Becky (smallest, in the middle) is another one of my characters. She's still fairly new, definitely a rookie, definitely way too easily intimidated by her superiors- There's no harm in tormenting her a little right ? (she 100% will use this as fanfiction writing material later. Yes, she has characters based on her superiors and yes, she might write about them kissing)
Lover (on the left) belongs to @/rokketeer ! And ofc Stryzh is here, mandatory appearance
I know no one has seen any Becky content in like… FOREVER. I don’t know if I’ll get around to making more content for her again or not but to commemorate her I commissioned the fantastic @xla-hainex to draw her and she’s just PERFECT. HIGHLY recommend! Thank you so much!
The logical Side’s room was dark, uncommon for her. Normally the computer monitors were buzzing with activity, brightening the Space with electricity. Now the only source of light was a simple desk lamp.
“Al, Aluminum; Be, Berilium; Cu, Copper; Au, Gold…” she recited the periodic table like a mantra, eyes wide and hands shaking. Her pale hands were wrapped around herself in a tight hug as she rocked back and forth. A soft blue blanket was draped across her quaking shoulders.
A knock caused her to jump in surprise; she lost her balance and toppled onto her side, eyes wide and focused on the gray door. She tried to speak, but her mouth was filled with cotton. All that came out was a small squeak.
‘Is it her? Is she back? It has to be her. There’s no one else who would come by. She knows I’m weak, she’s going to tell me more lies. She’s going to-‘ Her thoughts were broken by the quiet click of the doorknob turning. As her heart pounded and she gasped for breath, she did not see the two enter the room.
“Logic? Logic, is that you?” Creativity’s voice was soft, soothing. She approached the shaking Side, who had since curled into herself and squeezed her eyes shut. Emotion stayed back, watching with teary eyes.
“Logic, listen, it’s Creativity. Can you hear me?” The logical Side kept her eyes shut, but jerkily nodded. “Darling, you’re having a panic attack. I’m going to put my hand on you, is that ok?” Another slight nod.
Even though she had been expecting it, the touch sent another spark of terror through her. Her eyes flew open as she went prone. “Cr…Creativ…?”
The creative Side nodded. “Yes, I’m Creativity. Behind me is Emotion. We want to help, ok?” Logic’s eyes darted to the side and saw Emotion, who waved and smiled comfortingly. “Do you think you can talk, sweetie?” Logic stared at the ground shamefully. “Y..yes…I’m fine…”
Creativity shaked her head, “Logic, it’s completely alright. I’ve had my bouts of anxiety. There’s nothing wrong with a little help during these. Don’t feel ashamed, sweetheart.” She rubbed Logic’s back soothingly. “Come, I know that you’re smart. How about you tell me a few things that you can see.”
Logic closed her eyes, pushing back tears, before she opened them again. “Floor...blanket…you….” She tensed again and her breathing became erratic.
“Logic, darling, it’s ok. Breathe with me.” She demonstrated, breathing in and out slowly. Logic closed her eyes, mimicking Creativity’s breathing. After a few moments, she continued, “You…computer...bed.”
“Good, that’s good, sweetie. Now, how about four things you can touch and feel?” Her voice was low, quiet and soothing.
“Blanket…shirt…you…floor.” Her breathing was steadily becoming more regular. “Good, now three things you can hear.” “Electricity…me…” She paused, struggling to think of something else.
“That’s alright, it’s rather quiet in here.” Creativity smiled, trying to help lighten the mood. “You have a lot of electronics in here, it looks lovely.” “…thanks…” Logic could not help but grin slightly.
“Let’s finish, ok? Can you smell anything?” Logic was silent, truly thinking through her answer. “Perfume and…cookies?”
Creativity chuckled softly. “Yes, Emotion brought her cookie jar along.” Glancing behind the Side, Logic could see that Emotion was indeed holding a large cookie jar. How had she not noticed?
“Last bit, one thing you can taste.” “…chapstick?” “I’ll take it, you did wonderful, darling! Now, let’s get you moved to your bed, how does that sound?” Logic nodded shakily, slowly sitting up with Creativity’s help.
“Emotion, dear, could you please help with this part?” The Side nodded enthusiastically, glad to help, and set the cookie jar on a nearby table. She dashed over to Logic’s other side and gently put her arm around her shoulders.
“I…I can walk, I think. I’ve done this…before.”
Creativity frowned. “Dear, if you don’t mind, we would like to help you over there. In my experience, I’m always worn after these things. I imagine that you’re in a similar state.” “No, I’m fine.” To prove her point, Logic pushed herself to her knees and grabbed onto a desk. She pulled until she was standing, a sigh escaping her.
However, when she moved to let go of the desk, her legs shook and gave out from under her.
Luckily Emotion and Creativity were there to catch her before she fell. “We’ve got ya!” Emotion couldn’t stop herself from exclaiming her relief. Logic grabbed onto the two instinctively, gasping.
“It’s alright, just breathe, darling. We’re still here.” Logic took a few deep breaths, holding onto the other two. After a while of silence, she nodded. “I suppose…I do need help.”
“Nothin’ wrong with that, that’s why we’re here!” Emotion smiled at Logic, Creativity nodding from the other side. “No one should have to go through these alone. Now, let’s get you laid down.”
She scoffed behind her computer, watching the scene unfold on the camera. “I thought you said she’d be out of commission for at least a week!”
A timid voice answered, “I tried, and she would have been! It just, I just, I-“ “Quiet!”
There was a loud crash. She turned back to the monitor with a groan. Suddenly, her scowl turned into a grin. “I just had an idea. I think we can have even more fun with this…”
///This is how I experience panic attacks. It’s different for everyone, so this may not sound right to you. If so, that’s completely fine! This is just what happens in my own experience. Also, spookums? Who could that be?///
