Having health-focused obsessions, especially hypochondria, can be extremely stressful in ways not a lot of people can see. I know that when I’m researching trying to “prove” that I do or do not have a brain tumor or whatever I happen to be worried about at the moment, I get struck with the worry that I want to have that. Of course, logically, I know I don’t want to have a brain tumor, but my brain assumes that because I’m convincing myself I have one, that I must want it, even if it terrifies me. This contradiction is something I never see talked about online and I wanted to acknowledge it.
It is okay to have hypochondria. You are not trying to get the disorder you are worried about. You’re disorderly concerned, but you’re not in love with it. You are not your thoughts.
