#ocdmood

[adventuresinbeingabitch]

I've had a really shitty day. I'm exhausted, I don't want to do this anymore. I feel like nothing matters and no one actually cares about me. It's been really bad, mentally, physically, etc. I just need some sort of escape but I don't know what that is. Everything feels fake.

[adventuresinbeingabitch]

This is the second day he hasn't cuddled me before bed. Last night I had terrible nightmares that he left me, cheated, and eventually torched & murdered me. I just took 3 anti anxiety pills (my limit is 4...per day) hopefully tonight will be different