#notout

[lesbianwriterwannabe]

So I am not going away to college this year 

At all 

I feel like nothing is worth it anymore 

I just really wanted to get out of this fucking state 

out of this house 

To a live that might be worth living 

Where I can be gay and not be scared of my co-workers 

finding out 

Why? WHY?!  

I know my life is better than others 

But I can’t help it

I am jealous of people who were able to follow their dreams

Before the age of fucking 23 

I feel like a complete failure 

For not standing up to my mom 

When I was younger 

For not putting my foot down 

Saying I didn’t want to be ‘homeschooled’ 

Anymore 

My younger self fucked up my life 

[i-eat-therude]

“And where’s your BOYfriend?” is what she said

Nothing is what I said

Gay panic is what I had

[safehavenlgbtq]

LGBTQ+ Word of the Day: Beard. •A person of the opposite gender that dates/marries a closeted lesbian or gay man to cover up their homosexuality• #safehavenlgbtq #closeted #glbt #notout #girlswhokissgirls #guyswhokissguys

[dr-muddassirahmed]

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Out or Not Out? #cricket #cricketlovers #uaecricket #bowling #notout #ipl2021 #fastbowling #fastbolwer #cricdojo (at Dubai, UAE) https://www.instagram.com/p/COJKNNTgkoP/?igshid=1iquhbtd15b5s

[nug613]

#hairychest #hairy #fur #scruff #notout #bisexualmale #seperated #bear #beard https://www.instagram.com/p/CDOfyMBHhmRP_E4bllI8MSVxdzht4NgTz8wYUI0/?igshid=1x9fnxe6vvm73

[bethkipps]

Took a much needed day off got my steps in anything over 11,000 but for sure a slug day for me. Hopefully tomorrow I will be back on my usual game. I keep telling myself everybody needs a day just one..#training #achillescomback #notout #daybyday #stepbystep #fashiononashoestring (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CAoX3dpjEpi/?igshid=1rs8d3fuyxinz

[jonbizkit360]

Savages... only my fellow Fans are. Throw shit on the field. Geez. Regroup them Boone. DEFEND the BRONX. #Yankees #loss #down. #notout #itaintovertillitsover (at Las Vegas, Nevada) https://www.instagram.com/p/B3qRKDnhIcM/?igshid=1cdmjbst799bk

[figureitoutjacques-blog]

So...new account, first post. I don’t know who will read this or even care; but, I need a place to tell my story. 

I watched a movie last night (if you know the reference in my username, you know which one); it got all the emotions brewing and left me feeling confused. So here I am.

I am 36 and gay. I am married to a lady and have two kids. I have a boyfriend and am only out to my wife and brother. None of my friends or colleagues have a clue. Wife is supportive (at least she acts like it), and boyfriend is here for me.

Sounds like the perfect set-up right? Well no. I have not ever been able to be me, my whole life is a lie, one carefully planned move after another. I’ve been left wondering what would have happened if I had chosen a different path. I'm confused as heck.

Well until next time...

Love, Jacques.