#ntbts fic

[caelowe]

Matt “You know you could just steal one, right?” Johnson ..

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[coffeetheband]

i made up a famous jay and wrote twenty thousand words here about him btw. i trapped his ass in 2008 :)

[robyns2010lp]

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ok i am Promoing my shit to the tags...

i have 4 loosely connected E rated oneshots (no plot throughline btwn them just same postcanon world)

good ol domestic stuff with themes of time and memory. latest one went up earlier this week :)

[kinnoth-2]

Haha yeah but what if you could never seem to do it right, protect yourself, get along, make people like you, make people understand you, what if you were never safe and then haha what if one day you're 12 and you meet another boy, and he's even more scared than you are, he's scared of everything, he's beautiful but nobody likes him, he's talented but nobody understands, but you like him, you understand, and you can make him feel safe, you're a child but you can stand in front of him with your child's body, you can protect him with your anger, your barbs find targets, your imagination creates a barrier, you give him everything. You love him and he needs you and you think, that can be enough. If the world lets you have this, you won't ask for anything else. You're a child, you're a child, you don't know, you don't ask. Years go by, time passes by, and you don't ask. As long as he needs you. As long as he'll let you. You don't ask.

You love him, so you don't ask.

Years go by. Time passes. Age creases you, shadows make roost within your eyes and you feel him looking at you, looking and then looking away. You catch him looking at himself.

One day you're 40 and you think he hates you and you die for him anyway, but he brings you back, and you don't know it, you don't know he loves you, you don't know he's choosing you too.

But he loves you, so he asks.

The world you promised you'd make no demands of gives you nothing back but disappointment and grief, but also him. It gave you him. He asks. He loves you.

And you've always given him everything.

[birdsfavouritegame]

Just uploaded the last chapter of my mattjay fic, it's now completed!

6/6 chapters, 25k words, rated E

Summary:

Two key truths had remained constant for Jay McCarrol since his childhood: one, Matt was always there; and two, Jay had no real sense of direction in his life. On the rare occasions in which he had allowed himself to reflect on it, Jay had always ended up reaching the same conclusion: a change in number one must be the key to changing number two. After experiencing a timeline without Matt at his side and making the decision to go back to set things right, though, Jay realizes how much he values the life that they have together, and it finally occurs to him that maybe the purpose that he’s been searching for his whole life has been right there in front of him the entire time. Or, Jay decides to propose to Matt.

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[casawio]

this must be the place

(final chapter of normal chords is out!)

[cottoncandysprite]

So what if Peanuts was butch4butch and Worse

I Will Never Be Your Type

Jay has a new capital-G Girlfriend, a proper femme. Matty has many issues with this. One is that she thought Jay was her femme. The other is that she could never be Jay's.

Chapter 1/4

Rating: Mature

Archive Warning: Graphic Depictions of Violence

Category: F/F

Fandom: Nirvanna the Band the Show

Relationships: Matt Johnson/Jay McCarrol (NTBTS), Jay McCarrol/Original Female Character (NTBTS)

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Gender Changes, Jealousy, Angst, Gender Dysphoria, Internalized Misogyny, Canon-Typical Behavior, tragic misunderstanding of butchfemme dynamics, Webshow Era, Suicidal Thoughts, Self Harm, Additional Tags To Be Added

[margaritaville]

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Nirvanna the Band the Show (Canada TV 2017) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Matt Johnson/Jay McCarrol (Nirvanna the Band the Show) Characters: Matt Johnson (Nirvanna the Band the Show), Jay McCarrol (Nirvanna the Band the Show) Additional Tags: Webseries, Somnophilia, Drunk Sex, Dubious Consent, Fighting as Foreplay, Blow Jobs, Face-Fucking, Hand Jobs, First Kiss, for the everything about this fic it really is kind of sweet Summary:

“What’re you gonna do to me?” he says, nervous, like Matt is a really nasty, evil guy. Matt frowns and thumbs at the bruise again in rebuttal. Jay hisses, eyes screwing shut. “Can you just be nice, Matt? For once in your life?”

“I am nice,” Matt says, shifting up to straddle him. “I’m about to do some really nice stuff to you.”

OR: Jay is getting drunk.