I am back in NYC. It’s been a slow few days and today my first baby of the spring will be on their way via induction.
I feel so settled in at home but externally so many things are changing. Friends are moving, family is in chaos, birthdays are booming, and I feel this wonky urge to hide under a rock while the dust settles.
For the first time in many years there’s no master plan, I have to classes to look forward to in the fall, babies being born each month, and this unwavering love for my work only grows year by year. But that’s all I have, my studies and my work which didn’t feel like a bad thing until I had a matchmaker reach out to me recently. A half hour phone call sent me into an existential crisis until I realized that nutty one in that phone call wasn’t me. I have decided no one is allowed to create panic in me especially unfounded. It’s not against the law to be single, and I’m really grateful I’ve only known my adult life solo because I don’t know anything else. It doesn’t feel “off” to me.
later in the day I went by a sample sale and found this cashmere set (orig $500+) that I had been eyeing online for some time!! I snagged it immediately and I’ve been cozy and content with my purchase. I rarely buy clothing so it feels extra special when I do.
my evening stop by Trader Joe’s meant I could pick up tulips for my living room! They’re bright pink.
today I’ll snooze. Inductions are like marathons so I am hydrating and preparing to have a long on-call day.