was 17. Dang.