how have npd symptoms been post-fusion?
Honestly most of my NPD-like symptoms have been in remission far longer than my DID symptoms have been so it's kinda hard to tell. I do think I'm able to keep myself more in check and catch myself sooner when I'm about to engage in maladaptive habits, especially the more manipulative and overtly narcissistic behaviors. It has also made me a lot more self-assured and at ease with my narcissistic traits, to the point I don't feel like I need to, as an example, fish for compliments for people and instead notice when I'm hitting a crash and seek supply in a healthier manner, be that creating something I can be proud of and showing it to the people I care about or cuddling my partners and asking them what they like about me or even just sitting with my feelings and letting myself be upset and know it's a temporary state for both my feelings and my self-worth/self-esteem. I also have a stronger inherent sense of self-confidence, which I already had pre-final fusion due to working through all that, but post-fusion I can feel... idk how to say this other than I can feel what the other me's like about me and feeling their admiration makes me feel good about myself which makes them feel good about themselves and we have a good feedback loop where we love on each other and thus love on ourselves and it's great and it just results in feeling a lot of self-love and really boosting my collective sense of self-confidence.
Though sometimes we end up getting our ego all inflated over something and our friends and partners have to pull our head down from the clouds and remind us that no we are not a god and yes we are still a silly and a dumbass 😂
