#ocd diagnosed

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I haven’t had a panic attack in two days and because I can’t function like a normal person it’s making me nervous 🙄

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When does being sober get easier? It’s so much harder than I thought it would be. I’m just so angry all the time

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The world is so much bigger than my OCD wants me to believe

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If I started a youtube channel talking about my experiences with OCD and kind of tracking my progress and set backs and day to day living with mental illness would anyone watch it?

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When things seem bad they say you should concentrate on the good things. But they don’t know how loud the intrusive thoughts are. And intrusive thoughts are never positive.

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OCD therapy

Today I have another CBT session. We are starting exposure therapy which I’m absolutely dreading. I’m so anxious but the need to not feel like this anymore is stronger than the urge to run away. That’s how I know I will get better.

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dumb shit people say to me.

*Just don’t think about it

*Distract yourself

*Think about something else

*Get a hobby

*Calm down

*I feel the same

*Chill out

*It’s not that bad

*Other people have it worse

*Why?

I get that it’s hard for people without OCD to understand but how stupid can you be?  Nobody hates this as much as I do.  Nobody hates me as much as I do.

[myocddiary]

My Journal. I fill this with my thoughts, feelings and actions. It’s so important for me to have an outlet. It wouldn’t make sense to anyone else reading it but that doesn’t matter because it’s only for me. My little bit of sanity in my chaotic mind.