#nye.txt

[bleidd-drwg]

brain did Thing, had to share bc,,,,why not

dhawan!master's after missy, obv, and she died bc she was going back to 12 and knew staying w/ him was better he was born out of both extreme love and hatred for the doctor: love in that they (the master) finally do abandon everything they once were and finally do join the doctor's side, and hatred in that they're willing to end their existence in order to avoid joining the doctor's side; when a fair few masters' goals have been about survival and avoiding death. so to me, he does want to be by her side again, but then there's thing of "i nearly died coming back to you and i don't want that so Fuck You" kinda deal?????

i know this probably might not make much sense but like makes me kinda understand why dhawan!master is the way he is, ESPECIALLY after finding out abt the timeless child stuff too

[aliyswyn]

ik prolly noone'll see this bUt theres been a few updates to my life since i've last posted here

i dont worship hellenic deities anymore ://

i do, however, worship solely Gwyn ap Nudd! well, working on devoting myself to Him, if that makes any sense??

hopefully gonna be working w Him as well in the coming year!

thats the main stuff tbh!! :DDD

[aliyswyn]

i hate how people use Celtic when what they really mean is Irish

like there are OTHER Celtic countries + their own cultures + different deities too

Celtic doesn't just mean Irish, just bc the Romans and Anglo-Saxons couldn't invade Ireland doesn't mean they're elevated to a higher status of ruling over Celtic things

Celtic =/= Irish

[c0rkboard]

I’ve been having an extremely rough dysphoria week, as someone who really only experiences something dysphoria-esque 98% of the time. this is like. straight up dysphoria and I’m extremely unsettled. I’ve been having a rough mental health week too but the two usually don’t coincide so directly for me.

I’m taking my parents out tomorrow (my car broke down again btw!) and I have nothing to wear that I think I’ll be able to stand and it’s making me anxious. I saved up money for a really nice dinner and everything! I’ve been white knuckling through the day and a half they’ve been here to be completely honest but. I mean I gotta keep doing it but I would not be surprised if I had a bit of an episode soon. It’s looming.